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Chapter 5: Her Tears -Part 1
Location: Hellsing- Barracks
Date: Present: Thursday June 25th (Present)
Time: 7:20 pm
The Wild Geese remained silent and shivered as they felt awkwardness in the atmosphere.
All of the men watched their captain with nothing but look of pure disbelief at the scene before him. Meanwhile, Candy kept giving Seras a semi dirty and snorted at the fact that someone better looking and dressed then herself.
John gave a look toward Cyrus while thinking. 'Ah shit.'
'Not good' Cyrus thought.
The men to eye her carefully like a ticking time bomb, waiting for their sweet little Mignonette to explode into maximum rage mode. Surprisingly though, after a moment of silence, Seras did not scream in fury at the scene before her.
Instead, she walked emotionlessly toward the table to put her huge pink present for the captain down in the middle with all the other presents.
'Leave…I gotta leave. Fast…but in a calm manner. I don't wish to make a scene. '
Seras was headed towards the door with her head duck down, her bangs covering her eyes. All she wanted to do was to leave quickly to not look at her captain...
no.
That man who was kissing another woman.
For once, Seras wished more then anything else in the world to use her vampire powers to vanish swiftly before they could blink. But of course, there was that woman in the room and Seras knew she had to be cautious around humans.
As everyone watched Seras leave, Candy exclaimed, "Who's the kid and is she allowed to stay past her bedtime? "
Seras stopped before the door and froze for a moment. The Geese Men, especially Pip Bernadotte, were terrified and began sweating as they pictured Seras would snap into maximum VAMPIRE rage mode and literally tear that woman apart for calling her a kid. Then they were worried about who was gonna bury her body after Seras was through with her.
But to their surprise, they saw Seras plastering on a huge smile. Pip noted it wasn't her usual warm one, but those forced smiles he saw a few times at his stay in Hellsing anytime she something was troubling her and didn't want anyone to worry about her.
"Hello there. My name is Seras Victoria. What might your name be, Miss? "Seras softly answered.
Candy raised her eyebrows, not expecting a kind reaction. She then muttered while blinking. "Hi. I'm Candace. Candy for short."
"It's a pleasure to meet you Candy. As for your earlier question, I was only here to…"
Seras stopped herself for a moment and then nervously added. "-to…drop of a gift for Mr. Bernadotte."
The men began to watch anxiously as they began to look back from Seras to Candy.
"A present?" Candy scoffed as she closed her eyes. "How does a kid like you know Pip?"
Seras detected the hint of rudeness in her sentence but remained calm.
"Clearly you are a great judge of character. You're right. I am only nineteen years old. I am just a kid. But you don't look one. Tell me, how old are you? "
Candy's eye twitched at the blonde girls comeback. "Don't change the subject. You didn't answer my question."
"I was not aware you were his girlfriend. I am sorry. I did not think that Mr. Bernadotte had a girlfriend to begin with." Seras responded bleakly.
Candy sneered. "Well. I wouldn't call us a couple exactly. We haven't seen each other since two and a half weeks ago. Not since that one night when he first came here."
Seras eyes widened slightly and understood now what she meant. She now felt her heart shatter into a billion pieces and her dry throat felt suddenly it had a huge lump in it. However, she refused to give everyone in the room (especially Pip and the woman) the satisfaction of showing them her tears. She stood her ground and effortlessly made her face completely serious.
"I see. Then I apologize for insulting you. I came here because I wanted to give this present to Mr. Bernadotte as a thank you present." Seras replied by closing her eyes as she sighed.
Then Candy's expression changed into a blank one. "Thank you present? For what?"
Seras glanced at her captain who was now waiting to hear the answer himself. She narrowed her eyes slightly before shutting them again.
"Mr. Bernadotte here saved my life."
Candy jaw dropped. "He what?"
"Oh yes." Seras nodded as she continued. "About three days ago, there were a couple of guys trying to hurt me and my mas-...my father. We escape fast or else they were going to find us and hurt us. "
Candy eyes raised. "Escaped what?"
"We were being attacked. " Seras replied. "I don't know why, but we were being ambushed for no reason. Anyway, as we were running, Mr. Bernadotte came to me and my mas-father, and helped us escaped. He even got a helicopter to fly us away."
"A helicopter? How the hell did he managed-" Candy exclaimed but was interrupted by Seras again.
The men were flabbergasted at the fact Seras revealed her mission to the ordinary woman. Of course, she took out some major parts and added in a few white lies here and there but it still didn't wipe that shock look on Pip's face.
'The hell? Why did the Mignonette say that aloud? Is she trying to tell me something about the mission back in Brazil? She also keeps calling me Mr. Bernadotte...She's never called me that. Not only that, but the way she is saying and the look on her face. Her blue eyes...they somehow seem so-'
"He called the police and a special squad forces to come. He's been very brave and strong the whole time I knew him. So like I said before. I just wanted to express my gratitude to Mr. Bernadotte. Nothing more. I'll be going now. " Seras said now turning towards the door. She was in between the entrance, holding the door ready to shut the door behind her.
Then without turning back to face the others, she whispered faintly. "Oh yeah...Happy Birthday...Mr. Bernadotte."
Seras didn't know why she even said that to Pip. She wanted nothing more then to get away from Pip yet she found herself saying "Happy Birthday" to the man who basically shattered her heart. It didn't make sense to her. Perhaps she did it to spare herself for being consumed from anger and just wanted to end the night in "good" terms.
She took two steps and then closed the door behind her. The room was once again filled with an awkward silence. The Wild Geese Men felt so much guilt and regret towards Seras right now, they no longer felt in the mood to get drunk and party at all. All they wanted to do was run after her. Yet, they couldn't since the one who had to run to her first was Pip. He was the one who had to make it right.
Even, Candy stood there looking towards the door no longer feeling bitter envy. She didn't know why but she actually felt pity for the girl for some reason.
'She's left? That's it. Hell, I don't understand. That look...the way she looked at him. She just gave up like that? I don't get it.'
The girl last words made Candy feel pity for the girl since she now knew that the girl obviously had feelings for the captain. Who wouldn't after such a heroic act? Candy knew she would fall for any guy who would risk his life to save hers.
Pip simply stared at the door for about three seconds before snapping out of his thoughts.
'The hell I'm still standing here…I gotta go get her. '
Not caring about everyone else was in the room, Pip dashed after Seras hoping it wasn't too late.
Location: Hellsing- Field
Date: Present: Thursday June 25th
Time: 7:25 pm
Seras was walking rapidly across the slightly damp field, trying so hard not to cry. Thoughts been gushing around her head to the point were she had to struggle to focus walking in a straight line. Her legs and arms kept losing energy now and then while her chest felt like it got the wind blown out of her by a ton of weights.
'Why…Why did this happen? I don't get it. All those jokes, smiles, laughs. Were they all lies? Was he merely toying with my emotions? I thought he really liked me…I really did. I'm such a fool. A complete fool. The way they all looked at me. Especially, the woman and Pip...
"WAIT!"
A silent and slow tear began stream down Seras left eye. She stood still for a moment to feel the tear dropping down toward her chin. She then continued to walk until she heard his voice again.
"SERAS!"
She cringed as she heard the harsh footsteps coming closer and closer.
"SERAS! WAIT. LISTEN TO ME. PLEASE."
Pip began panting as he struggled to remain clam.
Seras who still had her back to him, ask firmly. "What is it? "
His eyes noticed the stiff stance Seras had and her refusal to look at him.
"WELL?" She severely asked. "What do you want?"
Pip winced as he began walking towards her. "Seras…we need to talk."
He pressed a hand on her shoulder but her shoulder flinched away at his touch.
"Don't touch me." She snarled as she faced away from Bernadotte, her bangs began covering her eyes. "Go away."
Pip now resorted to grabbing both her shoulders in order for her to face him. Normally, Seras would have just threatened to flick her finger at him, but even as something simple as that was too painful for her.
"No! Listen." Pip began. "Back there. It's not what you think. I mean I know what it looked like, but it wasn't like that. SHE kissed me and you came in. I swear! It wasn't anything like that. You know I would never-"
SMACK
Seras's hand began shaking after she left a huge red mark on Pip's face. Her eyes angrily pierced through his vulnerable green eye. Both of Pip's hands released her shoulders. He touched the swollen cheek and was in disbelief the Mignonette just slapped him. He glanced at her and noticed a tear streak on her face.
"Don't ever touch me again." She threatened. "Save your excuses Bernadotte. I don't want to hear it. I know what I saw. Her lips were on YOUR mouth. You expect me to believe that a gorgeous woman like her "FORCED" you to kiss her? Please. I may be naïve but I'm not an idiot."
Pip peered at her eyes, which were now a bit watery and gently replied. "It's the truth damn it. I didn't kiss her. SHE kissed me. Ask the guys. It's the truth. I know I may joke around all the time but I'm completely serious about this. "
Seras was silent for a moment considering the possibility asking The Wild Geese about what really happened. Of course, they were his men and he could have ordered them to lie to her too. Or maybe they would lie to her out of pity. Suddenly a new thought came into her head.
"Alright. But tell me this. Who invited her? Huh? I don't recall someone else coming to your party. Not like it's my business or anyway, but it would have been nice to know you hired a hook- a woman like that to attend your party. " She replied.
He blinked at the sudden question and looked away from Seras not answering.
"I knew it. You did. You hired her huh?" Seras muttered, as Pip lowered his face.
"Yes. I did." He uttered in shame. "I called her. I admit it."
There was no point of talking to him any further since she got the answer she expected. Seras shook her head as she shoved past Pip. He chased after her while until he grabbed her hand.
"Please Seras...Just listen to me. " Pip begged. "I just want you to know the whole truth about everything."
Immediately Seras twisted her hand away from Pip's and mocked.
"What's there to listen too? How you were planning to have a GREAT time with, what's her face, Candy? How you met her two and half weeks ago and how you two had been "involved" the first night you came to London? Was that what you wanted me to listen too? Huh? Because quite frankly, I don't care to hear any of it. "
"No. I just wanted to tell you-" Pip began but was now met with Seras's finger on his lips.
"Just stop, Bernadotte. " Seras interrupted her voice rising.
"Look, you're a big boy, you can do whatever you want. So you have no reason to explain to me. It's not like I care who you're involved with or anything. "
It was now Pip's to lose his temper.
Clearly Seras didn't want to hear what he had to say which angered him because she wasn't giving him a chance to explain himself. Sure it was a "little" hypercritical of him to think this way (considering what has happened in the past few days events). Still it hurt to see Seras refusing to speak let alone look at him and resorting to violence to keep him away from getting to close to her.
"Oh yeah?" He starkly replied. "Then why are you so upset huh? If you don't care then why are you refusing to look at me in the eye? How come you claim you don't care and yet earlier you smacked me when I was trying to explain the truth behind the kiss. How come I saw that tear streak in your watery eyes after you smacked me? Huh? Tell me Seras!"
"Don't even try and turn this around on me. " Seras started, her face flushing with anger and embarrassment. "But to answer your question, I'm only angry because I can't believe I almost went to a disgusting dirty party and would have witnessed something far worse than that kiss. Come to think of it, I'm pretty damn grateful it was only a kiss I witnessed."
Pip gave a bitter laugh. "That's bull Seras and you know it."
Swiftly, she peered at Pip's face. "Excuse me? Who the hell are you to tell me I'm a liar? "
"Who am I?" Pip repeated as he began to close the distance between the two of them. "Who am I? I am your Captain. I am your friend. I am the man you claim to have feelings for. "
Seras eyes widened and then gave a high-pitched laugh. "Yeah, right. Don't be so full of yourself Pip. Not every girl you encounter falls in love with you. What ever makes you think that I would ever-"
"No. That's the thing. I know how you really feel about me." Pip cut in as he lowered his gaze at a now tense Seras who was slightly shaking.
"That's right Mignonette. I know how you really feel about me. I admit I didn't know the entire time but I found out today."
He began smiling as now pulled Seras into a tight hug. He began stroking the top of her blonde hair as he muttered. "All this time…You had those feelings for me."
The embrace made Sera's body go limp for a few seconds. She no longer felt angry but truly tranquil. Was it because he knew her feelings for him? Maybe it was because he was being incredibly kind at this moment. Or maybe…
Pip: "I admit I didn't know the entire time but I found out today."
Seras face paled as his last words repeated in her head. She no longer felt relaxed but now felt her a sense of dread.
'Everyone…then. The Wild Geese….Pip…They all knew…They knew my feelings.'
Then it slapped her in the face as she flashbacked about the horrible encounter that happened a few minutes ago.
That's why they gave her all those looks. Cyrus must have told his Captain and everyone else in the room about her feelings about Pip. They all knew. Everyone, so all this time.
"Who told you?"
Seras then slowly pulled away from Pip's arms and narrowed her eyes. "Who told you? How did you know about my feelings toward you?"
Pip eyes blinked for a moment and he sighed. "Well…"
"Cyrus told you didn't he? Not only that but he told your men too huh? Seras said as she stepped back three steps away from her captain.
"It wasn't exactly Cyrus who told us…" Pip said as he scratched the back of his neck. "He sorta recorded the whole conversation he had with you."
Seras simply stared at him and scowled. " He what? What do you mean by record?"
"As in tape record, Seras." Pip groaned in horror.
"Record?" Seras repeated now shaking her head. "Bernadotte…Why would Cyrus record my conversation? I don't believe it. I don't think even he would stoop so low to record a private conversation with me."
Pip closed his eyes. "It's the truth. To prove it, I'll tell you. You guys were near the garden and sat a bench. He asked you if were on a date with Alucard yesterday and you laughed and said no. You said you went to by a gift for me yesterday and Alucard joined you. Then you confessed your love to me and-"
"No...no…no." She whispered as she held her head looking down on the floor.
Humiliation. Utter and pure humiliation was the only thing she felt right now. All the men and Pip not only found out her feelings but to make matters worse, they actually heard her confession with their very ears. They all heard the way she talked about the captain. They must have laughed their asses off when they found out.
"But why? Seras asked as she began to shake in fury to the point it frightened Pip as he noticed her baby blue eyes suddenly turning red.
"Why the HELL would he record that conversation? Did I do something to Cyrus? Did you send him to do that? What in the hell is going on? What in the hell could I have possibly done to deserve to be violated and humiliated in such a way. It must have been pretty funny to you all to hear that huh?" Seras whispered as she no longer held in the tears that were coming out not listening to Pip's sentence.
"I bet you and your men roared with laughter as you heard my pathetic voice-"
Pip ran toward her and he quickly held her hand and began rubbing it gently. He never in such a state of despair and it broke his heart to see her this way. Normally, Seras was a tough and preppy girl who ever hardly expressed negativity. But right now, all Pip wanted her to do was to stop crying and be her old happy self.
"No! We didn't laugh You did nothing wrong. It was me. It's all my fault. It's all because I was so depressed and-"The tape recorder fell by accident and pressed play." Pip started as he breathed in knowing the explanation was about to get worse.
"Cyrus only recorded you because of me. I thought you had feelings for your master and went on a date with him yesterday. Then later at night, I still hadn't seen you or Alucard come into the Hellsing Mansion. I admit I thought you guys did more then just "date." After I got these ideas into my head. I did everything I did because I was an idiot since I got moody as hell. That's when I called Candy because the thought of you and Alucard together just bothered the hell out of me! "
Ignoring the last comment, Seras cried out her voice cracking. "So…You thought I was on a "date" with my master and did things with him after? You assumed and made up your mind that I had feelings for him. Why did you not just ask me then and there if it so called bothered you? No. You know what, why the hell it would bother you? Is it because you didn't go on a so-called "date" with me? I understand. You were bothered at the fact that you hadn't claimed me in time? That I wasn't girl number whatever in your list. Was that it?"
At this point, Seras began weeping not caring anymore the man whom she loved and caused her so much grief was watching her with what it looked like pity and guilt. There was no point putting on a brave face anymore because she knew she had lost what was left of her pride and dignity the moment the tape recorder revealed everything to the Wild Geese.
She never felt this way in her entire life. A flashback of horrible memories swirled through her head. Her parent's death, being in an abusive orphanage, the deaths of her police partners and allies all began to flash before her eyes. Now this whole night and fight was added to the rest of the terrible memories.
"Seras…" Pip softly begged as he cupped his hand into the right side of her face.
She shook her head and gave a small smiled. "Just forget it. You didn't trust me. You didn't have the guts to ask me directly what was going on and instead you decided to hire a woman to comfort you. You and even the rest of your men even, relied on a tape recorder for the truth. I thought we were all comrades and trusted each other as very good friends. But I guess, I was just a fool to think such a way. As always, I was destined for a life of pure solitude and pain. Goodbye…Mr. Bernadotte. "
"Goodbye?..." Pip repeated, his face in panic. The tone of how she said those last three words made the back of his throat dry.
"W-w-wh-what do you mean by that?"
Seras gently grabbed his hand and gave it a soft squeeze.
"Goodbye as in… The only time I will see you is when my master and Sir Integra wishes me to accompany you all in battle. Other than that, I no longer wish to see you or even you're men again. As of this day, I will be truly be nothing but a monster of war to The Wild Geese. Farewell, Captain Bernadotte. "
Before Pip even speak, Seras then used her little ounce of vampire strength to glide away from him and towards the other side of the Hellsing Mansion.
Location: Hellsing-Mansion-Walter's Room/Hallway
Date: Present: Thursday June 25th
Time: 7:56pm
Walter began to sip some of his jasmine tea as he reviewing some of the paper work Integra left for him to do. That's the funny thing about Hellsing, normally when there are no missions; there was always piles of paperwork that needed to be done.
The papers Walter had in his hand were just some easy enough to complete. Yet the annoying part was they took a long time to fill out and extremely boring. Although, Walter was so used to filling out these papers, he gotten pretty used to filling them out rapidly.
'I did half the paper work. I suppose I could use a break. After all these papers are not to be turn in until Monday. I guess I can take a quick stroll around the kitchen and get myself another cup of tea. '
As he stepped out of his bedroom however, he heard footsteps coming from the hallway. Alarmed, he grabbed one his gloves and wiggled out one of his microfilament wires as he opened his door slowly. He peeked through the open crack and then heard what sounded like sobbing.
'Crying? Who can possibly be crying? Wait…is that Seras?'
Before he could finish his thought, he noticed at a great distance, that the mysterious form turned out to be Seras Victoria. Her hand was covering her face as he noticed the tears streaming down her face. Gradually, she began walking for what seemed like an hour to Walter before she was about five feet away from his room.
'She's crying…What on earth is going on?...Damn it. Who did this to her!'
Suddenly the door swung open, which slightly frightened Seras who was now blushing and facing away the door as she quickly saw who was coming out of the door.
"Ser-Miss Victoria?…" Walter whispered at Seras who had his back to him.
"Oh my…Walter! Oh! You startled me." She said as she nervously wiped her whole face with her black-laced sleeve.
"Is everything alright Miss Victoria?" Walter muttered as he walked toward her.
After a few moments, she turned and smiled. "Of course. I'm just a little tired is all! I didn't get any sleep for the whole day and all so I figured I should just go to bed early tonight. I'm sorry. I have interrupted your work didn't I? Well I will be on my way now to my room. Good night Walter. "
Before she could escape though, Walter swiftly grabbed Seras's right hand gently.
She turned to him wide eyed. "Walter?"
He raised his eyebrows seeing puffy red eyes watering up again.
"Miss Victoria, Something is troubling you. I know it's not my place to pry into your life. However, I am not only just the Hellsing Butler, a fellow comrade, but I do hope I am also your personal friend whom is concerned about you."
His eyes began to grow soft and he let go of her arm. "Miss Victoria. Has someone done something to upset you?"
Touched by what Walter said, Seras nodded for a moment as the tears began to spill as she trembled.
"W-Wa-Oh, Walter!"
Closing the distance, Seras embraced Walter as she began sobbing hard into his chest. Taken aback a little from the hug, Walter quickly and firmly hugged her back.
"He…Her…Kissing…." She coughed out as she now began to weep painfully shaking her head in Walter's chest.
Walter blinked but already had an idea of what made her upset.
'He? Her?, Kissing?" Ah. I see…It seems Captain Bernadotte has something to do with this. But who is "her?" Another woman perhaps? For certain it is.'
He then patted Seras back and lowered his head toward her hair.
"There. There. Mis-Seras. It's alright. I'm right here. You do not have to say anything you do not wish too. "
Seras shook her head and mumbled. "No. I will tell you.…Please Walter, what ever you do. Please don't leave me."
"I wouldn't dare to even think about leaving you at a time like this." She then looked up at his him with the saddest eyes he has ever scene in his life. Walter then, with his own sleeve, wiped the tears in Seras's face.
He then noticed Seras's knees buckling as she struggled to stand. Without thinking, he picked her up, which made her blush.
"Walter. Oh no please. Put me down. I can walk." She blabbed out since she knew that not only Walter was a little old to be doing this but also she was convinced she was extremely heavy from the amount of weight and size of her breasts.
Walter chuckled. "No need to worry Seras. I may be old but I am stronger than an ox. Besides, you haven't consumed enough blood yet and I'm afraid that in addition to your now emotional stress, your body is weakening."
Seras nodded as she cried. "Thank you. Walter."
"No thanks are necessary. Now let's go to your room so you feel a little more comfortable." Walter said they began to head for her room.
'Seras. I don't know what has happened, I'll seek to it that no one ever makes you cry like this again.'
Note: Pip and Seras fight! Oh noes D: WHAT THE HECK'S GONNA HAPPEN!
Okay I'm gonna divide this chapter up into two parts. XD So yeah...Sorry I was a little late. But at least you know I'm not dead! :D
tehehe Snuck in a little WalterxSeras which is now one of my favorite crack pairings. (I really love the idea of Dark Walter and Seras now since made me become a huge Walter fanatic now. XD)