A/N: So guys here is chapter 15 (: I have exams the next few days, so I may not be posting chapters daily like I've promised. SORRYYYY. I'll do my best though3 ENJOY
Refresher: The woman spun around quickly and slapped Fang. She lazily blinked her eyes and nearly tumbled over from the shift in her stance. The solider turned and continued hobbling uneasily down the dark street as a roll of thunder crashed somewhere off in the distance.
-Vanille-
Vanille was still laying in her wife's bed. She had been crying ever since the woman told her to leave, but she couldn't bring herself to give up so easily. The longer she sat there sobbing, the more she started hating herself. How could I have ever messed things up with Claire? How could I have been so stupid? Vanille was laying there with dried tears all over her face trying as hard as she could to find some hope in her dreadful situation. The orange-haired woman yanked her unwilling body up from the bed and glanced out of the large windows to her left. There was a beautiful scenic view of the valleys and rivers glistening under the moonlight. Vanille sighed sliding off the bed. She wiped her eyes with her dry arm and sniffled as she walked over to the large window. The weather outside was cold tonight. Vanille gently pressed the tips of her fingers against the frosty glass as her mind flashed back to the events that occurred earlier that day.
"Hey baby. Got any plans tonight?", Yuj was asking on the phone. Vanille could hear the hint of a wink in his voice. "Claire's working late again tonight. I could use a visit.", Vanille replied shamefully. For nearly a week she and Yuj had been meeting up in secret. She couldn't take this distance from her wife anymore. After she had a drinking binge Vanille was practically left in the dust, forgotten in the bitter liquor her wife consumed nightly. In all honesty she had predicted things to get better once Claire went back to work, but once again she was wrong. Vanille almost wished she had the alcoholic back after she figured out that 'I'll be home early' meant she wouldn't be awake by the time her solider stepped in through the door in the early hours of the following morning.
Quite frankly Vanille was getting tired of it. I'll put a stop to it once Claire goes back to normal. She won't know, everything will be okay.
Vanille snatched her hand quickly away from the giant glass window as her own thoughts stung in the back of her mind. She turned around and went to her dresser and snatched her pack of cigarettes and a lighter then walked out of the back door located in her room. She slid the glass door shut behind her and sat slowly on the cold fabric of a soft chair on their porch.
At this particular spot she could see the beautiful wilderness of her home, from the tall electric fence hundreds of yards away that served as the city limits, to the limitless mountains in the vast distance overrun with waterfalls that looked like veins of blue crawling up the towering slopes. The wind was blowing gently, tussling the long honey colored blades of grass that covered the region. Howls of distant monsters could be heard in the quiet. The dangerous plains were almost peaceful, but even now Vanille could do nothing to find peace as she took long drags of her cigarette.
'Outside babe. It's freezing, hurry up and open the door?' Vanille flipped her phone open to see the message from Yuj.
"Uh.. Guys, I don't feel too good. I think I'm gonna call it quits.", Vanille faked as she slowly got up with a hand on her head. Serah and Fang eyed her as she staggered away into her bedroom. "I might try going to bed.", She added as she disappeared down the hall.
"Want us to check up on you later Vanille?", Serah called with a worried tone in her voice just before Vanille was about to disappear into her bedroom.
"No, I'm all right. Just got a headache. I'll try to sleep it off.", Vanille lied shutting her door afterwards leaving no room for more discussion. She strode over to the back of the room and unlocked the sliding glass door for Yuj, who immediately burst inside.
"Maker, took you long enough. Do you have any idea how cold it is out there?", The boy smiled rubbing his arms.
Vanille gave a hesitated smile as she apologized. "Sorry, had to come up with an excuse.", she explained with a small hint of sadness in her voice.
Yuj didn't bother with any more talking as he wrapped his arms around the small girl and began kissing her deeply. At first Vanille kept her hands tightly to her chest, but as their lips continued brushing against each other she slowly slid them around the boy's neck.
Vanille was testing herself when she began holding the toxic smoke in her lungs at longer and longer intervals as she continued sitting there reminiscing. With her eyes shut she concentrated on the rustle of the grass blades against each other. Exhale. The next time she inhaled she heard a loud splash from the lake in the distance. She slowly opened her eyes as she forced the smoke out of her lungs and disappear into the wind. Exhale. She began watching the burning ember of her cigarette. Inhale. The chirps of midnight crickets. Exhale. A swoosh of lightheadedness as the smoke wisped from her lips again. Inhale. The rush of a passing car. Exhale. Vanille found herself absorbed in the nature of her surroundings, and her mind began wandering again.
She felt a rough tongue brush against her own as her shirt fell to the floor. His hands on her hips. Her fingers intertwined in his hair. Immediately after they started losing clothes the two decided to open the window. The cold breeze causing a rush of excitement. Goosebumps. A hunger for warmth. Vanille hoisted herself up as she wrapped her legs around the young man. A quiet moan escaped her mouth. She arched her body into his as she felt his hands run up her back.
Vanille tossed her cigarette into an ash tray, trying to empty her mind of the memories as she heard thunder rolling in the distance. She tapped her pack of cigarettes on her thigh and rolled her eyes to the side as she pulled out another stick full of processed weeds. Flashes of lightning illuminated the barren fields as she lit the substance and took another long drag. The young woman couldn't help but indulge herself to an endless high as the smoke glazed her eyes with a distant look. Vanille sat there for a long time watching the dark storm clouds roll in. She listened to the beautiful claps of the thunder that followed blinding sparks of lightning. All she could do was relish those precious moments before the rain, before the ruthless storm arrived.
More and more clothes disappeared until they were all missing from their bodies. Despite the chilling breeze filtering throughout the room Vanille's body was still coated in a thin layer of sweat. Her breaths were coming out more rapidly as she fell onto her wife's bed. She hated using Yuj like this. She hated faking her pleasure just to get what her figure was craving. He'll never be like Claire. Vanille thought to herself between sloppy kisses and fake moans. As needy hands caressed her body her mind automatically reverted to her wife. Too rough. Claire would've been more gentle. A sloppy kiss. Claire knows what she's doing. A lick instead of a bite. Wrong. Claire knows how to turn me on. The reality in front of her was mixing with the dream she was craving. Yuj. Claire. Yuj. Claire. Vanille was surprised she didn't end up using her wife's name by mistake when she was with the boy. You'll never compare. Her mind endlessly traveled as she felt Yuj slide himself inside her.
Just then the rain hit. Hard. Relentless. Cold drops of water were covering the fields with a much needed liberation. Vanille inhaled the fresh smell of rain as tiny droplets splashed on her revealed skin. She was downright freezing, every muscle in her body was trembling from the cold. I deserve this don't I? Vanille wondered to herself. I'd be sitting out here in this freezing storm anyways if Fang and Serah had made me leave. Where the hell was I supposed to go? She shook her head. Her eyes began to sting, but Vanille had cried herself out ever since Lightning left. No tears would be falling any time soon.
As thunder continued challenging the storm to push harder, Vanille jumped to the loud sound of her phone vibrating on the glass coffee table next to her chair.
-Can we talk?
Yuj? What on earth could this bastard have to say?
-What?
Vanille couldn't think of anything else to respond with. She stared at her phone, dazed and intoxicated from the cigarettes she relentlessly smoked. Her eyes analyzed the small word she had replied with.
-I'm sorry she saw. I don't wanna stop seeing you.
Yeah, that's gonna work out well. Vanille scoffed at the text. Appalled that Yuj would even think he still had a chance at being with her. The woman shook her head and tossed the phone next to her on the empty bench. She stared at the storm for another 20 minutes. Watching the waves of wind push the small beads of rain around violently. Hearing the pounding of the vicious water against the windows of her home. Vanille plucked out another cigarette and lit it as the waves continued rolling over the plains. Her phone vibrated again next to her. She rolled her eyes.
-Lightning and Snow got into a fight at Lebreau's. Everyone saw. She disappeared.
Vanille's heart skipped a few beats before she realized what Yuj was doing.
-Not funny.
I can't believe he'd even try to fuck with me like that.
-I'm serious Vanille. Come by the bar?
-No Yuj. I'm not falling for that shit.
Despite the fact that Vanille could hardly believe the man she was having an affair with would care anything about her wife, she couldn't help but wonder if she really was missing.