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Secrets and Shocks

One Month Later

"Hello beautiful."

Fira was unable to stop her smile as she felt Kili's lips on her head. Turning round Fira sniggered at his flushed cheeks.

"Running were we?"

Kili glanced down at himself whilst Fira got to her feet.

"You wouldn't be laughing if you had Dwalin for a sparring partner."

"True," Fira kissed him, "I wouldn't."

Kili ran his hands through her hair, "I'm going to have a bath. And then, given I have nothing else to do, maybe we can find a way to occupy ourselves?"

Letting him go Fira chewed on her bottom lip. Since their wedding night she'd been trying to put Kili off the idea of sleeping together. She knew she needed to tell him the truth. But she had no idea how to start. There was also the fact that she'd had the best part of a year to mention it and she hadn't. Fira sighed. She had assumed she was done with secrets. Clearly she wasn't.

"Fira?"

At the hesitation in Kili's voice a smile twitched on her lips.

"Yes?"

Kili's head poked round the door and Fira realised he had nothing on.

"Um…where did you put the towels?"

Fira pointed to the chest of drawers, "Bottom one."

"Err… could you get it for me?"

"Kili!" Folding her arms Fira raised her eyebrows, "We've been married for a whole month. I think I can cope with looking at you by now."

Kili pouted before moving into the room. Unable to help herself Fira stepped towards him and pressed her hands to his chest. Kissing the stubble on his chin she could feel Kili pushing against her.

"Fira," his voice was ragged in her ear, "Fira as much as I love you if I don't stop I'll throw you on the bed and take you right now."

She kissed his nose, "I wouldn't complain."

She knew Kili wouldn't either. However he pulled away, "later. When I've cleaned up."

"I'll be waiting."

Sniggering Kili grabbed the towel and hurried back into the bathroom. As he shut the door behind him Fira bowed her head.

She needed to tell him and she'd have to do it today.

Fira was kneeling by the fire when Kili joined her. He'd put a fresh pair of trousers and a tunic on. Glancing up Fira saw his wet fingers were trying to re-braid his hair.

"No," she pushed his hands away and undid the braid he's started, "I like it as it is. It's very you."

"Handsome and wonderful?" Kili kissed her. Fira shook her head.

"Untidy and wild."

Kili said nothing and instead snuggled up to her. Leaning against him Fira took a deep breath.

"Kili I…I need to tell you something."

"What?"

Shaking her head Fira sat up so she could turn to face him.

"The thing is, when I tell you… Look I'm giving you permission to be angry when you find out."

Confusion flickered onto his face. Kili took her hands, "Fira what's happened?"

"Kili I…" she shut her mouth. She knew what she wanted to say but the words wouldn't come. Kili stroked her cheek with his knuckles.

"Just take your time love," he whispered, "Take your time. Now then. What's the matter?"

"Kili I…you know how we've talked about having children one day."

As delight filled his eyes Fira wanted to be sick. Kili looked at her stomach.

"Fira are you saying you're pregnant?"

"No!" Shaking her head she took a deep breath, "No. I'm not pregnant Kili."

Kili nodded, only a small hint of disappointment on his face.

"The thing is. During those conversations there was something I should have told you. Only did didn't because I was too scared."

Kili said nothing. However his gentle silence was enough to coax Fira to talk.

"Before you think otherwise I do want to have children. Honestly Kili I do. And I can have them…I think. But…when female Dragonborns get pregnant there are…risks."

"Risks," Kili gripped her hands tightly, "Fira what do you mean?"

"You talk about how dwarvish children are rarer. Well Dragonborn children are a miracle. Most females choose not to have children because they don't want to risk anything."

"Fira," Kili licked his lips and she could see he was struggling to get his head round it.

"What exactly are you saying?"

"I'm saying that when a female Dragonborn gets pregnant there's a huge chance that she dies!"

Fira wished she hadn't yelled. Kili stared at her in shock; his eyes blinking wildly.

"Dies?"

Fira nodded, "The majority of Dragonborn births end up with the mother dying in childbirth. Then there are miscarriages and other things that go wrong. We don't know why this happens. Maybe we're cursed."

"But…but you aren't a full bloodied Dragonborn," Kili cupped her face, "You're a half blood. Maybe…I mean you might not…"

"Kili we won't ever know that for certain until I'm on a bed giving birth! The thing is, Dragonborn babies are big compared to other races. And most women have very slender bodies. When the baby is born their bodies can't take it and they end up breaking their bones trying to give birth! Look at me! I know my body won't be able to take it Kili!"

"But…" turning away Kili stared at the fire, "You might be alright."

Fira nodded, "And I might die. Giving birth aside plenty of other things can go wrong. Chances of me miscarrying are stupidly high, complications will almost certainly arise. The point is, although I could bear children in theory. I highly doubt I would survive it."

Kili nodded slowly. His hands left hers and he got to his feet. Unable to move Fira simply looked up at him.

"I should have told you long before now. But I didn't know how to word it. Plus we only started talking about having children recently and…and I was just too scared to do so."

Kili flashed her a glance, "You're right Fira. You should have told me."

Tears crawled down Fira's face as Kili stormed from the room. Turning back to the fire she curled up into a ball; tears dribbling down her face.

Taking a deep breath, Kili watched the arrow hit its mark. From the second he had learned how to shoot, archery had been his escape. If ever he was angry or upset a few hours at the range always helped him cool down. He just never thought Fira would be the one to bring him here.

She had revealed worse things to him. Kili remembered her confession in Rivendell. He remembered how she had confessed to being sent by Tharos to kill them all. And yet this confession seemed to eclipse all others. This didn't just affect Fira, it affected him to. He had never really told anyone but he had dreamed of being a father one day. And when he'd began courting Fira he'd hoped those dreams would be a reality. She'd let him get his hopes up before bringing them down around his ears.

"Kee?"

At his brothers voice Kili lowered his bow. Wiping his eyes in the hope Fili wouldn't realise what had happened he then turned and forced a smile onto his face.

"Hello."

He should have known. Fili was his brother after all. If anyone was going to work out something was wrong then it would be him.

"Kili? What's the matter?" Fili inched closer and lowered his voice, "You've been crying?"

"No, no I'm fine Fee. Honestly."

Fili nodded, "Of course you are. Now what's happened?"

Kili told him everything. Fili didn't interrupt. He just stood and listened patiently.

"I don't care about the fact that she can't really have children," Kili admitted, "That's not her fault. But she should have told me. Or at least she should have told me earlier."

Fili nodded, "I agree. But if you were in her shoes what would you do. You need to tell the person you love that you can give them children but at the cost of your own life. You're asking them to choose between you and having a family. Fira didn't want to give you that choice Kee."

Kili nodded; he hadn't really considered it like that.

"I…I suppose she had her reasons."

Fili nodded, "Believe me brother, Fira is hating herself that she didn't tell you sooner."

Kili shook his head, "She shouldn't. I mean I might have been angry earlier but I understand why she did it."

"So you'll go and find her then?"

"Yes," Kili frowned at his brother, "Yes I will. Why?"

"Well you won't need to go far," Fili glanced over his shoulder, "Come on Fira. My idiot brother won't bite."

As Fira emerged Kili could see how red her eyes were. Her shoulders moved up and down and he could see she was making a great effort not to cry again. Fili stood aside whilst Kili opened his arms out.

"Come here Fira."

"I'm sorry," she hugged him tightly, "I'm so sorry."

"Hush," he kissed her hair, "I understand my darling. I really do. I was angry yes. But I realise why you hid this from me."

"I just didn't want to force that choice on you."

"What choice," easing her back Kili caressed her face. Using his thumbs he wiped away her tears.

"Fira there is no choice. I want you! If that means we don't have children together then I can live with it."

"I…are you sure?"

Kili nodded, "I won't risk losing you. I've come to close to it far too many times already."

Fira said nothing and instead Kili pulled her back into his arms. As they hugged tightly he pressed his face into her hair; trying to muffle her soft cries.

"Say that again Kili."

Gulping Kili fixed his uncle with an uneasy look. It had been a week since Fira had told him her secret and he wished he hadn't left it this long to talk to Thorin.

"Fira and I…we've decided not to have children."

Thorin's mouth twitched, "You do understand that, as my heir it's expected of you to carry on the family line?"

"I know," Kili nodded, "But it's too dangerous. Fira told me a few days ago that the women of her race…the majority don't survive childbirth. I won't put her in harm's way uncle. Not for anything."

Thorin nodded, "I see. But I have one other question Kili."

"Oh?"

Thorin smiled, "Why exactly are you telling this to me?"

Blushing Kili wrung his hands, "Well I just assumed you would need to know. I mean you just spoke about passing on the family line and so on. I thought I should tell you."

Thorin nodded, "I guess there is that."

"Are you angry? I mean it's not like she can't bear children after all."

"No," Thorin shook his head, "No Kili I'm not angry. Fira is your One. If she were to die then your own life would become non-existent. I would never ask you to risk her life just for the sake of our line."

Kili smiled, "Thank you Thorin."

He turned to leave when Thorin cleared his throat. Turning Kili paused at the serious look on his uncle's face.

"Kili. Make sure you're both careful from now on. Getting rid of a child is just as dangerous as giving birth to one."

Nodding Kili bowed before leaving his uncle's study. He hadn't even thought about that. Not much anyway. He and Fira would need to take as many precautions as possible if they were to avoid her getting pregnant by accident. Kili smiled to himself. At least Thorin wasn't angry at them. He hadn't expected him to be, but Kili had been prepared for a small amount of disapproval. Pushing that from his mind he hurried to find Fira to tell her what had happened.

Pushing the door open Kili poked his head round. Once again there was no sign of Fira. He'd checked almost everywhere now! The library, the training grounds. He'd searched Mithiel's room, the kitchen, the archery range and still no sign of her. Turning to go Kili froze when he heard a sobbing sound. Silently shutting the door behind him he crept into the room. The sobbing was coming from the bed.

"Fira?"

There was a frightened gasp. Hurrying round to her side Kili's heart broke as he looked down.

"Fira!"

She was curled up into a ball; her hair a mess and tears streaming down her face. Sitting down Kili saw her hands was shaking along with the rest of her body.

"Fira what's happened!"

She shook her head. Kicking off his boots Kili sat next to her and took her in his arms. Rocking her back and forth he hummed under his breath to try and ease her.

"It's okay. I'm here now. I'm here."

Fira clutched at his tunic. Kissing her Kili smiled down.

"What's happened?"

"I…I saw Oin this morning."

Kili held her tightly, "Are you ill? Fira what's the matter?"

"No I'm not ill. Kili I…"

She broke off and Kili decided another tactic to soothe her.

"I saw Thorin earlier. I told him about our decision and he was surprisingly okay with it. He warned us we would need to be careful but he's not pushing us to have children."

He didn't expect Fira to start crying again. The plan had been to take her mind off it. But instead, Kili realised, he'd made it worse.

"Fira?"

"It's…it's too late," she sobbed, "I'm already pregnant!"

So….yeah I thought I'd add this in just to shake things up a bit. Whilst it's good we may or may not have a mini Kili or mini Fira on the way I can promise you it won't be plain sailing. Let me know what you think xxx