I climbed out my window just in case Valentine had come home and I hadn't heard the door slam. I grabbed onto the tree branch above my head and tried to sling my self around the trunk of the tree- only to miserably fail and fall to the ground and successfully bruise my tailbone.

After I sat there for a little while quietly dying from laughter I stood up, brushed myself off and skipped down the block to Izzy's car. I waved like a mad woman when her car came into view. My conversation with Jon had made me feel much better and my little fall certainly lightened my mood.

I told Izzy about my eventful afternoon to get advice on the whole Jon situation. On a brighter note I told my best friend about my accident- prone ways and by the time we pulled into the Lightwood Mansion we were both laughing so hard that tears were rolling down our cheeks.

Izzy carefully maneuvered the car into the garage and I practically flew out of the car before it was even parked. I was so excited to see Jace and tell him about my talk with Jon that I didn't even wait for Izzy.

As I slipped off my shoes next to the garage door I noticed a pair of heels that I had never seen before- probably just a new pair that Izzy got. I shrugged it off without a second thought and ran up the stairs to my wonderful boyfriends' room.

He made me feel so special, so loved in so many different ways. Jace never failed to put a smile on my face every single day and keep me safe from myself- my thoughts have been less haunting and the nightmares that used to occur every night have all but ceased. I have stopped self- harming; the only marks that mar my body are old wounds or trauma inflicted by the man who must not be named.

I almost run into the door to his usually open room. Without knocking I barge into the room to see a sight that I will not soon forget.

Jace is lying on top of the Queen Bitch herself, Seelie Queen. He has her pinned beneath his body and is kissing her passionately.

I stood there in shock as the door slammed against the wall from the force that I had ran into it. Even the door slamming didn't halt them from their –ahem- activities.

It wasn't until a let out a sound of anguish that Jace looked up at me. While maintaining eye contact with me he dipped down and gave Seelie one more passionate kiss before climbing off of her a walking over to me.

"Jace, wh- what's going on?" I stammer

"Can't you do anything besides stutter?" Jace responds, not answering my question.

I was shocked at his malicious tone and the bringing up of old wounds. All I could do is stare at him, bewildered.

"Did you really think that I'd every want you Red? I can have any girl that I want and you think that I'd choose you?" Jace cackled in my face. "You're nothing but a worthless and ugly bitch who is desperate for love and attention."

I glance behind Jace to see Seelie now sitting up with a disgusting smirk on her face. That's all it took for me to sprint out of the room and out the door- even forgetting my shoes. I walk all the way home, dejected and shocked at what I had just witnessed.

I don't even bother to climb the tree and go through the front door. I thought I had been gone for only 45 minutes, but according to the clock I had been gone for 2 hours- time flies by when your heart is broken. No, not broken, shattered. Jace has completely broken me. I am done.

I carelessly walk through the front door and straight into Valentine's chest. I want to just hold onto him and hug him- I need something right now. Maybe hugging my wacko father will help?

He looks down at me with clear rage written across is face. Before I can say a word he takes a swing at me and I fall to the floor. He begins beating me with more anger than he has had in a long time. He begins screaming things at me- what used to be worthless nothings to me, in one ear and out the other.

But now as I'm fading in and out of conciseness, I can only hear Jace saying them.

I wake up in a ball on the floor with a pounding headache. Whether from crying or the fact that Valentine beat the snot out of me, I don't know.

I want to cut, I want to physically hurt myself to really show just how much Jace hurt me.

But then everything that Jace had helped me with in the past, would have been in vain. Sure, he broke my heart but he did help me a lot in these past couple months. I don't want to completely disregard all of the progress we had made together by turning it all in one night.

So instead, I sat down and I began to write.

A/N

So sorry that I've disappeared for so long!

This chapter is dedicated to my wonderful boyfriend who will never do this shit to me

Hope you guys liked it!

Alexa