Opening Note: WOW I am very surprised. I didn't think I would get many reviews for this one. Wow thank you all for comments.I just wanted to let you guys know what will be happening. The Bold writing will mean the Seras's written entries.I also wanted to tell you the order of who will be reading. First is Alucard, than Integra, than Pip and than Walter. OH and one last thing...For any guy readers readings this, you will be warned there will be a certain part in this story that might make you very uncomfortable. I'll give you a hint: Every girl goes through it every month. If you can't handle this, than you can't handle women and or life. XD Enjoy!

Alucard smiled and turned the page and raised his eyebrows. "It appears our Seras wrote an opening note."

Everyone laughed and demanded him to read it.

"Before, I start my short tale of my life before I became a vampire, I should probably explain why I am even doing this in the first place. I tend to be a very forgetful person and well the idea of being alive for all eternity makes me wonder…Will I truly forget a lot of my memories through the flow of time? The idea of forgetting all my memories is pretty frightening…

I really wanted to ask Master about this was possible. But as usual his intimidating glare and his annoying ability to laugh and make fun of me just made me think twice about asking him. I decided to take it upon myself from this moment on to record every important event that has happened in my vampire life in this diary.

(Damn, I really hope master doesn't find this ever…I mean he will eventually but I hope it'll be in like thirty years from now. Curse that horrid man! )

Anyway, I guess all I can say now is this: Sit back, relax, and enjoy the bizarre and twisted show that is now my undead life. "

"It's like she wrote the opening note, knowing we would read this." Integra commented as she laughed at the irony of it all.

Alucard nodded. "Indeed. It's rather funny how she even knows me well enough to even write that I would find this diary. It's actually quite touching really. Unfortunately to my little fledging, I always cease to disappoint her. Hmmf, Thirty years. I found out she had a diary three days after I turned her into a vampire but I didn't feel like reading until now. "

"Oh Alucard." Walter shook is head in displeasure. "You're terrible."

Pip laughed. "Oh man, I feel sorry for the poor girl. It truly must suck to have this man as a master."

Alucard winked at Pip, which made him shiver and turned the next page. "Aw! Here we are."

"Prologue: Memento Mori..."

"Memento Mori?" Integra and Pip both asked in confusion. "What on earth does that even mean?"

"Memento Mori, I believe it is a infamous latin phrase." Walter began. "Although curse, my old mind. I can not remember what it means."

"Walter's correct but the phrase has three meanings." Alucard started. "Memento Mori can either mean, "Remember you must and or will die. She wrote the other meaning after."

" Memento Mori…Always remember your mortality. "

The No Life King gazed at Pip, Integra, and Walter who nodded and he continued.

"Memento Mori. Really it's such a fitting title for the most recent events that has happened to me. Ordinary nineteen-year-old police girl one day, and a dead never aging vampire girl by night. Funny how you're life can change in an instant.

Now, I'm just a Draculina, weapon of destruction, child of the night, most importantly a newly appointed Hellsing recruit member. Clever titles huh?

How the bloody hell did my life reach this point?

Okay, sure I didn't have the best life a normal girl could ask for. The moment I graduated top of my class from the police academy and becoming the youngest female officer in the Police Force, I thought finally things would turn for the better.

But as usual I was wrong…Terribly…Utterly…Horribly wrong. "

"You got that right." Alucard laughed.

Pip raised an eyebrow. "Mr. Alucard! That's not a very nice thing to say!"

"Indeed." Integra added. "You are too mean on the poor girl."

Walter nodded. "I must agree with Sir Integra and Captain Bernadotte."

The No Life King scoffed. "You all baby her too much. And no, I am not mean. I just happen to be a firm believer in tough love, thank you very much. Listen, parents have a lot of ways to deal with kids. Some feed them their children lies in order to spare their children any mental suffering. Others have no patience with them and beat the living shit out of them. Me? Well, I don't abuse the girl nor do I tell her pathetic lies in order to protect her. I say what she needs to hear and tell her the cold hard truth. If that doesn't win me best father of the year award, I don't know what does."

Pip snorted, Walter sighed, and Integra rolled her eyes.

"Just get back to the story, you bloody moron."

The huge grin plastered on the No Life King's face. "I do enjoy your little nicknames for me, my master."

"I'm warning you…" Integra started as her glasses flashed while giving him a glare.

"Alright, Alright." Alucard muttered.

"Before I get into the night that lead up to my blood-sucking fate. Let's go turn the clock backwards to my childhood.

I honestly considered myself truly and utterly happy when I was a child. Maybe that's why today I still act childish.

I wasn't exactly born into privilege or come from a rich background like Sir Integra. I was born in a normal family, in a normal sized house in the countryside, and had ordinary parents.

My Daddy, Mr. William Victoria was a high-ranking police officer. My Mommy, Sybil Victoria was a middle school teacher at a public school. The two were apparently child hood friends and until my daddy moved away closer to the city when he was twelve. About ten years later, my father and mother ran into each other into the city…literally. They were not looking were they were going and bumped into each other's face.

From there, you can guess what happened. They reconnect, dated, started a relationship, after five years of being a relationship they got engaged, they became fiancés for about another year, got married, were a newly wed couple for about two more years, and then-BAM! My parents were ready to have a baby, then after a year…BAM! Mommy got preggo with me! Nine months later, I came into this world. I even remember my parents telling me that I was their greatest joy in the world. "

"Mommy, Daddy, Preggo…How adorable. She is even sweet and innocent as a child in her writings. " Walter stated as he chuckled.

Pip chuckled and added. "Haha I also find it funny how she keeps using the word "Bam"...She really is a funny kid."

Integra smirked. "I see now. Her father was a police officer. It makes perfect sense why she was police girl to begin with."

"For eight years, I never been happier. I was living in a dream. I took the simple pleasures of every day for granted. You know, running in through the flock of wild flowers, playing with all the children near by, randomly licking giant rainbow lollipops as I headed down to school. Yup…those were the days.

But one of the greatest joys I remember was the family dinners my mommy and daddy had.

You see, at the age of six, my daddy got a promotion. He became a lieutenant and was often involved with private investigating missions. Time with my father was very precious since he became very busy and involved with solving cases.

At first I admit I was angry with him for always being away from me. But he explained to me being a police officer required a lot of time because he had to save the innocent and try to help others. After he reasoned it with me, I no longer felt anger toward him. No. I now admired my father for doing his job.

But one of the good things about him being away a lot was that I had special alone time with my mom. She became a stay at home mom after my father was promoted.

After school, I would always come to find the fresh smell of bread, pudding, and chocolate chip cookies waiting for me in the table, greeted with the kindest and warmest smile of my mom, who was always knitting us wool sweaters and scarves.

Anyway, back to the dinners. I remember five minutes before seven o clock, my mommy and I would wait by the door to hug my daddy. The moment the clock arrow hit seven, my dad always managed to open the door at that exact same moment…And he would give us his goofiest smile ever and happily bear hug my mother and I tightly to the point we couldn't breathe. We would all then gather in the kitchen and talk about each other's day.

As simple as my life was…I was content and never had a worry in the world.

That all changed however when I turned nine years old. "

SLAM

Alucard shut the diary book shut, which alarmed everyone.

"Huh? " Walter slightly whined. "Why did you stop?"

Integra muttered. "What is the meaning of this, Alucard?"

"I'm hungry." Alucard dully stated. "I need food now."

"Oh damn it, Mr. Alucard. Can't you wait?" Pip whined loudly. "Just when it was getting good!"

Walter shook his head. "No. He can't. Once he's hungry, he has to have food. He tends to throw a tantrum when he doesn't get his food."

The No Life King smiled. "I could…but I just don't want too. Of course master, You can always give me some of your delicious virgin blood and-"

Integra gave her servant a sour look. "Get your damn blood, you bloody pervert."

15 minutes later

"I'm back…" Alucard stated as he carried a huge family sized blue cooler next to his seat.

"What in the HELL!" Pip stated. "You plan to drink all that?"

Walter snickered. "This somehow doesn't surprise me."

Alucard opened the lid and then took out a blood pack and opened the top.

"What? I thought I was being nice here. I didn't want to have to constantly get up to get a blood pack. So I thought a cooler would be an easier solution."

He sipped the blood. "Aww… Type A…for Amazingly Alluring Alucard. "

Integra rolled her eyes. "More like Annoying Atrocious Asshole. Will you just get on with the story?"

"Oh…Feisty tonight aren't we? I like…I like very much. " Alucard grinned and grabbed the diary with one of his hands.

"Hmmm…Where was I?. Ba, Ba, Ba, As simple as my life was…I was content and never had a worry in the world…Da, Da, Da-AH! Here we go."

"That all changed however when I turned nine years old.

….

I guess I'm still not ready to even tell let alone write that terrible night about what lead to my parent's death. Maybe I'll write it down the details in a separate chapter later on. For now, let me just say for now that night was the night my world fell apart.

After, waking up in a hospital, I woke up to the sight of a doctor, three of my daddy's police friends, two nurses, and a social worker. Apparently the doctor told me that I was treated from a gunshot wound near my stomach. He said I was lucky to even be alive since I lost so much blood. When I asked about my parents…

I knew that was a stupid question to ask for a new deep down what happened. I just wanted to believe it was a horrible nightmare or a twisted joke. All I got was silence until my daddy's friends told me that they were now in a better place.

I remember losing it right after and remained in the hospital for about two weeks for a wound and was sent into an asylum for suicide watch. I missed my parent's funereal because of this. I remember how deeply saddened I was for not going."

"Good God…" Walter stated shaking his head. "When I reported her as "missing" in Cheddar village and retrieved her police file, I only read she grew up in an orphanage. I always assumed she never had a family to begin with. "

Integra shook her head. "How terrible. To imagine what she went through. I mean I honestly felt beyond hurt and sad when my father died from his rare illness when I was twelve. I can't even imagine the pain of witnessing and losing your both your parents at the age of nine…"

"Ma Pauvre Belle… Pip muttered giving a depressed look. "How can a innocent sweet girl like her, go through something like that?"

Alucard nodded. "Interesting isn't it? How can a girl like her, despite her misfortunes, is still able to be so kind. Let alone smile widely the way she does?"

Everyone remained quiet and was consumed by a gloomy atmosphere again until Alucard grabbed the diary and continued.

"After three months of therapy sessions, I was released and was sent to an orphanage by my social worker.

All in all, it was an okay orphanage. It wasn't terrible but it wasn't exactly a happy place. All the teachers there were strict there but they didn't hit any of the children. The kids were a different story. They were either all mean, selfish, bratty, or deeply troubled and twisted.

I did not even fit in any of those categories there. Not saying I'm a good person or anything. But I knew I wasn't anything like those children. I was for the most part, quiet, obedient, and respected all my teachers.

My teachers noted this about me and immediately took a liking to me. Maybe it was because I wasn't like the other children. Or maybe it was pity because I knew all my teachers read my personal files and heard in the news about what had happen to parents.

Pretty soon. As more of the teachers liked me and praised me how I was "an ideal student", my wallflower status quickly vanished. I was the now "the brown noser and or the teacher's pet."

I was soon the girl either everyone despised or teased. Earning my new status as the model student and center of all jokes convinced me more than ever to remain completely silent to it all.

Praise or Ridicule, it didn't matter to me. All I wanted to do was figure out, what was I going to do with my life. What I really wanted to be. I remember I wanted to follow in my mother's footsteps and be a teacher. Although, after some soul-searching realizations, I felt it just wasn't something that suited me. My mother was extremely gentle, warm, and patient. In short the complete opposite of me. I was more of an impatient tomboy who wanted to find a job that would make me into a stronger person and help others in the process.

A very long year passed by and I was ten years old when I would get my answer.

About three months after I turned ten, there was this new older boy in the orphanage, who would love to bully me. He used to push and trip me anytime he could. He would point, make jokes about me with the other school children and laugh at me. Normally, I would I never reacted his constant harassment. I would simply get up and walk away."

Integra smiled. "At a girl, Seras. Maturity and wisdom is the way to go. Never let the enemy see your weakness ever in the heat of a battle."

"One day however I snapped."

Pip laughed. "I guess you spoke too soon."

Alucard and Walter laughed as Integra snorted as she crossed her arms.

"The boy came in front of me as usual during lunchtime and I was playing with stuffed elephant that I got from the hospital around a year ago. He came and took it away from me and laughed. For some reason, I would have normally just ignored his constant bullying and let him have his way without showing him any signs of emotion.

But the moment he took what was mine away from me, something triggered inside me. I grew tremendously angry as he smugly laughed while he dangled the toy in front of me. I remember looking down and saw a stone near my foot. I remember picking it up and from there…

It happened so fast. The only way I can describe it was through instinct, I throw the stone at the boy with unbelievable force. I remember all the school children looked at me with horror in their faces and began to panic as they saw the blood on the older boy's face.

I remember I never felt so utterly angry in my entire life. To this day, I still think that was one of the angriest moments I ever had. I made a vow earlier after my parents death, that I would never again allow anyone take what was mine again. And I remember if they would take anything from me, that I would put up a fight. No matter how severe the consequences were.

The only thing I remember after that, I was sent into the Headmaster's office. I already imagined I would get the scolding of all life time and probably even be expelled from that orphanage.

To my surprise, my headmaster was not angry at all. He was however deeply concerned. He began his speech by telling me, he knew I would have had some kind of breakdown sooner or later which is why he wasn't so shocked to begin with. He did though, explain how he wanted to me to understand that my deed was very bad and that he hopes sudden change of behavior was going to be a long-term thing.

I assured him it wasn't and that I did feel guilty about what I done and how I overreacted. Then he warned me should I continue such random and abusive outburst again, that I will be sent away into another place.

Oddly enough, I remember calming telling him about what I deeply wanted to do in my life and what was my deepest desire in the world.

I told him I wanted to be a Police Officer, just like my father. I told him that I was determined to do anything, to achieve my dream.

He was a little flabbergasted at first and then smiled and commented I was a compelling enigma and that he'll allow me to stay. Of course, I had to be punished for my action to set an example for all the other children.

I was sentenced to dentition and clean up duty for about one month. Ironically, I enjoyed it and thought this was the greatest punishment ever. I was often alone which made me happy at the time."

"Psshh Well, all be damned! The Police Girl was quiet the rebel as a child huh?"Alucard commented as he snickered.

"She certainly reminds me of a frisky young pest, from fifty five years ago. Hmm… I wonder who could it be?"

It was Walter's turn to give Alucard the deadpan gaze. "Really Alucard, you shouldn't compare me to Miss Victoria. She wasn't anything like I was when I was a young lad."

"Perhaps you're right, Angel of Death." Alucard replied as he opened up another blood pack. "You were much more horrifying and ruthless back then. It's a shame you became quite the ideal Nancy Boy."

There was moment of sudden electricity that sprung from Walter's head, and he angrily twitched in frustration.

Integra noticing the very threatening yet oddly annoying tension between the two men and she interrupted.

"Settle down now the two of you. You both are behaving like children. You, Alucard, know perfectly well Walter grew up into a fine English Gentleman. And Walter, you should know by now Alucard never grows up and likes to pull people's strings. Now, I command both of you to stop at once."

Pip covered his mouth, trying to hide his laughter, as both former Hellsing partners began to sink into the chair, unhappy Integra scolded them again.

Alucard then took the diary.

"After my punishment, things changed. Not for the worse, actually for the better.

I remember all the children, especially that boy; all feared me and no longer tormented me again. Of course, I was back to being alienated again but I was content. I really didn't want to have anything to do with those children. I remember anytime I went near the playground by the swings, everyone would get off and run away. Normally this would hurt a poor English girl's feelings. I however was so happy for about an entire year, I never had to wait in line to swing. MUHAHAHA "

Everyone laughed at how Seras considered this a huge victory in her part.

"Besides that, I was doing even better in school and found myself to be the top student in the orphanage. I was very proud because I knew in being a police officer you had to become very smart and wise.

Soon, weeks became months, months, became years and then I found myself finally turning thirteen and then BAM…It happened.

My first period."

Pip and Walter turned pure scarlet and then coughed nervously. Integra sighed in sympathy. "Ah…Yes. The period. The annoying mark of woman hood."

"Sh-Sh-Should we-" Pip stuttered as he felt his voice crack. "Should we…even read this part? I mean it is personal a-a-and…"

Walter agreed. "Y-y-yes. Sir Integra. I beg of you. Maybe we should skip this part and-"

"NO. I said, to NOT leave a BLOODY WORD OUT" Integra defensively answered.

Alucard went into hysterics as he laughed at Integra's pun response.

She snorted as she rested one of her arms in the table. "Pfft. You men think you have it so hard! You think listening at a girl's menstrual cycle is bad? Try going through it. Really, you all are a bunch of sissies."

"I remember how terrified I was when I got it. At first, I thought I was peeing out blood and then thought I was dying at the moment. I panicked and before telling anyone, I went to write a letter. Then I told one of the female teachers and gave her the letter. She started crying from laughter and said I was not dying so I could keep my will. She then explained to me about the menstrual cycle, what physical changes I will experience, and she gave me "the talk".

I remember I never felt so embarrassed and disgusted in my entire life. "

No longer feeling revolted, the fabulous fearsome foursome, laughed for about five minutes at Seras's innocence.

"It was so embarrassing when I received a brochures by one of my teachers on what to expect during these monthly surprises. The worst was the visual and how to instructions on how to put on a pad or tampon. I remember vowing I would never wear a bloody tampon and stick with the skinny horizontal diaper of death."

Pip and Walter shuddered at the vivid description and received a "Don't you even think about opening your traps," glare and both tightened their mouths shut.

"It gets worse. Remember the physical changes my teacher warned me about. Well, let me give you a before and description of my body. Before I was a pretty normal weight kid. I wasn't skinny but I wasn't fat. Perhaps a bit pudgy but not overweight. As for my other assets, they can only be described in three words. Flat. Flat. Flat. I mean I was FLAAAAAATTTTT. I was WAY flatter than the present Sir Integra."

Alucard hollered with laughter while Integra twitched in anger. "What the-HOW DARE SHE-Good God, she is so getting week's pay docked from her paycheck!"

Pip bite his lip trying not to laugh at the Mignonette's comparison while Walter was crying and resisting the urge to laugh along with Alucard.

The iron maiden slightly blushed and yelled at the three men. "SHUT UP! ALL OF YOU! JUST GO ON! "

"Then Suddenly After five months after my first monthly bill came…BAM! Not only did I noticed my ass took shape but my breasts...Good Lord. I wanted to cry. I know most girls wanted huge knockers for reasons beyond my comprehension. But for me, I just never really thought about breasts and stuff. I wanted to be a cop. Not a typical teenage trashy tart.

But they didn't automatically grow to the size they are now. It started off as a C cup size when I was thirteen. By age fifteen, they became a size D, by age seventeen I became a size Double D and remained that way since.

This was such a curse. Really. You don't even know how much my back suffered when I was human carrying that amount of weight in my front size. Honestly, I'm amazed how I didn't tilt in front. I remember how I longed to get breast reduction and promised myself I would in the future."

Alucard simply laughed. "Haha An innocent soul trapped in a booby goddess body…A terrible curse indeed."

Pip gave a pervy smile as he imagined Seras's assets. "Hmmf, Curse? The girl doesn't realize that besides being born with a beautiful face, she was also granted a body that any man would desire. Honestly Mignonette, if anything, this is a pure blessing from the big man upstairs."

Integra shook her head. "Bloody pervert."

Walter slightly turned red as he too recalled seeing Seras's body and secretly agreed with Pip but remained quiet.

"Anyway, back to the story. Three years after my changes, I was ahead of my class and skipped two grade levels and graduated at the age of sixteen. I remember my headmaster writing a letter of recommendation to add with my application for the London Police Academy. The very same one my father attended. Within a week, I was called for an interview, told them about the reasons I wanted to be a police officer. The moment they realized how my father was (and the tragedy of his death), they accepted me at the spot. I remember how truly happy that things for the first time, were looking up."

Soon, I was all moved into the academy and immediately was the center of discussion since I was the youngest female recruit ever to have attended. Three more years have passed and by age of nineteen I graduated the police academy. After three long years of studying hard and I was now an official London Police Officer. It's funny to think how this graduation happened about three months ago. It's all pretty funny how after finally achieving my dream, it would be finally taken away on the night in Cheddar Village. "

Pip's eyes widened. "Three months ago? She barely graduated."

"Poor girl." Integra said as all her anger at her recruit's comment about her suddenly vanished. "I can't believe this girl has gone through so much misfortunes in her life."

Walter nodded. "Miss Victoria did have such a rough life."

"I agree…BUT!" The No Life King happily stated. "There is a happy ending to her miserable life!"

Suddenly the air changed into a menacing one, as the No Life King saw his master's face flash in anger. "You Bastard!"

"So, I know what you're thinking. Why the HELL did you name this mini prologue:

Memento Mori-Always remember your mortality.

Well, It's simple. I know even though I am a vampire (Which I'll explain in the next chapter). Even though, I am no longer human. I still will always remember the mortality. My own mortality.

I swore to myself as a human to never let anyone or anything change who I am after my parent's death. I promised my self to always remember never to give up no matter what. I promised myself despite what life throws at you, to always keep on walking.

I may not be human, but I am not dead. I am in a sense caught in between living and dying. However, you look at it, one fact remains. Even if I am destined to be a vampire for all eternity, I will never forget who I am. I will always remember my mortality. My humanity.

I won't let anyone, even my own master, take that away from me."

"And it ends here." Alucard stated proudly. "What did I tell you Walter? She is much more interesting than she appears."

Walter chuckled. "I know, I know. The girl is truly an extraordinary woman. Deeper than I thought."

"Of course." Integra smirked. "She is a member of Hellsing. She may be soft but she isn't weak. That's why I keep her around."

Pip smiled. "Oh shit! …Damn, I think I like this girl more than ever. I knew she would be my one weakness. "

Alucard smiled as he began to turn the page until his master grabbed her gun, and shot her servant's hand. Before the bullet could enter his hand, he threw the diary in the air; Integra lazily lifted reached for the diary, and grabbed it.

"I believe earlier I said I was the second to read." Integra snickered. "Unless anyone objects to the idea."

At this point the iron maiden's glasses flashed in an instant, making all the men (even Alucard) slightly whimpered at her scowl.

She smirked. "Alright then. Let's begin."

"Chapter 1: Choices."

To be continued.

Note: Hope you guys like it. Just warning you I know it was kinda of slow and sad in the beginning but I do try to add the funny/crack in here. XD

I promise the upcoming chapters won't be so sad.

This was supposed to be kind of an understanding of Seras's life before she was human. Anyway, Hope you guys like it! :D