We were walking together along the path hand in hand. I was thinking about Daniel's stupidity. I hated that…and that unknowingly triggered a feeling of hate in my heart for him.

"Today is my birthday…bit it doesn't seem like that…" I spoke.

"Hey…it's okay. I am happy wherever you are. It's your choice, who do you want to be with." I cut him off in between.

"It's not what you are thinking. Besides, you are not the one who has made me feel so horrible today." Now, I turned to face him and I was looking at him sadly. I cupped his face in my hands. His eyes seemed weary at the moment. He had a mesmerized kind of look spread over his face.

"Aspen, you have been my first love. I can't think of surviving without you. I have loved you and I still love you and will love you for the rest of my life. Don't ever bring this thought in your mind. I don't ever want to lose you. You are very precious to me." I spoke and my tears started rolling down my cheeks.

I looked down at the floor and wiped them away and in that moment, he lifted up my face and kissed me. He backed away and noticed my expressions for once and I giggled at his happy face. He kissed me again and went over to kiss my neck. I felt like I was in that tree house again with Aspen, where I used to be before Selection. This was the unique thing in Aspen's love. He always brings my attention from everywhere to him. He is my favorite DISTRACTION…..

"Hey…I need you to tell me that you love me and you are glad to be with me. Tell me that as long as you are with me, you don't require anybody else…just me. Tell me that if we will be together, everything will be alright. Tell me that my life is worth at all. I need to be alive." He looked at me and was breathing fast. I needed him to calm down but he kept his pace. I knew how much he loved me.

I wanted to shout in the dark that how much I loved him and I cared for him. I knew and I could feel that when we were close…the time used to stand still….

"Aspen…I…." I stammered.

"Just listen to your heart and you won't ever make a decision wrong. If you went away from my life…but still a part of me will always be waiting for you." He spoke.

I just can't take my eyes off. I knew that he was on the verge of crying but he controlled somehow. He never showed that he was weak.

"Calm down, Aspen…today I feel like amazing because I am with you. I didn't mean to hurt you and I want to spend this night with you... I just want to place my head on your chest and listen to your HEARTBEAT." I spoke and I did the exact thing.

"I know it's hard to accept but it's the reality…that is to wait for something that you may never get. But it's even hard to give up when it's everything you've ever wanted. " He spoke softly and his words touched my heart.

I turned to face at him and his eyes were full of tears.

"Oh…Aspen, I wish I could turn back the clock and we get back in that tree house all over again and enjoy those nights together." I said miserably.

I was afraid that I was probably going to break his heart in the end. This was really the dumbest thing that I could imagine that we both were in love with each other but still not together.

"Many people have different kind of addictions…mine just happen to be you." He chuckled but I knew that he wasn't happy from inside.

I smiled at him. I never wanted him to go….

"If there ever comes a time when we can't be together…just keep me in your heart and I will stay there FOREVER…." He spoke and I kissed him and hugged him as tightly as I could. I drew him closer by his neck and he did the same. He made me feel really special today….

He went after sometime and I felt very sad for not telling him the truth but I really needed time and as I said to Maxon…I needed sometime to overanalyze the things. When he was going away I felt as if he was going forever and may never come back. At that time, each and every nerve inside my body ached for him….

I went to my room and opened the door. I wondered where Maxon had gone and I thought to meet him when I saw Celeste running with a beautiful dress.

"Celeste…what is this for?" I asked.

"Oh my god..! You have seen my pretty, special dress which I was going to reveal in front of everyone at the time of dance party. You are a dumbass." She spoke.

"But I didn't see anything, I mean not properly... I swear. Don't worry, it's still a surprise." I spoke.

"Whatever…but it's not for you, by the way." She said.

I knew she didn't believe in me and she walked away without answering me and flaring her gown behind me.

I went to my room and opened my door….