I Don't Wanna Talk

There was one thing in Castle and Beckett's decade long marriage that Beckett never wanted to address. It was just like the time when Castle first wanted to address his dead mother in law's murder all those years ago. That one thing Beckett never wanted to talk about was the events that unfolded when they had first attempted to have their wedding in the Hamptons after it had been relocated.

"Hey, can I ask you something?"

"Since when do you ask permission to ask questions?"

"It's about your mother's case."

"Have you ever thought about…reopening it?"

"What are you doing?"

"Nothing. I just thought if we worked together."

"No."

"I have resources."

"Castle, you touch my mom's case, and you and I are done. Do you understand?"

"Okay."

"Why don't you want to investigate it?"

"Same reason a recovering alcoholic doesn't drink. You don't think I haven't been down there? You don't think I haven't memorized every line in that file? My first three years on the force, every off - duty moment was spent looking for something someone missed. It took me a year of therapy to realize if I didn't let it go, it was gonna destroy me. And so I let it go."

"Sorry. I didn't know."

"Yeah, well, now you do."

At one point Castle wanted to talk about it; he knew in the back of his mind that it wouldn't go over well.

"We have to talk about something?"

"What?" Beckett responded.

"The Hamptons; back in May all those years ago." Castle said.

Beckett knew what her husband was getting at.

"I don't wanna talk… not about that. I never want to talk about that. Do you understand?"

"Okay."

There was a pause just as there had been a pause years ago when Castle had first told Beckett that he had looked into her mother's death.

"Why?" Castle simply asked.

"That day was supposed to be our fairytale. You said it would be; that we just had to overcome the obstacles that were in front of us. We did only to have it thrown in our faces…"

"We got our fairytale; it just wasn't that day."

"Castle you don't get it. When I got that phone call and then saw your car engulfed in flames on the side of the road….."

Castle knew that Beckett had lost it when she arrived on scene that day. That day was hard for everyone. Castle didn't press the matter anymore; he saw that reliving that day was killing Beckett.

A/N: This chapter was my way of addressing what happened in the last few minutes of the season six finale in a way that hopefully pleases everyone. Which is why I derived the lyric of "I don't wanna talk" from ABBA's song "The Winner Takes It All".

A/N2: Also in light of what Marlowe and company gave us as the season six finale of Castle; I have changed things in regards to Castle and Beckett's wedding in this series to accommodate what is happening with the show. Everything that was changed is a generalization since we don't know when we will get the Caskett wedding in the show. To see the changes check out chapter 13 in "Fairytale" the story that proceeded this story. Also note that nothing in regards to the birthdays of JM, the twins and JR were changed.