I am very sorry I've once again been MIA. However, after Easter I have had very little time to do much of anything thanks to seventy-five hour workweeks. This was the first weekend that I have had off since the end of March. Yesterday I spent some quality time with my fiancé and today I spent my day finishing this chapter. I had had half of it written before Easter, but as I worked on it today I didn't like it so I rewrote the whole thing today. Please forgive any grammar mistakes I've missed and I hope the end of this chapter makes up for my absence. That said: this story is rated 'M' for a reason so be warned.
Disclaimer: I own nothing associated with Twilight.
Chapter Fourteen
"So, how does it feel to be free?" Sarah asked with a smile as she and Johanna sat in Sarah's bedroom two weeks after the 'vampire incident' as Johanna had taken to calling it. Johanna had been given the all clear two days ago and during that time she properly thanked Edward and Bella for their help and got to know the vegetarian vampires before they left to return back to Alaska.
"Great," Johanna said with a smile. "I used to spend all my time at home and it never bothered me before but I've gotten used to having something to do all the time. I was starting to go stir crazy even though you guys came over to visit." Sarah laughed before she rolled over on her bed so she was lying on her back, her long hair hanging off the side as she stared up at the ceiling and started chatting away about the shopping trip they had planned to Port Angeles in a couple of days for 'back to school' shopping. Of course Meredith and Lacy would be joining them and if JJ and Adam had any say in the matter they would be there as well.
Johanna listened and nodded or chimed in when appropriate from where she was sitting on Sarah's window seat with her hands in her lap. Her shoulder was still tender and it ached if she moved it too much but she was no longer wearing her sling. The stiches that had secured the deep cut she'd sustained on front of her left shoulder and along her collarbone had been removed during her last clinic visit a couple days earlier and the scabs that remained behind itched, but she refrained from scratching. She was already going to have a slightly jagged scar once it healed completely and she didn't want to make it worse by continuingly scratching the scabs open.
Sarah sighed softly during a pause in her ramble before she closed her eyes. Johanna smiled slightly at her friend before she looked out the window and into Sarah's backyard. It was a windy day so the trees were moving with the wind and the gray sky looked a bit darker than when she had arrived at Sarah's a few hours earlier and Johanna knew that it was likely going to start raining soon. Her thoughts got away from her then and she started thinking about Jon and the others. With school starting up in a few weeks she was going to be around them for almost seven hours out of the day, likely sharing classes with them. Truthfully, part of her was nervous because she knew how cruel they could be. She wanted to tell someone what Jon had said to her but at the same time she didn't because she didn't want any more trouble over her. Plus, she wouldn't let them get away with things anymore and she would only go to the others if she couldn't handle everything on her own.
"Is something on your mind, Johanna?" Sarah asked and Johanna looked away from the window and over to Sarah's bed. Sarah had sat up at some point of Johanna's musing and was sitting on her bed with her legs crossed in front of her and was looking at Johanna with a curious look on her face.
"Nothing important," Johanna said with a forced smile and Sarah quirked an eyebrow.
"You looked like you were contemplating the meaning of life or something," Sarah said. "You sure it's nothing important?"
"For now . . . yeah," Johanna said and Sarah sighed but nodded her head.
"Okay, but you know that you can tell me anything," she said and Johanna nodded before Sarah grinned. "However, if it has anything to do with my brother in any intimate sort of situation, you'll have to talk to Lacy or Meredith about it because I really don't want to know that kind of stuff when it comes to my brother." Johanna laughed then and nodded her head in agreement while Sarah joined her in her laughter.
"That is a rather pleasant sound," Aurora said as she appeared in the open doorway into Sarah's room. The two girls smiled as they looked at Sarah's mom who was smiling as she rested her left hand against the doorframe. "I'm about to get dinner started since Jacob and JJ should be home in an hour or so. Would you girls mind giving me a hand?"
"Not at all," Johanna said as she stood and Sarah heaved a sigh.
"I guess," she said as she climbed from her bed but she smiled as she followed Johanna and the trio made their way downstairs and into the kitchen.
JJ was tired as he sat in the passenger seat of his father's truck. He hadn't gotten much sleep the night before because he had run patrol with Andrew and a couple other guys from four in the morning until he started his shift at the shop at eight. They'd been crazy busy at the shop the last few days so JJ was boarding on exhausted rather than just tired, which was why he was riding with his dad rather than phasing and running like he usually did when he didn't drive. He had almost asked his dad if he would mind dropping him off at his place, but then JJ remembered that Johanna was going to be at the house that night and he hadn't seen her for two days. Sleep would come later because he wanted to see his girlfriend. Texting and talking one the phone barely eased the ache in his chest when she wasn't close by and his want to see her was almost a need.
"Take tomorrow off, JJ," Jacob said as he turned his truck down the narrow road that would take them to the house. Lifting his head from the cool glass of the window JJ looked at his dad.
"Why? We're really busy, Dad. I can't take tomorrow off," he said but Jacob shook his head.
"We'll manage without you tomorrow," he said. "You've been running yourself ragged since Johanna was injured. If you haven't been working at the shop with me, you've been coordinating patrols, patrolling, or you've been with Johanna. I doubt you've been sleeping much. Stay home tomorrow and rest. You're no good to anyone if you're dead on your feet." JJ took a deep breath and nodded as Jacob turned his truck down the driveway of his house.
"Okay," he said softly. "Thanks Dad." Jacob nodded his head before he hit the garage door opener and opened the garage. He put the truck in park, closing the garage door as he turned off the ignition, and the duo climbed out of the truck before they headed inside. Before Jacob had opened the door they could both smell whatever it was that Aurora was making for dinner and it smelled amazing and made both of their mouths water as they quickly went inside. Stepping out of their boots they shared a smile when they heard Aurora chatting away with Johanna, Sarah, and to neither of their surprise Adam. JJ quickly moved around his father and headed towards the kitchen when he heard Johanna laugh and the tightness in his chest eased away as his dark eyes landed on her.
She must have saw him out of the corner of her eye from where she stood at the island, cutting board in front of her as she cut up the various vegetables his mother always put in the salad that accompanied whatever they were having for dinner. She smiled at him and he easily smiled back at her before he closed the distance between them and placed a gentle hand on the middle of her back and kissed her temple. She closed her eyes at the show of affection and sighed contentedly as he pulled back before she once again smiled up at him.
"Hi," she said and he chuckled before he kissed her forehead.
"Hi," he said in return before a small chorus of laughter met his ears. Johanna blushed as she looked away from him and JJ followed her gaze to see his family and Adam smiling as they looked at the pair.
"You'd think she was the only one in the room the way you greeted the rest of us, JJ," Sarah said, a small smile on her lips as she stood beside Adam.
"Shut up," JJ said before he snagged a cucumber from the small pile Johanna had created and stuffed it into his mouth. However, Johanna softly smacked his stomach with the back of her hand and he looked down at her.
"Don't do that, and go wash your hands. Dinner's almost ready," she said and JJ quirked an eyebrow while everyone else laughed and Johanna grinned.
"She sounds like you, Rory," Jacob said before he kissed her head. "I remember you saying that to me a time or two."
"I still do," Aurora said before she gently pushed him away with a smile. "Go wash your hands because she's right. Dinner is almost ready." Jacob chuckled before he nodded his head and walked over to JJ, putting his hands on his son's shoulders and gently guiding him towards the mudroom.
"Come on, son, let's do as the ladies say," he said and JJ reluctantly left Johanna's side and went into the mudroom with his father to wash his hands for dinner.
It was a quarter to ten when JJ walked Johanna out to her car so she could head home and at their parting he was going to phase and do the same, but neither one of them wanted their time together to end just yet. That short journey to her car was the first moment the pair had had alone that night and they had to make the most of it.
"Dad gave me tomorrow off," JJ said when they reached her car and Johanna let go of his hand before she turned so she was resting against the driver's side door and looking up at him.
"He did?" she asked and he nodded his head as he shuffled his feet closer and put his hands on her upper waist, her hands rising and resting just above his hips.
"Yeah," he said. "I'll come by early and we can do something tomorrow."
"JJ," she said softly before she raised her right hand from his side and gently cupped the left side of his face, "as much as I would love that, I think you should stay home and rest. I may not have your super senses, but even I can tell you're exhausted." She ran her thumb along his cheek and he leaned into her touch before he raised his left hand and took her hand into his, placing a warm kiss on the inside of her wrist. Goosebumps raced across her skin and her heart may have skipped a beat or two at the action and he lowered their now joined hands to rest on his chest and over his own heart.
"I haven't spent much time with you over the last week and after tomorrow my days are probably going to be just as crazy," he said. "I doubt I'm going to be able to go to Port Angeles with you and the girls for your back to school shopping and not seeing you is driving me crazy. Tonight barely scratched the surface because we were with everyone and I just want to spend some time with you and you alone."
"I want that too, but you need to rest," Johanna said before a rogue thought came to mind that had her blushing and biting her lower lip.
"What?" JJ asked and Johanna released her lip and took a deep breath.
"I . . . I could call my mom and see if it's okay if I stay here tonight but . . . instead of staying here I could stay with you," she said and JJ's eyebrows rose while his grip tightened on her waist and hand. "She would say me staying at Sarah's would be okay, I know she would, and Sarah would probably cover for me if need be. If I stay with you, you'll be able to spend time with me and I won't feel guilty because you'll be able to rest. So, do you want me to call my mom?" Her heart was racing in her chest as she anticipated his answer. She wanted him to tell her yes because she wanted to spend the night with him and she knew that nothing more than sleeping would happen between the two of them unless she wanted different.
"Is that something you want to do, Jo?" he asked and without any hesitation she nodded and JJ took a deep breath before he mirrored her action and nodded his head. "Then yes, call your mom," he said and Johanna nodded once again before she pulled her hands from his and pulled her cell phone out of the pocket of her jeans. A second later her phone was pressed against her ear and she waited for her mom to pick up.
"Johanna, is everything okay?" came Elise's voice and Johanna felt guilty for a second before she pushed the feeling away and nodded even though her mother couldn't see her.
"Yes, Mom, everything's fine," she said. "I was just wondering if it's okay if I stay the night at Sarah's. Meredith and Lacy will be coming over early tomorrow to head down to Second Beach to hang out and Sarah wants me to join them since we all haven't been able to all doing something together for a while."
"Are you feeling up to that?" Elise asked and Johanna looked up at JJ.
"Yeah, I am," she said.
"Okay, sweetheart, as long as you're feeling okay," she said. "Do you want your father or me to bring you some clean clothes for tomorrow?"
"No, I'll be fine," Johanna said.
"Okay. Have fun and tell the girls I said hello," Elise said and once again Johanna nodded.
"I will," she said. "Love you, Mom."
"Love you too, sweetheart," she said and Johanna hung up the phone before she rested it against her chest.
"Looks like you're staying with me tonight," JJ said, his fingers gripping her waist a little tighter and she smiled up at him.
"I am," she said and he grinned. Johanna pulled her car keys out of her pocket and held them out to him. "Do you want to drive? I have to text Sarah." JJ chuckled softly and let go of her before he took her keys from her hand. Johanna walked around the front of car while JJ unlocked it. She climbed in and started texting Sarah while JJ moved the seat all the way back and then climbed into the car. JJ started the car as Johanna sent her text off and they hadn't even made it out of the driveway when Johanna's phone chimed signally she had a text.
"What does she say?" JJ asked with a smile as he turned off down the road to head to his place and Johanna laughed as she quickly scanned the text and looked at him.
"That she has me covered and that she doesn't want any details," Johanna said as she smiled and JJ chuckled before he took her left hand in his right and continued to drive.
JJ was changing for bed in his bedroom after having washed his face and brushed his teeth in the bathroom before letting Johanna have the room. Harry was running patrol that night and Cam was already asleep when the pair had arrived at the house. He smiled to himself as he pulled on the black cotton pants he was going to wear to bed that night. He didn't think Johanna would be comfortable with him just wearing his boxers like he usually slept in, so, the pajama pants Grandpa Charlie and Grandma Sue had given him a couple Christmases ago were coming in handy that night. He'd given Johanna the other pair he had along with one of his t-shirts for her to sleep in before she quietly made her way into the bathroom.
He was turning down his bed when he heard her leave the bathroom and he kept on task until he heard his bedroom door close after Johanna had entered his room. He looked over his right shoulder and swallowed hard when he saw her standing by the door with her clothes in her hands and dressed in the dark green t-shirt he'd given her and the black pants. She bit her lower lip as she looked at him and he licked his lips as he turned around to face her. She'd taken the long braid out of her hair and settled her hair into a low ponytail at the nape of her neck and she'd washed away what little bit of makeup she'd been wearing that day. With her barefaced and standing there dressed in his clothes JJ thought she was absolutely beautiful.
"Even though I debated it for a minute because it's kind of gross, I used your toothbrush like you said," she said as she took a shuffled step closer to him. "I blame my mother since she drilled the importance of brushing my teeth into my brain from the time I was little." JJ laughed at that and shook his head before he walked over to her and took the neatly folded clothes from her hands before he sat them on his dresser.
"It's not that gross," he said. "We kiss, don't we?"
"Yes," Johanna said, her pale cheeks blushing as he turned back around and took her into his arms.
"Same difference to me," JJ said as her right hand settled on his chest and her left hand on his hip. Johanna scoffed a quiet laugh as she shook her head.
"It's not the sa-," she started, but he cut her off by capturing her lips in a searing kiss. She quickly returned his kiss and her right hand moved up into his hair while his hands slid up her back as he pressed her closer. He realized then that she'd taken off her bra because he could feel that her back was bare underneath the t-shirt and the softness of her chest as it pressed against his. He deepened the kiss, his tongue moving with hers, as he moved his right hand to rest on the back of her neck. However, JJ knew that if he wasn't careful he'd cross a line that he wasn't sure Johanna was ready to cross so he reluctantly brought the kiss to an end and slowly pulled his lips back from hers. "Maybe it is the same," she said breathlessly and JJ chuckled before he kissed her chastely before he let her go.
"Come on, let's go to bed," he said and Johanna cleared her throat softly before she nodded her head. However, JJ noticed that Johanna winced as she rotated her shoulder and walked towards the bed so he gently caught her right hand with his left. "What's wrong?" he asked and she looked up at him.
"My shoulder is just stiff," she said.
"Do you want me to massage it?" he asked as he let go of her hand and moved so he was standing behind her. He didn't wait for her answer as he gently pressed the heel of his hand on her left shoulder blade and gently started rubbing small circles. He heard her gasp and for a second he thought he was hurting her until she let out a soft and quiet moan as her body relaxed under his touch. JJ smiled as he continued to gently work her shoulder and kissed the crown of her head. "Feel good?" he asked in a soft whisper and Johanna nodded.
"Very good," she said as her head fell to the right and JJ started using both hands to rub both her shoulder and her neck. They stood in the middle of his room, JJ rubbing Johanna's shoulders and neck and Johanna sighing softly in contentment, for a little while until Johanna stepped away from his hands. "Thank you for that, JJ, I feel much better. We should probably go to bed," Johanna said softly as she looked over her right shoulder at him and JJ cleared his throat at the heat he saw in her gaze and he nodded.
"Yeah," he said before he cleared his throat once again. Johanna laughed quietly before she turned around and held out her right hand to him. He smiled at her and took her hand in his.
"It's good to know I'm not the only one that that affected that way," she said coyly and JJ chuckled in return before he gently tugged her close and leaned down to kiss her chastely. "I love you, JJ," she whispered when he pulled away and JJ squeezed her hand.
"I love you too," he whispered back as his dark eyes held her beautiful green eyes. She closed the distance between them again and kissed him briefly before she pulled back. Keeping his hand in hers she led him to the bed. JJ had turned down the comforter, leaving only the sheet to cover them since his body heat would keep Johanna more than warm while they slept. Johanna let go of his hand and climbed into his large bed before he was quick to follow and he pulled her close once they were both settled under the sheet. She laughed softly and curled into him, her body pressing against his side and her left leg wrapping around his left leg and coming to rest in between his leg. It was an intimate position that wasn't really helping him calm himself, but there was no way he was going to push her away until he had himself under control. She felt far too good next to him for him to do that.
"JJ?" she asked as he was about to turn off his bedside lamp and he looked at her as she lifted her head and rested her chin against his chest. "Have you . . . have you been with a girl before?" Taking a deep breath JJ nodded curtly before he raised his left hand from where it rested on her back and let it rest against the back of her head.
"One," he said softly and Johanna bit her lip as she looked down at her hand that rested on his chest.
"When?" she asked
"It happened two years ago," he said and Johanna's eyes moved back to his. "I was in San Diego with my parents and Sarah," he said hesitantly. "We were visiting a friend of my mom's and her family when I met this girl that lived a couple houses down from them. We were there for two weeks and I ended up spending a lot of my free time with her. She was twenty-two and we went to the beach and she showed me around the city. We got along well and one night, before my family and I were heading home, one thing led to another and we . . . we slept together."
"Was she pretty?" she found herself asking even though she wasn't sure she wanted to know.
"Honestly, Jo, I really can't remember what she looks like anymore," he said and Johanna furrowed her brow as she moved back and sat up so she was sitting beside him and looking down at him. "I don't," JJ said when he saw the disbelief on her face.
"I was always under the impression you don't forget your first," she said and JJ sighed softly as he met her gaze.
"Most people don't forget and I remember that night and how I fumbled around in the backseat of her car, but I don't really remember her. You, Johanna, are the end all be all for me," JJ said. "The night we're together for the first time will be the time I remember every intimate detail and I know I'll never forget a second of it."
"I shouldn't believe you, but I do," Johanna said after several quiet beats of just looking down at him and JJ sighed once more before he sat up and brought his right hand to rest on her left cheek, his thumb running along her cheekbone.
"Why did you ask about that, Jo?" he asked and she sighed softly as her eyes shifted down so she was looking at his chest.
"I was curious," she said. "I've been . . . I've been thinking about us and being with you like that. I couldn't help but wonder if you'd been with anyone before and what I would have to live up to if you had."
"Jo, baby, look at me," he said, urging her eyes back to his, and she lifted her gaze so her eyes met his once more. "That night isn't going to hold a candle to the night we're together for the first time. You've got nothing to live up to because I know that that night will surpass any expectation either one of us have." Johanna's heart started racing at his words and the heated look in his eyes as he looked at her. She closed the distance between their faces and kissed him, JJ's hold on her face tightened slightly as he kissed her back
Johanna raised her left hand as they kissed and wrapped her hand around his wrist before she gently pulled his hand from her face and lowered his hand to her chest. JJ's hand grasped her breast as he kissed her harder and she covered his hand with hers. Carefully, JJ laid Johanna back on his bed and never broke their kiss as he leaned over her. Johanna's right hand raised to rest on the side of his neck while her left hand slid up his forearm to grasp his bicep that flexed as he continued to massage her breast over the cotton of her t-shirt. However, after a moment he let go over breast and dragged his fingers down her stomach and to the rolled waistband of the pants he borrowed her.
He hesitated for a second as Johanna's right hand moved to his cheek and her left hand to his chest, but the smell of her arousal had been driving him crazy since he had massaged her shoulder. Sure, it had trailed off for a moment but since she'd kissed him it had hit him like a brick to the head once again. So, deciding that she probably wouldn't push him away after their activities and conversation he slipped his hand underneath the waistband of her pants and her underwear. His fingers brushed over short curls before his heated fingers reached their destination. Johanna gasped against his mouth before she broke the kiss and looked up at him with wide eyes. He met her gaze and licked his lips but he did not remove his hand.
"Is this okay, baby?" he asked as he ran his fingers up and down her damp lower lips. He hadn't lied to Johanna when he said he didn't remember much of that night with the girl in San Diego, but he remembered a few things she had him do and he wasn't a saint. He'd seen more than a few videos online and he wanted to give Johanna a taste of what it would be like for them in the future. He knew that she had zero experience and while he wasn't an expert he at least had an idea of what it would be like.
"Y-yes," she stuttered as she held his gaze and raised her left hand to the side of his neck while her other hand remained on his face.
"Open your legs a bit more, Johanna," he whispered and Johanna did as he instructed. JJ moved his fingers up and slowly circled the sensitive bundle of nerves he knew rested there and Johanna gasped once again, her grip on him tightening as she arched her hips into his hand.
He kissed her again as he continued to work his hand against her. At some point she had wrapped her wright arm around his shoulders, her nails digging into his back, while her left hand was doing the same against his chest. Part of him wished the marks she was leaving on him would stay for more than a few minutes, but he knew they'd heal so he'd enjoy the feel of her leaving them and keep that memory until next time. He slipped a finger inside of her and Johanna broke the kiss with a soft cry as she opened her eyes and looked up at him. JJ would never forget the look on her face as she looked up at him with swollen lips, hooded eyes, and flushed cheeks and neck.
"JJ," she said in a breathy whisper and he could feel her inner walls quiver against his finger. She was close, he could feel it, and he picked up his pace before he added another finger and rubbed his thumb against her. "JJ," she whimpered before she closed her eyes tightly and arched against him.
She started to scream, but JJ covered her mouth with his to muffle the sound and she kissed him back as her nails scraped across his back and chest before her hands were holding his face. JJ slowed his hand as he felt her orgasm and as she continued to tremble he slipped his fingers out of her and rested his palm against her. He brought their kiss to an end and he pulled back to look down at her. She was panting as she opened her eyes and ran her thumbs along his jawline as she looked up at him with an amazed and lazy smile that left him grinning.
"Wow," was all she could manage to say and JJ chuckled.
"That feel good?" he asked.
"No," Johanna said with a soft laugh of her own. "That felt incredible." JJ smiled at her before he leaned down and kissed her chastely as he pulled his hand out of her pants.
"Good," he whispered against her mouth. "That's only a sampling of what it's going to be like when we make love, Johanna. I'm going to make you feel like that all night long." Johanna shivered at the promise in his words and JJ kissed her briefly before he climbed from the bed.
"Where are you going?" she asked and JJ kept his back to her but looked at her over her shoulder.
"Bathroom," he said. "I need to wash my hands. Rest, baby, I'll be back in a minute."
"Okay," she said tiredly before she got comfortable. JJ was sure she was asleep before he had even walked into the bathroom, a small smile tugging on the corners of his lips. He closed the bathroom door and sighed as he leaned his back against it before he slipped his right hand into his pants. Johanna's wetness remained on his fingers as he wrapped them around his hardness and started to tug. He closed his eyes and pictured Johanna's face as she came, no longer needing to conjure up what he think she would look like because now he knew for certain, and it wasn't long before he found his own release with Johanna's scent mixing with his and causing his head to rush as he reached his peak.
Once he caught his breath, JJ cleaned himself up, washed his hands, and went back into his bedroom. Johanna was sound asleep, a small satisfied smile playing on her lips, and JJ grinned before he climbed into bed. He turned off the bedside light and pulled Johanna into his side like he had when they had first gotten into bed. She sighed as she curled into him, her head resting on his shoulder while her hand went to his chest. Smiling to himself JJ kissed the top of her head and sighed as he closed his eyes.
Her certainly had no idea that his day was going to end that way, but he was looking forward to more days ending in such a fashion and he knew that he would have many of them in his future with Johanna.