Second bit :^) I feel like it's a bit short so sorry! It's stupid o'clock right now so I should probs got to sleep...HAHAHA no I have tumblr to go on now what is sleep?

Sprinkles of snow settled on the ground outside like a white blanket filling the street. Footsteps ruined most of the clear white snow, but I wasn't that bothered there was a little bit darkness in everything beautiful.

I wrapped my coat around me in a desperate attempted to keep myself warm, but the coldness still hit me sending shivers down my spine. Maybe coming for a walk wasn't the best idea. Oh well you're out now Dan, might as well explore the area around the hospital instead of running past it all.

My feet started to lead me off to a small ally way. I gulped softly trying to see but it was too dark to make anything out. I frowned I hated that. Suddenly footsteps began to draw closer towards me, I spun round on the heel of my foot to see an short man with short choppy brown hair staring me in the face. He scowled at me trying to push past, I shoved quickly past him.

He was a drug dealer. That wasn't hard to suspect, the rundown appearance of his face with dark circles hiding under his eyes, but smart clothes so he gets a fair share of money, his hand dug deeply in his pockets as if he is holding something. And the smell of weed was also a massive give away!

I walked quicker; I was in the wrong neighbourhood. Again.

I wrapped my coat round me even tighter, looking round the deserted ally checking if anyone was behind me. Gangster of the year was gone. I wrapped my jacket round me rubbing my hand furiously together in a desperate attempt to get warm. The warm soothing air that was once comforting me in the hardest times with Phil, had now turned against me going cold and making it look as though I was smoking every time I took a deep breath. I brushed my fringe out on my face, walking down the dark gloomy street that was light up by a single lamppost, which just flickered anyway because it didn't work properly

I had to get out the hospital, even if it was for a few hours.

I had called Phil's family who were determined to come down and see him. How could I decline?

The doctors still refused to let me see him as if it was a fucking waiting game. All I had been told is that Phil had been walking across a road when a car came spinning round the corner after losing control due to the ice on the roads. That was all I knew and I needed to know more.

My throat stung as I tuck a swig of water. I gulped it down allowing it to sooth my aching throat, making it better. I was tried and just wanted to curl up in a ball and go to sleep, but I knew I had to do this.

I was back at the hospital.

*I finally caught my breath. I needed to get out of here, now! I ran away as fast as my legs would take me, dodging any pedestrians. I was scared. My heart beat drowned out the sound of moving traffic. I ran through the park, leafs crunching under my feet and then finally collapsed onto the floor.*

^ I didn't do that. I wish I did that but I was stronger than that and I couldn't just give up on Phil.

Instead I held my head up as I made my way in. I walked back into the oh so familiar waiting room. A girl who had been cry the whole time I had been here was silent. No silent whimpering. No hands burring her face. Just quiet with a stern look on her face. I noticed her turn to talk to me, with her small, elegant voice.

"When you did do you think there is a heaven? Or anything" I blinked slightly, gulping hard.

"No I don't do you?"

"No it's bullshit. All of its bullshit" I watched her eyes hover towards the floor, her face completely motionless.

"You got to stay optimistic though...I guess" She glanced at quickly. We both knew that was hard given our current situation. And I guess I wasn't being very optimistic myself I was just was too scared to believe anything could get better. Anything.

Just then a woman with long brown hair approached me a broad smile running from each corner of her mouth. "Daniel Howell?" I jumped up as quickly as I could.

"Phil's awake you wanna come see him?"

"Yes!" I exclaimed making my way to his room.