I'm sorry this took me so long to get posted, guys. I've been crazy busy. But it's here now and I promise it won't be this long before the next one gets posted. I'm sorry for any typos, I wrote all of this on my phone so it's really hard to proof-read. Like always, please please give me feedback. I love love love reviews, so leave me some!

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Tris

The waters of the chasm roar below me as I stare into its abyss-like depths. I try to clear my mind of the things that have happened. I know that Evelyn has always hated me, but I don't know why she seems to think that Nita is so much better. If she really cared about Tobias like she claims to, she would see that I have been there for him through it all. I've been in his fear landscape. I know who he is in the deepest parts of his soul. I've seen him as Four, I've seen him happy, I've seen him in pain, I've seen him face his fears, I've seen a completely different side of him that no one has ever seen. Nita has done nothing for him except almost kill one of his best friends.

The waves below me ripple and I see my reflection in the sunlight that shines through from far above me. I've never really thought about it before, but it must have taken a lot of work to build this place. And honestly, I never knew that this even existed. I had always known where Dauntless was located as a faction, but just like everyone else, I had only seen the front of the building that serves as the headquarters. Upon passing by, I had never noticed the line of windows that just stuck out above the ground from the upper level apartments. I wonder how long it took them to get this whole city ready. That's one of the questions that I should have asked when we were at the Bureau.

I still don't understand how everyone could go back to living here like nothing ever happened. What happens when Choosing Day comes around again? Will everyone act like staying in this city is the only choice they have? Has everyone that is in the city been told about what we found out there? They have to know something because they brought Nita back with them. Not only that, but they left me out there. I can't imagine life here without my parents. I know that I need to talk to Tobias about this, but I don't think that now is the right time. Maybe I can talk to Christina about it.

I wander through the hallways until I reach Christina's apartment. I knock on the door and wait for her to answer, but she doesn't. maybe she went somewhere with Uriah...or they're just pretending not to be there. I sigh as I walk down the hallway away from her place. Nothing feels right anymore.

"Ow!" I yell as I turn a corner and run into someone. "Sorry, I wasn't watching..."

"It's okay," Peter responds. "Are you alright?"

"Yeah, I'm fine," I say as I wipe my palms on my jeans.

"Is everything okay?" He asks. "You look pale."

"So I see that you haven't changed," I mumble to myself. "I'm good, really. Thanks," I say as I walk away.

I wander down to the cafeteria and walk past all the tables, making my way to the kitchen. They told me that I could start whenever I feel ready, that there's no rush, but I want to go ahead and make myself familiar with everything so that when I do start I won't be having to search for everything.

"Tris, right?" I hear a voice behind me ask.

I turn around and see a man that's a little taller than Tobias. He has broad shoulders, dark green eyes, and black hair. He looks to be a year or two older than Tobias. He's very good looking, but he pales on comparison to the man with which I've become accustomed to.

"Um, yeah," I respond hesitantly.

How does he know who I am?

"You're gonna be the new girl, right?" He asks as he takes a couple steps closer.

"I will be working here, yes, but I'm hardly new," I raise an eyebrow.

"You start in a couple weeks?"

"I wasn't really given a time limit," I say, "they think I need some time to adjust."

"They're probably right," he suggests. "So what're you doing down here then?"

"I just wanted to get familiar with the place so I won't be slow when I start."

"Good thinking," he shrugs. "Well, I'm the only one here right now. Everyone here takes their lunch and dinner breaks at weird times so that they're here when it's lunch and dinner for every one else. I'll show you around."

"Thanks," I say following him into the back.

"I'm Tanner, by the way," he introduces himself.

"Well that explains it," I say

"That explains what?"

"You were Candor," I laugh to myself.

"And what is funny about that?"

"My best friend was a Candor. I just should have seen it to begin with."

He laughs as he takes me all through the kitchen and shows me all of the different appliances and utensils that are used when preparing meals. He shows me the cookbooks that have all of the Dauntless recipes in it and then he shows me the supply room. It's a huge closet that has floor to ceiling shelves that are covered in all kinds of different canned vegetables, bags of flour, bottles of soda. Abnegation wold probably have had a meltdown if they knew this place existed. He shows me how the computers work and how to deduct points from the members when they come to eat.

I don't know how many hours I've spent here, but I must have been here for quite a few because I'm now helping them make dinner. I just do little things here and there, like add seasoning or hand someone a ladle, but anything that I can do to help makes me feel good. I don't know if that's the Abnegation in me, or if I've just been feeling that useless lately. Maybe it's a combination of both. Once I've done everything that I can to help, I make a plate and go to sit at the usual table.

Everyone shows up one by one, except for Christina, Uriah, Zeke and Tobias.

"Where is everyone?" I ask when Cara and Caleb sit down.

"I haven't seen anyone all day," Cara shrugs.

I eat dinner with them and we stay and talk for a while after everyone else has left. It feels strance to talk to Caleb now, but he's still my brother and I do miss him. After about two hours we decide to call it a night. I'm actually really tired after the day that I've had, so I decide to just go straight back to the apartment. If Tobias is there, I'm just going to ignore him, but I doubt that he'll be there. He'll probably stay the night with Zeke.

I take the quickest way back that I know and I sigh in relief when I finally make it to the door. I unlock the door and step into a completely dark room. Just like I thought, Tobias isn't here. I fumble around for the lightswitch, but I bump into the furniture as I search. When I finally find it, I flip it on only to find that everything in the living room is knocked over. The couch pillows are scattered around the room as well as the blankets and some of Tobias' clothes. I'm too tired to pick it up now, so I chalk it up to one of Tobias' temper tantrums and I make my way to the bedroom. I open the door and close it behind me, flipping on the light switch. I freeze dead in my tracks when I see who is in the room.

Tobias is asleep in the bed, the blanket draped over his waist, his bare chest sticking out. Nita lays beside him, the blanket tucked around her but I can still tell that she doesn't have anything on. I take the lamp that's on the chest of drawers and I drop it on the floor, letting it shatter into a million pieces. Tobias sits straight up and looks at me with glazed eyes. Nita sits up as well, tucking the blanket around her naked body. I spin around on my heels with tears streaming down my face. I run out of the apartment, slamming the door behind me without looking back.