Today, our songs were to be performed. I was extremely nervous but determined to get back at Jace. I had spent all weekend writing my song and I was ready.
That morning when I woke up I was still incredibly sore from my beating on Friday night. I still couldn't think of Jace without wanting to throw up from the pain or cry from the hurt that he caused me. Jonathan just assisted in the pain but what Jace did went straight to my heart. I couldn't help but feel betrayed still. I thought I heard someone open the front door through the pounding of my heart in my ears.
I guess I was grasping at blind hope at the thought that Jace actually came to apologize. I desperately wanted him to love me, to hold me, to save me. To be my guardian angel.
I covered my bruises and cuts with massive amounts of make up and still I didn't look normal. Then again, I never did.
I was nervously bouncing in my seat all day until I finally got to Music. Jace tried to talk to me in art that morning but I moved my seat and shoved my headphones in my ears to block him out. I had to fight back tears when people laughed at me continuously and him just sitting there with a smug smirk on his lips. Although I could see something in his eyes. Something that I couldn't quite place, almost regret.
Before I could walk into music I was cornered by Jace himself. He grabbed my arm before I could grab the door handle and pulled me next to the lockers. We got curious glances from bystanders but he just glared at them to keep walking.
"What do you want Jace?" I asked him fighting back the tears. He just stared into my eyes for a few moments almost wishing me not to cry.
"I'm so sorry Clary-" I cut him off there.
"Sorry?! You're sorry! Pah! That means nothing to me! Not only did you lead me on! I trusted you. For some reason I felt that I could even though I knew you for only a few days. You betrayed me Jace! I can't believe you!"
I quickly turned away from him and walked into the class. I couldn't stand to see him anymore. I walked up to the teacher and asked him if I could go today. I wanted to get this over with more than anything.
"Yes Clary, in fact you can go right now. I that ok?" Mr. Garraway asked me.
"That's perfect." I told him with a sly smile.
I walked on stage and I had asked some of my friends who play instruments to back me up. I grabbed the mic and waited for Mr. Garraway to get everyone under control.
"Ok class! We had a volunteer to go first! Please welcome Clary!"
As the band started playing I made eye contact with Jace and held it through out my entire song.
Perfect by nature.
Icons of self-indulgence
Just was we all need,
More lies about a world that…
…never was and never will be.
Have you no shame? Don't you see me?
You know you've got everybody fooled.
Look, here he comes now.
Bow down and stare in wonder.
Oh, how we love you.
No flaws when you're pretending.
But now I know he…
…never was and never will be.
You don't know how you've betrayed me.
And somehow you've got everybody fooled.
Without the mas, where will you hide?
Can't find yourself lost in your lie.
I know the truth now,
I know who you are,
And I don't love you anymore.
It never was and never will be.
You don't know how you've betrayed me.
And somehow you've got everybody fooled.
Never was and never will be.
You're not real and you can't save me.
Somehow now you're everybody's fool.
Through out the entire song Jace wouldn't stop staring at the ground from the second the chorus hit and realization hit him, he broke eye contact and seeing that everyone was looking from me to him- he chose to stare at the floor.
At the end of the song he finally looked up and I saw that his mask had dropped. He had true and torturous sorrow written across his features.
When Mr. Garraway asked for any more volunteers Jace calmly walked up to the mini stage and took the microphone from me. He covered the top with his hand and whispered 2 dreadful words to me. I know.
With those words my body froze. I knew that I hadn't been imagining things. I knew that he had come into my home that night.
He gave me a slight nudge and apologetic nod before I took my seat and his own song started.
She's watching the taxi driver, he pulls away
She's been locked up inside her apartment a hundred days
She says, "Yeah, he's still coming, just a little bit late
He got stuck at the Laundromat washing his cape"
She's just watching the clouds roll by and they spell her name like Lois Lance
And she smiles, oh the way she smiles
She's talking to angles,
Counting the stars
Making a which on a passing car
She's dancing with strangers,
Falling apart
Waiting for Superman to pick her up
In his arms, yeah, in his arms, yeah
Waiting for Superman
She's out on the corner trying to catch glimpse
Nothing's making sense
She's been chasing an answer, a sign lost in the abyss,
This Metropolis
She says, "Yeah, he's still coming, just a little bit late
He got stuck and the Five and Dime saving the day"
She says, "If life was a movie, then it wouldn't end like this,
Left without a kiss."
Still, she smiles, the way she smiles, yeah
She's talking to angles,
She's counting the starts
Making a wish on a passing car
She's dancing with strangers,
She's falling apart
Waiting for Superman to pick her up
In his arms, yeah, in his arms, yeah
She's waiting for Superman…
…to lift her up and take her anywhere
Show her love and flying through the air
Save her now before it's too late tonight
Oh, at the speed of light
And she smiles
She's talking to angels,
She's counting the stars
Making a wish on a passing car
She's dancing with strangers,
She's falling apart
Waiting for Superman to pick her up
In his arms, yeah, in his arms, yeah
She's waiting for Superman…
…to lift her up and taker her anywhere
Show her love, oh, and flying through the air
Save her now before it's too late tonight
She's waiting for Superman
At some point during the song I had started crying. I couldn't contain the tears anymore. At the end I sprinted out of the room only to be followed by Jace.
I couldn't think properly right now. Part of me wanted to forgive him completely and totally but the other part of me wanted to never ever see him again. I was so conflicted I can't stand it.
As I was sprinting down the hallway with tears streaming down my face I slipped and fell onto the floor. It is then that Jace caught up to me.
I looked into his eyes and saw everything that I was hoping for; regret, sorrow, guiltiness, sincerity. Everything. And in that moment all of my doubts disappeared I threw myself into his arms and cried into his chest.
It is then that I heard a mocking voice say, "Well, well, well what have we got here."
Jonathan.
A/N
Sorry that it took so long to get this chapter up. I have been extremely busy with school….
The first song is Everybody's Fool by Evanescence and yes.. I changed she to he… It seemed like a good fit into this story I just needed that to be revised.
The second song is Waiting for Superman my Daughtry
R and R!
Alexa