18.

"So how come you look like someone painted a big clown face on you?" Donna asked Tara.

"What do you mean?"

"Well you look scared to death but with this huge fake smile on your face."

Tara turned away from Donna. She was trying to keep the fear from eating her alive.

"Tara, what's going on?"

"I'm scared Donna. I'm scared that when Jax gets out he is going to revert back to the way he was before he went in. I don't think I can survive another heartbreak."

"Oh Tara." she said pulling Tara into her arms. "It's going to be okay. Ope can't stop talking about how much Jax has missed you. He loves you Tara."

"I want to believe that so bad Donna. I do. I'm trying to be okay with everything. I really am."

"I know Tara. Look I will be right beside you the whole time and I promise you that if Jax fucks up even once I will shoot him myself."

Tara chuckled through the tears that had been falling down her face.

"Now, go in there and dry your eyes. Fix your make up and let's get to the Clubhouse. Besides Thomas is really wanting to see his daddy."

Tara did as she was told. She went in dried her eyes, fixed her makeup and looked herself in the eyes. "You got this Tara." she said to herself. She was determined to push the fear away and just be happy to see Jax. Happy that Thomas could be with his dad. This time when she looked in the mirror she had a real smile. She turned and walked out and they left for the clubhouse.

When they pulled up Gemma was outside waiting for them. She started chuckling when she seen the outfit that Tara had dressed Thomas in. It was a pair of jeans with a tiny SAMCRO tshirt with a little kutte with "Baby Son In Training" on the back.

"That is adorable." she said to Tara.

"You think Jax will like it?"

"He is going to love it."

"So how much longer do you think?" Donna asked.

"Well I know they are out and the guys had their bikes there for them. They should be here in about five minutes I would guess."

Right when she finished her sentence they heard the roar of the bikes coming up. Tara turned to the noise when she seen him pull in. Her heart felt like it was beating out of her chest. She seen him park and get off his bike and before she knew it she was wrapped in his arms.
"I am so glad to see you Tara. I was afraid you wouldn't be here." he said kissing her.

"Hey we said we were going to work on us right?"

"Yeah, I'm just really glad that you agreed."

Ope and Donna were hugging and kissing and then they walked over to Jax and Tara. Jax turned to his mom and hugged her and then took Thomas out of her arms. He looked at the outfit he had on and chuckled. "Nice one mom."

"Oh it wasn't me. That was Tara. She had it specially made for him."

He turned to Tara and gave her the biggest smile.

"Show her what you did Jax." Opie said grinning.

"What did you do?" Tara asked.

Jax grinned and started taking his kutte off, then he took his t-shirt off and stood in front of her. He watched as she looked on in awe and tears started filling up her eyes. He could see they were tears of happiness. He was really glad he decided to do this. He knew that Tara would know exactly what it meant that he branded himself with her name.

She jumped into his arms. "I love you so much." she said.

"I love you too Tara. Always." he said then kissed her long and passionate.

"I'm glad I took Thomas when I did." Donna said chuckling.

"Yeah, I would have warned you but I was afraid I would somehow ruin this moment for them." Opie said.
"It's okay baby. I understand." she said reaching up to bring his lips down to hers.

They all went into the clubhouse, the party was going to be big. As Tara passed the croweaters she did her best to just concentrate on Jax and his love for her. Jax could see she was having a hard time. "Baby, what can I do to make you feel more comfortable?" he asked her softly.

"Could you leave your shirt off for awhile. It reminds me of how much you do love me."

Jax smiled, "are you sure it won't have you jumping my bones?"

"Oh I definitely want to jump your bones Teller but for now just watching you show all these croweaters you are mine has me all hot and bothered."

Jax groaned at that. All he wanted to do was make love to this woman for the rest of his life.

"So what was that you always said? There was no pussy that was going to put you in the bowl with all that cream?" Opie asked laughing.

"Oh shut up man. I just know I've never been happier than I am right now. Why would I want anything else?"

"I know man. I feel the same for Donna."

"Yeah, so tomorrow you are going to make it lawfully binding although you know it's already binding."

"Yeah, and you know it's a great feeling."

"So tomorrow is the day." Tara said teasing Donna.

"Yeah, I know that getting his crow means so much more than the paper but it feels like now we are just tied up with a bow. You know what I mean?"
"Yeah, I guess I do."

"So what did you think when he revealed his tattoo?"

"Remember earlier when I was so scared?"

"Yeah,"

"Well all that just melted away. I know what it means to have him do that."

"He does love you. It's actually kind of funny you know?"

"What?"

"How long it took him to finally concede that you were the one for him. I mean you knew it the whole time."

Tara chuckled. "Yeah, I guess I did."