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In case they hadn't partied enough, once they reached Sebastian's, said boy brought out some wine, and they kept drinking until sunrise.

It was not for everybody – the intense dynamic Sebastian and Kurt entered every time they met. It amazed Kurt, how fast they could turn any slightly suggestive comment into an excuse to make out wildly.

They were laying on Sebastian's bed now, fully clothed. And yes, they made out every now and then, but, mostly, they were simply laying down, kind of wasted and exhausted from all that dancing and drinking. The alcohol still echoed throughout Kurt's movements and reactions. He didn't feel mentally drunk – only his perception was slightly slowed down. But apparently his body disagreed.

Kurt didn't mind going all the way with Sebastian, though – actually, it was Sebastian who kept breaking it off every time things got too intense.

Kurt decided to show the other boy some determination, so he clumsily climbed on top of him, abruptly, and started undoing Sebastian's buttons. Sebastian grabbed his hands and stopped him, though.

Kurt felt incredibly embarrassed. "Oh- sorry" he mumbled, climbing down and straightening his own shirt. He looked away, biting his lip, but Sebastian sat himself too and grabbed Kurt's cheek to meet his eyes.

"Don't be, Kurt" Sebastian said, and he looked honest. Kurt gave him a confused look. "I just think we're both too drunk and horny" Sebastian explained, casually.

"What's wrong with that?" Kurt asked, a little irritated. They were not teenagers anymore.

"What's wrong" Sebastian stated somewhat fiercely, "it's that I'm gonna want to be fully aware and energised when I witness how you come undone under me."

Kurt tried to look away, to hide how that affected him, but Sebastian's hold on his cheek was firm. "If a cheap, ordinary fuck is what you want, then you're wasting both our times" Sebastian's tone was deep now, "but I don't think that's what you want, do you?" he demanded.

"You know I don't" Kurt responded, somewhat shyly.

"Then don't ask for something you don't want, Kurt" Sebastian said, softer now, "you won't enjoy it, and neither will I" he came closer and brushed his nose against the corner of Kurt's lip. "Let me give you what you do want – and that, I can assure you, will be memorable" he said, "jerking material" Sebastian even joked.

Kurt locked eyes with him, breathing uneasily, and felt the urge to trust Sebastian. He nodded. "You're right. I was just- trying to be determined" Kurt admitted, giving Sebastian a small smile.

"And I love that" Sebastian whispered on his ear, then brought up his hand to stroke Kurt's hair. "But I don't want you to regret it later" he added, after a few seconds.

Kurt frowned, more surprised than upset. He saw it on Sebastian's eyes: insecurity. Kurt could have asked him a million things, to make Sebastian explain himself further. But his body instinctive reaction was to put his arms around Sebastian and tell him: "I wouldn't regret that." Kurt tried to pull off his most convincing voice ever. He just hoped it'd sound as persuasive as Sebastian's.

Sebastian narrowed his eyes at him, somewhat uncertain. Kurt moved his hands tentatively, to caress Sebastian's clavicles. "I wanna be fully aware of you too" Kurt said, before he could regret it. "That much I agree" Kurt assured him, "but I think this is the first time we're drunk together, so… you should know by now that I also want you when I'm sober" Kurt lowered down his voice a bit, ordering his eyes to meet Sebastian's.

"I know you do" Sebastian granted him, smiling brightly, and the boy couldn't stop himself from biting Kurt's ear. "But I also know you don't just go fucking people around, Kurt."

"Sebastian, you're not just people" Kurt sighed, because he had just discovered yet another ground where they didn't share the same perspective: "And I– I don't go touching people around either – that feels as intimate for me as… doing it." Sometimes even the way Sebastian looked at him felt intimate. Kurt wouldn't say that out loud, though.

"Oh" Sebastian made, realising what Kurt meant now. "Okay," he conceded, "I guess I didn't… see it that way" Sebastian gave him a side smile. "We can go for it, then…" he said suggestively, attacking Kurt's ear.

"I still think you were right about being fully aware, though…" Kurt rushed to add, smiling awkwardly. "I mean- I liked that" Kurt admitted.

Sebastian chuckled. "I brought that upon myself" he joked, accepting defeat.

"Yep," Kurt smiled cheekily, "your bad."

They laid down again, face up. "I envy that" Sebastian said casually while Kurt stroked his hair, mindlessly.

"What do you mean?" Kurt asked him, not sure he was following Sebastian's train of thoughts.

"That you find simply touching to be intimate" the boy explained, turning his head to rest it on the crook of Kurt's neck. His breath felt warm on Kurt's skin.

Kurt's hand went momentarily still at those words, but he carried on the second he felt Sebastian's breath on him. "It might be my lack of experience" Kurt wondered. "Maybe it's a beginner thing" he joked.

Sebastian snorted. "I don't know about that" he said. "Intimacy has never felt too genuine for me, even when I started messing around" Sebastian confessed. "Touching is usually taken for granted" he said then, staring right at Kurt.

Kurt gulped. "I don't think I like that" he admitted.

Sebastian smiled at him, knowingly. "I know – that's why I envy you" he repeated, "I don't care that much, really".

Kurt's hand went still again as his body froze, filled with a haunting doubt. Did Kurt's touch feel genuine for Sebastian? Sebastian looked at him again, expectantly.

"What's on your mind?" Sebastian asked him. Kurt felt too tired and slow to come up with a good cover.

"I was wondering-" Kurt swallowed down the nod on his throat, "if- maybe my touch… doesn't feel too genuine either?" Kurt asked rhetorically, even though he knew that was quite personal. "You don't have to answer" Kurt assured him, "you asked me, and that's simply what I was wondering."

"It does" Sebastian simply answered, scratching Kurt's chest.

Kurt relaxed, smiling briefly, and his hand started working again. It stopped eventually, when they both fell silently asleep.

/

Kurt woke up indecently early. That's just how hangover liked to pay him back, besides some unbearable stomach ache.

A few minutes went by during which he could barely manage to blink. He swallowed down repeatedly, trying to gather some new, non-sticky saliva on his mouth. And that's all the work he assigned himself for a while.

Then, when he got cramp twice on his belly, Kurt started to feel fully and painfully awake. He proceeded to mentally swear not to ever drink again, and finally decided to study the situation, which was his body trapped under Sebastian's.

Boy, Sebastian did really not share common people boundaries of personal space. It was one thing to cuddle when falling asleep, and a whole other to crash your 'bed buddy' with your weight.

It felt warm, though. And really, if it wasn't because Kurt's lungs felt somewhat compressed, Kurt would even appreciate the intimacy of the situation. But right that moment, all Kurt could think of was that he'd been awake for almost an hour and still had no idea how to act on anything.

In order to liberate himself and get up, he'd have to wake Sebastian up, and that didn't seem too nice. Plus, dared he admit it, he was sort of dreading the confrontation. Meaning that he felt an awkward moment coming. How would they proceed now? Would they have breakfast together? Would Sebastian politely kick him out? Kurt was not mentally or physically ready to make such decisions, so even if his whole body ached, he would not move underneath Sebastian.

At least, that's what he thought at first. Half an hour later, he really needed to use the bathroom.

Kurt bit hard his lip, and slowly turned his head to observe Sebastian's condition. The boy looked severely asleep, yeah, but he also looked… different. So calm and vulnerable that Kurt's heart skipped a beat. The boy laying there represented a facet to Sebastian that Kurt had never seen before.

Kurt smiled unconsciously, then decided that, no matter how much it pained him to disturb Sebastian's calm and mystique state, he'd take the risk. His bladder was complaining too loudly now.

He started moving inch by inch to the edge of the bed, although that was not a large distance. That granted him some air, but his body was still pretty much trapped. Then he decided to keep moving to the feet of the bed, pleased at himself for his brilliant idea. But the moment he moved down, he took one of Sebastian's legs with him, waking him up. Dammit.

Sebastian opened an eye and observed him, not looking very happy.

Kurt gulped. "Hey… I really need to go to the bathroom" he smiled awkwardly.

Sebastian gave him a side smile and closed his eye again. Then the boy nodded. But he didn't move. Kurt sighed, feeling really sorry for his bladder.

He grabbed Sebastian's legs and lift them to put them away. Then he pushed Sebastian's torso away too. "Sorry" he mumbled.

Kurt reached the bathroom, incredibly relieved. Once he took care of his bladder, it was time to study his hair and face situation. Well, his face demanded some particular products he knew Sebastian wouldn't have, so he simply washed it and let it breathe. His hair… oh, his hair was a disaster. It looked like he had bangs all over again. And he had sworn off bangs a long time ago. But adding more product would make it look even dirtier. Would it be too much, to take a shower?

He was considering that when Sebastian entered the bathroom too, and went straight for the WC. Well, now we're peeing buddies, Kurt thought very uncomfortably.

"Oh wait, I'll give you some space" Kurt told him and went for the door.

"That's okay" Sebastian assured him, still half asleep. "You wanna take a shower?" the boy asked him.

"Yeah," Kurt said brightly, "thank you, my body really needs it" he added.

"No problem" Sebastian said. Then he took of his boxers and threw 'em into a basket.

"Oh" Kurt made, suddenly realising he would not be alone in the shower. He took a few discrete breaths, ordering himself to calm down.

Sebastian passed by him and got in the shower, pressing several water taps. Of course, his shower had to be fancy.

Kurt didn't grant himself more time to regret it. He took off his boxers too and got into the shower. Sebastian grabbed his hand and brought him where the water was falling. "Come here."

Kurt smiled shyly and let the water fall all over his hair and shoulders. Sebastian pressed him against the wall momentarily when he reached his hand to turn on yet another tap. Now the water fell all over both their bodies. It was warm and it felt great. "Mm" Kurt made, unconsciously.

The space felt almost sacred. It was a very clean, very white and very spacious shower. And both boys remained silent, taking in the water. Kurt even closed his eyes.

Then he felt Sebastian moving and a few seconds' later two soapy hands rubbing his back. His eyes popped up open. Sebastian's fingers were not simply covering his skin with soap, but they were also kind of massaging it. It felt amazing, but it seemed like a lot of work. Kurt observed him, thankful. And widened his eyes with shock momentarily when Sebastian's hand gently caressed his ass.

Then it was his hair's turn, and he felt Sebastian's fingers stroking it tenderly. He had to close his eyes again for a few seconds. When he opened them again, he met Sebastian's, who looked still kind of sleepy. Kurt couldn't contain a small smile and brought his hands to Sebastian's face, reaching Sebastian's eyes to close them. Then Kurt soaped his hands too, and decided to return the favour.

Somewhere around Sebastian's pelvis, the boy should feel slightly more awake, because he grabbed Kurt's waist and placed him against the wall, this time to kiss him. Lazily at first, but more knowingly as time went by. And his mouth kept going down, wet and open, placing kisses all over Kurt's neck, chest and belly.

After kissing his belly, Kurt thought Sebastian would come up again, but the boy stayed down there, caressing Kurt's pelvis. Kurt looked down, and met Sebastian's hungry eyes. "Bas?"

"I'm gonna make you feel good" the boy said, then Kurt suddenly felt Sebastian's mouth on his erection, and gasped abruptly.

Sebastian took a firm hold on Kurt's hips, immobilising him. And Kurt witnessed, overwhelmed, the spectacle of having Sebastian down there. They even locked eyes every now and then, and Kurt couldn't have talked even if he had wanted. He doubted he could articulate a single word near Sebastian ever again. It was too early in the morning for him to process something like that. And it was so intimate. His mind went blank.

Kurt grasped Sebastian's hair to warn him that he was about to come, but the boy didn't seem to get it – in fact, when Kurt gave it a second thought, it was a gesture easy to misunderstand. It might look like Kurt felt more aroused. So he had to force himself to use his mouth. "Bas, hey, I'm uh-" he breathed out, panting, "I'm gonna come." Sebastian showed no signs to want to let go of his dick. "Bas" Kurt repeated, "I'm so close, really" he warned him again, patting Sebastian's shoulders with his hands. Kurt wouldn't be able to contain it any much longer.

But Sebastian would be finished when he was finished. So the boy kept licking Kurt's lower parts a little longer before letting go of 'em. When he did, Kurt almost instantly came, hiding his head on Sebastian's chest and breathing with difficulty against it. He remained still, frozen actually, unable to move or to even exist for a long couple of minutes.

Sebastian held him and placed a kiss on the top of his head, and before Kurt could realise it, the boy was, once again, soaping him and cleaning Kurt's lower parts.

"O- Thanks" Kurt breathed out, tiredly.

"Anytime" Sebastian replied, smiling cockily. The vulnerability and calm that came with sleepy-Sebastian were gone. There was a smirk instead. Not that Kurt didn't like it just as much.

Kurt smiled shyly, and placed himself where the water fell again. Sebastian did the same.

"You hungry?" Sebastian asked, after a few minutes.

Kurt turned his head to look at him, sort of surprised. "Yeah" Kurt said, thankful. "I really am" he admitted.

Sebastian gave him a small smile and got out the shower, looking for two towels. Kurt observed him, at awe. Maybe it was that Kurt was used to work as a team in bed – meaning that he and Blaine would both find relief whenever they were intimate, and wouldn't stop until they were both satisfied. But he sort of thought that it was his turn now to return Sebastian the favour. Apparently not, though. Sebastian was quite selfless in bed, Kurt was learning. And it was overwhelming. Sebastian was overwhelming.

Kurt decided he would make breakfast, though. That had felt way too amazing to not thank Sebastian someway.

/

Kurt was fully dressed and fed now, looking for his cell phone to leave Sebastian's apartment.

"Here, gayface" Sebastian was behind him, with said object on his hand. Kurt took it, his hand lingering a second more than intended on top of Sebastian's. He smiled briefly and walked towards the door. Sebastian followed him and opened the door for him.

"So" Kurt said, standing under the doorframe, "can we not wait two weeks to meet again?" he suggested, scratching his head nervously.

Sebastian chuckled. "Deal" he smirked.

They locked eyes for a few seconds, none of them knowing what to do or say. Then Kurt realised if they remained like that any much longer, he'd blush. So he acted impulsively and kissed Sebastian's cheek. "See you, Bas."

Sebastian's smirk fell. He gave Kurt a brief, yet genuine, small smile. "See you, babe."

/

Kurt felt like taking a walk. Besides, he was in absolutely no hurry to go home. This time, he would not get away with keeping it for himself. This time Rachel and Santana would have no mercy with him. Had it been another boy and not Sebastian, the criminal slut, Kurt would be dying to tell them everything, though.

Kurt knew that was not a good sign. To be dying to tell his friends how much he liked Sebastian. Oh, he was even more screwed than before.

How could he get Sebastian so wrong back in the day? Kurt had decided that no one could have changed that much. In fact, there were still a lot of things about Sebastian that remained intact. His sarcasm, his harshness… only that now Kurt appreciated 'em, and also, that now Kurt had discovered some other new things too: his sweetness when the boy realised he was coming on too strong on Kurt, and his selflessness when they were together. Kurt was already finding himself eager to be more giving with the boy. So far, it felt like Sebastian had been slowing down his rhythm because of him. And that Kurt appreciated, but he also wanted to know what it felt like to catch up with Sebastian fearless speed.

Some other new aspects Kurt was having a hard time dealing with. Like how hard it was to really get to know Sebastian. The boy could be so honest, and yet so uncommunicative. Kurt only feared Sebastian would not grant him the access to that part of him. That their relationship might get stuck on the physical level.

/

Not that the physical level wasn't working fine for Kurt. For almost five hours, all he could think of was the scene in the shower. Sebastian's determination when it came to sex was unbearably hot. And Kurt craved for the promise that Sebastian had made of a very memorable intimate time coming.

Even though he was alone at home (none of the girls were there when he arrived), Kurt was trying to discretely put these thoughts away – they might come any minute – when his cell phone buzzed.

From Sebastian S. (07:43 p.m.): When will you let me have you, marble?

Kurt gulped, feeling an arousal already coming. He typed back quickly.

To Sebastian S. (07:45 p.m.): I fear you already have me, meerkat.

Kurt pressed 'send', blushing furiously when he realised how unnecessarily honest that was. Too late, he damned himself.

The most painful five minutes of his life went by. Kurt bit his nails nervously waiting for Sebastian to mock him harshly.

From Sebastian S. (07:50 p.m.): You're sweet, sweet cheeks. But I had a little more provocative idea in mind. Wanna hear it?

Kurt's cheeks burnt even further. Thankfully, Sebastian had chosen to let his 'sweetness' be. Kurt felt relieved, but also, somehow… more unsettled. Something about Sebastian not mocking how cheesy he'd just been, didn't seem quite right.

To Sebastian S. (07:53 p.m.): I think you're gonna tell me even if I don't want to... But I do want to ;)

From Sebastian S. (07:59 p.m.): I would, but only for your own good. Sometimes you need a little push ;P

To Sebastian S. (08:02 p.m.): I can't disagree. So… you're gonna tell me?

From Sebastian S. (08:04 p.m.): So you're admitting you like it when I push you?

To Sebastian S. (08:06 p.m.): I'm starting to think you were bragging.

From Sebastian S. (08:07 p.m.): You wish. Prepare to blush hard, babe.

Kurt swallowed down and took the quick decision to go to his room. He got under the covers.

From Sebastian S. (08:10 p.m.): By 'have you', I meant I want to have you underneath me. Sweaty, panting, trembling and moaning my name. I want to have you opened and eager to receive me inside you. And I wanna eat you, all of you, making you feel more aware of me that you've ever been. I want to have you all for myself. I want to have every inch of you. I'm selfish like that.

Kurt put the covers over his head and went for the feet of the bed, bringing a pillow with him to build some sort of shelter. He didn't feel safe enough having his blushing face at open air, where any potential roomie coming back to the flat could see it.

To Sebastian S. (08:15 p.m.): Damn you, meerkat, what are you doing to me? I want all that. Exactly and precisely.

Kurt bit his lip and pressed 'send', then cuddled around the pillow, trying to get over everything.

From Sebastian S. (08:17 p.m.): I know you do, babe. And I wanna make it real good for you. Will you let me satisfy you?

To Sebastian S. (08:19 p.m.): Yes

Kurt simply said, unbearably turned on. Oh God, he was hard from a couple of texts. His mind wandered back towards the shower scene from that morning, and, before he could change his mind, he started typing again.

To Sebastian S. (08:21 p.m.): I will, but I'd like to take care of your needs too, Bas

From Sebastian S. (08:25 p.m.): Worry not, sweet gayface. I'm sure you'll make a wonderful job ;)

To Sebastian S. (08:28 p.m.): :) I like that. I'm gonna leave you now before my "situation" gets worse, if you know what I mean.

From Sebastian S. (08:30 p.m.): Hahaha you could always come over

Kurt's heart stuttered. Twice, on the same day? Kurt knew he still had to drive himself carefully around Sebastian. One too daring move and he'd start falling for the boy. If he hadn't started yet. Right.

To Sebastian S. (08:32 p.m.): Tempting :P But it's a PJs&movie kind of night. Boring, I know. I'm too lazy to move right now.

Kurt pressed 'send'. When a few minutes passed and he got no reply, he deduced the conversation was over. He got up lively, and decided to cook something fancy to himself while he pondered what to watch. It would be that kind of night, but he was facing it way much better than he had last night. Now he actually looked forward to it.

He was completely focused on his lasagne recipe, when he heard a buzz coming from the table. His cell phone' screen was enlightened. He grabbed it. New text message.

From Sebastian S. (08:45 p.m.): I could come over, then.