Dear Journal
These past two days have been crazy I have finally found Ellis after all this time when I woke this morning I was being held and I thought that it was Rochelle and that she had heard me having one of my famous night terrors. But when I turned in the persons Arms to face them I couldn't believe what I was seeing it was Ellis. Ellis was holding me he was smiling in his sleep oh how I love his smile it was a crooked grin that always seem to make me smile. He wrinkled his nose and buried his face in my chest he always did that when he didn't want to wake up. I held him tighter and which caused him to giggle but he didn't say the name I thought he would say instead of saying my name he said the name I never thought in the million years he would say that damn city boy. I can't believe that even when he's with me he still manages to say his name even when he's with me he still manages to think about that damn city boy. I'm happy that I'm with my best friend again but I just can't fight that feeling that there is something different about him I can't help but think that the damn city boy has did something to my best friend and that the person in my arms happens to look like my best friend but he isn't. At that moment Ellis woke up he grumbled but as soon as he saw me he smiled that smile that made me weak in my knees that smile that always made me feel like everything is going to be okay. I smiled back at poking his side knowing he was ticklish he laughed and slapped my arm and I knew that for the first time I had something left to fight for