"I don't want to watch this" Karma said as she rolled her eyes at the selection of movies on Netflix. She kept scrolling through the comedy section over and over hoping that a new movie would just randomly show up. Knowing Karma she'd choose one of the few good movies they did have to offer and she'd happily enjoy it.
"So just pick an Adam Sandler movie" I replied pointing to the movie Click. Adam was one of my favorite actors and I wouldn't mind watching the movie for a tenth time.
Karma sighed, "I don't want to watch Click… GREASE!" She shouted as John Travolta and and Olivia Newton-John appeared on our screen. She turned to me, earning an immediate eye roll, I'd never seen Grease and I didn't intend to watch it now, "C'mon Amy, you've never watched Grease"
"And I don't want to" I said taking the remote from her hand. I began scrolling through another selection of movies waiting for Karma to choose. Whenever we had a movie night, Karma usually chose the movie. And though we usually sat through Twilight marathons only to criticize the movie, we were set on watching an actual movie this time.
Karma grabbed the remote after a while and set it down, "Amy, can we talk?" She asked diverting my attention away from Netflix. I turned to face her, her eyes were wide and her lips were pursed together… The Thinking Face. Whenever Karma was over thinking something she made this face that looked as if she'd just eaten a lemon.
"What's wrong?" I asked raising an eyebrow, "You have the thinking face on" As much as I tried to study her face and figure out what she was thinking, I couldn't. Karma was a great liar.
Karma sighed and grabbed my hand in hers, "Are we going to talk about the other night? Or are you set on completely avoiding it?"
I turned away just to roll my eyes. Yes, I was avoiding the topic due to the fact I was scared to hear what Karma had to say. Had she changed her mind about how she felt about me? I was only a few weeks into dating Reagan and I would have no problem leaving it all to be with Karma, she was in fact, my dream girl.
"What about the other night?" I asked a little too harsh for her liking. She cringed slightly and then shook it off.
"It's been a week Amy, the feelings are still there" Karma explained and the deepest sigh of relief escaped from my mouth. Those were the words I wanted to hear more than anything in this world and when she said them it felt as if a wait had been lifted off my chest.
I bit my lip as I studied her face and it was there. The glisten Karma got in her eye when she was in love. I noticed it when she was with Liam and I was noticing it now as she stared into my eyes. It was there. The spark was there.
"Karma, listen-"
"No. You listen." Karma interrupted, "I get it. You told me you loved me and I completely rejected you, I didn't feel the same. But when I was with Liam something didn't feel right, I felt so… lost. When you started dating Reagan I felt something else, I felt anger, jealousy, I-I hated her because she had you, and I didn't. I know how you felt Amy, I know. I felt it just like you did and I am so sorry. I know you'd be taking a chance on me, I know you'd be risking it all for me. But all I'm asking for is one chance, one chance to show you that I love you and that we belong together."
I never thought I'd see the day that these words would come out of Karma's mouth. Each word she spoke made my heart beat faster, I wanted her more than anything in this world. I wanted to kiss her, not the way I had when we were faking it. I wanted something real, like the other night. I wanted something full of passion and love not lust and unreal feelings but I wanted it based on honesty. I refused to cheat on Reagan and I wouldn't. I jumped up from the couch grabbing my keys and phone off of the table as I strode over to the front door.
"Where are you going?" Karma questioned as she followed behind me. She looked scared as if I was walking out on her. Little did she know that would be the last thing I'd ever do to her because I loved her. I loved her at her worst, I loved her at her best, I loved her.
I licked my lips and looked away from her to the door and then back, "I love you, you know that, right?" She nods, her eyes beginning to glisten with tears, "But I can't be with you if I'm with Reagan and I-I can't cheat on her…"
Karma looked down, trying to avoid eye contact before the tears began pouring out of her eyes. I lifted her chin up and forced her to look at me, "And that's why I have to break up with her before we try this… If you're serious I will end it with her right now and it can be us, just you and me. I either want 100% or nothing at all."
Karma's eyes lit up, "I promise I will give this relationship 150% nothing less"
I smiled and walked out the door, "I need to end it with Reagan."
I spent the whole car ride debating on how to break up with Reagan that when I finally reached her apartment I realized I hadn't settled on a solution. I liked her, she was a sweet girl, she was funny and I won't even go into detail about how great she is in bed… but my heart was claimed and I couldn't fight it. I turned my car off and stuffed the keys into my pocket before exiting the car. I walked right up to the main door and entered, taking a deep breath, I began my ascent up the stairs to her apartment.
"You can do this, you can do this" I muttered to myself just as I reached her front door. I knocked twice and waited for an answer. Within minutes Reagan was at the door in her pajamas, her hair neatly tied back.
"What are you doing here?" She asked with a smile but it quickly faded away, "This can't be good"
I sighed, "We should talk."
Reagan let out a laugh, "Listen if you want to break up-"
"Break up?" I asked. How did she know? Had Karma called ahead to warn her? Had she told Shane who passed it on to Liam who passed it to Reagan?
She nodded, "I felt this coming, we're just two different people. Sleeping together was one thing but this whole dating thing? It's not really my thing besides I've had my eye on someone else and so have you"
I was at a loss for words, did she really just say that? So if I hadn't broken up with her she would've broken up with me? Her eye on someone else? And all the feelings I thought I had from her escaped like a wave sinking back into the ocean, I didn't love Reagan and I never would.
"So we're okay?" I asked.
Reagan nodded, "I'd still love to be your friend, if that's okay?"
I nodded, "Of course." I smiled and turned away, I was going to drive back to Karma's and enjoy my night with her.
"Can I ask you one question?" Reagan asked as I turned around. I turned back to face her and she bit her lip, "Did Karma finally fall for you?" She inquired, her voice soft and curious.
"Yes"
"Good." Was her only response as she slipped back into her apartment.
