Chapter 12

I stood in front of Zim's door for about ten minutes contemplating whether I should enter or not. But in the end I decided that I had to do it for Gin.

I was about to knock again when suddenly I stopped once more…the gnomes didn't attack me when I came up here…Not a single laser was fired my way. Going against my better judgment I decided to skip the knocking part and just try the doorknob as it was. Surprisingly the knob turned without resistance and the door opened smoothly.

It was dark and quiet inside, and the T.V. was on and playing the scary monkey show. GIR never misses this show, every day for the past six years he has watched this show. I would know because of the camera remember? Of course you do.

I walked inside the house slowly expecting to be ambushed at any moment but for some reason I wasn't. Suddely I heard the whirr of a machine and I saw GIR coming up from a circle in the floor looking as sad as a robot could possibly look. When he saw me his eyes went wide and he lunged himself at me.

"MARY YOU CAME TO SAVE MASTER!" he screamed into my hear and I pulled him off my head and set him down.

"What do you mean? Is there something wrong with Zim?" I asked him suddenly even more alert than I had been about twenty seconds ago if that was even possible.

"MASTERS GONNA SPLODE LIKE THIS, CABOOOM!" he yelled and my brow's furrowed in confusion.

"Zim's going to blow up?" I asked and he nodded again impersonating the explosion.

"Why is he going to do that?" I asked fearing what the answer might be.

"Ever since the tall peoples called, Master's been sad, so he decided to splode this world and all the cows, THE COWS! NO THE COWS ARE MY FRIENDS!" I stared down at the robot that was now in hysterics rolling on the ground and screaming.

"GIR can you take me to Zim, right now?" he immediately stopped rolling around on the ground and screamed an agreement. Then he took me over to the toilet and told me to get inside. I knew this was the way to Zim's secret underground base and so I pulled the cord and started my disgusting decent underground.

I was spit out into a room where Zim was seen working on something with extreme concentration. He was so deep in his work he actually didn't notice me come into the room.

I walked closer hoping to see what he was doing and by the time I had gotten within six feet of him I could hear him muttering about what he was doing.

"Yes, when I am finished with this, the only things left on this pathetic world will be fire and destruction. It will cause an explosion so large that even The Massive will be aware. I will prove them, wrong prove them ALL WRONG. When I am finished with this self destruct button THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE WILL KNOW THAT ZIM, IS THE GREATEST INVADER EVER. HEHEHEHEHEHEH HAHAHAHAHAHAH MUAAHAHAHAHAAAA! Just a few more touches an-,"

"NO!" I screamed without thinking and yanked Zim back from the table knocking him onto the floor and forcing him to drop the small metallic device he was holding.

When he landed on the ground he turned around and stared at me with shock and hatred in his eyes. I pounced on him, pinning his arms down and sitting on his chest. Zim's incredibly strong, always has been, but in this position I know he can't get away.

"COMPU-ACK!" I pressed my knee into his throat so that he wouldn't call his computer.

"I know what your little plan is Zim and I am NOT letting you get away with it this time. Ha! And to think I actually felt guilty for the things I said to you. I should have never thought you actually believed me," I growled at him, angry that I was stupid enough to let my guard down around him. He tried to say something but got choked by my knee. I lifted it just the smallest amount ready to cut him off again if he tried to yell out.

"Oh yeah? And what is that plan Dib-Stink?" he asked with a mocking tone that made my blood boil.

"You're going to use some sort of bomb and blow earth up aren't you? And while we're here suffering you're going to be up in space laughing at us," I growled and he smirked at me.

"Partly yes, but partly no. I will not be up in space laughing at you. No, I will be right here with you, waiting for it all to finally end," he said, but the mock was gone, replaced with a depressed and worn tone. His response stopped me, and made my stomach turn in the worst way possible. It wasn't a pleasant feeling and I closed my eyes hoping it would go away. When it finally passed I looked down at Zim and he looked back at me with a look in his eyes that I couldn't quite place.

He looked so sad, and vulnerable, but at the same time he looked pretty. His crimson eyes shining with this unknown emotion in them. My heart rate sped up in my chest, probably from the adrenaline going through my system.

I realized that we had been staring at each other for a long time when Zim's gaze turned confused and he turned his head away slightly.

I finally managed to find my voice and let out a breath I didn't know I had been holding.

"Zim…you we're going to…kill yourself?" I asked the question in disbelief. But, I guess it was to be expected I mean…after what I did. I was shocked when I felt something warm and wet slide down my face. I didn't expect to find myself crying, at the pain of my enemy. It's a scene I never would have ever expected had you asked me when Zim first arrived. I did my best to catch the tears on my sleeve so that they wouldn't fall and hurt him, why? I don't know.

"You finally get it Dib? Yes, I am, there is after all no reason for me to keep on living. And why would I want to live the rest of my life with no cause, nothing to live for? I certainly don't want to spend it here on this filthy ball of disgustingness. You can't stop me Dib! This is something I have to do, when I blow this place up I will finally be recognized as a good invader. This is the only thing I can do to restore my title as an Irken," he sounded desperate and had started crying again and, seeing it in person was even more shocking than on film. He turned his head as far away from me as possible obviously trying to hide the fact that he was crying and I looked down on him with sadness.

This was all about being accepted for him in the end. He just wanted someone to finally believe in him, to tell him that he is amazing. Well…it's true I suppose, I mean despite making a lot of really stupid choices and not thinking things through, he is still really amazing.

He's created inventions far beyond advanced by earth standards. He saved his best friends life, he comes from an elite race of aliens. He's faithful and loyal, and nice, and sometimes a good friend, and a great dresser, and just fucking fantastic in general, and…amazing…At that moment I heard Gin's voice in my head.

"Love and hate are two very similar emotions, who knows when they become the same thing."

I came to a realization at that moment.

Zim is worth so much more than anyone has ever given him credit for. He deserved so much more than he was given in live. He has been the only thing that's been important in my life since I was ten, and I don't want him to die. Without Zim, well, where would I be? I would be nowhere, doing nothing with my life. I would truly have nothing to live for because; I've been pretty much living my life for him. To fight him, to see him, to laugh at him, to smile with him, to be out casted with him, to care about him. Zim' is my everything…and, I've fallen in love with him.

And at that moment, I did something that would have made me want to hurl six years ago. I leaned down to his face, removed my hands from his wrists, turned him towards me, and pressed my lips to his…