WARNING : This chapter has explicit sex.

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9.

Tara still came everyday and everyday they told her he didn't want her in there. She hated the pity looks she was getting from them but she wasn't going to give up. Sooner or later he would get tired of saying no. This way at least she gets to find out how he is doing.

Jax knew he couldn't let her in here. He can still see her sleeping in that chair. The picture won't erase from his mind. The need he had to kiss her that day was like something he never felt before. He knew he would give in to his desires if she continued to come.

The next day when she arrived she walked into the clubhouse and was surprised when she seen him sitting up at the bar. He hadn't seen her yet so she was free to look him over. Her body shivered as she roamed her eyes down his back watching the muscles ripple as he moved. She managed to walk over towards them when Bobby seen her. As he looked up it made Jax turn around. She gulped in air as she seen his chest. Even through all the bandages around his side he had an amazing chest. It made her legs weak and she nearly stumbled.

"I'm sorry, I uh.. I was just wondering how you were doing." she said nervously as she licked her lips never taking her eyes off his chest.

Jax took a deep breath, "I'm doing fine darling although I still haven't had what I needed before. Have you changed your mind?" he asked.

She slowly brought her eyes up to his and she wanted him so bad right then she almost said yes. "I need to go." she managed to get out before she hurriedly turned and left.

"You know you got that girl in a tizzy. When are you going to give her a break?"

"Let it go Bobby." he said as he managed to make it back to his room. He needed some alone time to get over the massive hard on he got when he seen how she was devouring his body with her eyes.

Tara stayed away the next couple of days. She knew that she was weakening and she would not let him think she was just another croweater. She was determined to make him realize she should be his old lady.

Everyday he looked for her. He had heard how she had come everyday to check on him. But every since she seen him up and about she hadn't come back. He couldn't understand why he was feeling so disappointed not seeing her. He shook the feeling off and decided to get ready for the party tonight. He was finally able to move about pretty normally now. He knew she would probably be here tonight since the party was for his get well and Donna getting her crow. He thought about having Wendy here but decided against it. He got in the shower and then got out and put his clothes and kutte on. Pulling out a cigarette he walked to the party room. The music was already blaring and the room was filled with smoke. He looked around but didn't see her. He went to the bar and poured him a stiff drink. He felt someone slap his back and he turned to them.

"Hey man, it's great to see you up and about." Ope said with a smile.

Jax immediately looked to see if Tara was with them.

Ope knew he was looking for her so he nodded to the dance floor. Jax turned and seen Tara dancing with one of his brothers.

"Is that Kozik?" he asked Ope.

"Yeah, he came in for a run this morning."

"What the hell is he doing with her? She's not a croweater." he said angrily.

"He knows Jax. He was just being polite."

The more he watched Kozik dancing with Tara the more angry he got. He felt almost possessive of her and he had no right to feel that way. He did everything he could to keep his eyes off of her. He finally grabbed a sweet butt and sat down on the couch with her on his lap. He was hoping to get caught up in her so he would forget about Tara.

Ope and Donna watched the two and knew something was fixing to come to a head. Donna watched as Tara seen Jax with the sweet butt. She then pulled Kozik in for a kiss. Not just a peck either. But a down and dirty kiss. Ope couldn't help but chuckle when he seen that Jax saw the kiss. Before they knew it the sweet butt was on the floor and Jax had decked Kozik. He grabbed Tara's hand and pulled her out of the clubhouse.

"What the hell are you doing?" she yelled.

"The question is what the hell are you doing?"

"I was having fun. I don't know why it's any of your business. You've made it very clear you don't want me. I can't keep getting my teeth kicked in just because I love you. I am trying to move on." she said.

Before he could think he was pulling her into a devastatingly erotic kiss. She was gasping for air when he released her.

"Why did you do that?" she whispered.

"I can't fight it anymore. I want you Tara. I want to make love to you. I want you to be mine. I can't stand by and watch you with someone else." he said.

"You big stupid biker, don't you know you are the only one I want."

He pulled her once again into his arms and kissed her. She was moaning as he was making love to her mouth. Her moans were turning him on even more and he knew he needed to slow it down. He wasn't going to have her first time standing in the parking lot of the clubhouse. He took her hand and led her to his bike. "Will you come with me?" he asked.

She got on the back behind him and wrapped her arms around him. For the first time she really felt like smiling. She looked back and seen Donna and Ope standing at the door. Both of them with knowing grins on their face.

Jax parked the bike and gently tugged her off. He led her into a house that she assumed was his. As soon as the door was closed he started kissing her once again. By the time they got to the bedroom he had shed his clothes and was slowly taking hers off. She lay back on the bed and he stared down at her. "You are so beautiful Tara." he whispered as he kissed her feet. Slowly he kissed up her legs. His hands were gently sliding over her skin. She could feel the goosebumps rising and her nipples harden. He lay his hands on her stomach and the roughness of his skin was intoxicating. Then she felt his tongue swipe down her slit. She nearly bucked him off. She had never experienced anything like this. She felt her body start to crave more and more. He continued to lick her pussy and nibble on her clit. Taking one hand he slid a finger in. The pressure she felt was exciting. Before she knew it she was flooding with her orgasm. He was steadily gulping down her juices. He then slid another finger in and she knew he was trying to make her loosen up for him. She was glad because when she seen how large he was it really scared her. He continued to lick and before she could take a breath she was cumming again, this time it felt like she peed. She didn't know a woman could do that.

"Oh baby, do you know how rare that is to squirt. I love it. Knowing I could make you do that well it's amazing." he said as he continued to lick. Her body was squirming all over the bed and finally she begged him to fill her up. "Are you sure baby. I don't want to hurt you."

"I need you Jax." she moaned.

He placed his tip at her spot and slowly pushed in. Easing it in and out slowly and then he knew he couldn't hold back anymore. He had to go through so she wouldn't hurt anymore. He pushed in and with a small yelp he then stilled. He waited for her to adjust to his size. "Are you okay?" he asked while kissing her neck. "Yes. I'm good." she said as she moved her hips up to take him in once again. They slowly made love and Jax had never felt so good in his life. When he finally let himself go he didn't think he was ever going to stop. Then finally he rolled off of her and pulled her onto his chest.

"Thank you Jax. That was wonderful. " she said sleepily. She snuggled closer and went to sleep. He lay there for a long time thinking about everything. He realized how stupid he was for fighting this. Because right now he felt like he was home.