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Chapter 18

I was floating in a sea of inky darkness when all of the sudden I was back in the woods in a clearing. There was a snort behind me and I turned to see a large silver wolf. Paul. I was so relieved to see him alive that I reached up throwing my arms around his neck, burying my face into his fur. He rested his huge head on my shoulder when all of the sudden I felt a growl rumble deep in his chest.

I pulled back and he nudged me away hard enough to send me sprawling a couple feet away.

"What the fuck Paul?" I asked confused. He let out a sound that sounded suspiciously like a chuckle. Something flashed across my vision and all of the sudden VIctoria was standing over Paul who lay bleeding from wounds that I couldn't see. She smiled another wicked smile and lunged at me.

The vision changed and now it was night time and when I glanced around I say the russet skin of one of the wolves lying in a heap on the ground. My stomach dropped to the ground and I ran over to him. One of the wolves was hurt. I crouched down by his side and rolled him over onto his back.

I gasped feeling a scream building in my throat as I looked down into the cold lifeless eyes of Paul.

"Why him? Why him?" I sobbed. I pulled him to me," No Paul, you can't leave me. Wake up." I pressed my hand to his cheek finding it cold rather than the usual heat.

"Bella," came Victoria's voice. I didn't care anymore she could kill me I had no reason to live.

"Bella." I stared down at Paul.

"Bella, wake up." A hand clamped down on my shoulder and my eyes snapped open. I was staring up into the worried face of Sam.

"You were crying out," he said reaching down and brushing my hair off my face sympathetically. I sat up taking in my surroundings. I was in Sam and Emily's living room on their couch. Jacob was sitting in front of me flipping through channels on the TV. Jared and Kim were in their own world on the recliner. Seth lay on the ground with Leah next to him acting something out with dramatic hand gestures. I could here Embry and Quil arguing with Emily in the kitchen about something, but I still didn't see the face that I desperately needed to see.

"Where's Paul?" I asked.

All action froze in what seemed like the whole house. Seth stopped mid sentence his hands still in mid air. Jacob stopped changing the channels landing on a cooking show. Kim turned around to face us and even the kitchen fell silent. My throat turned dry.

"Something happened to him didn't it? He's dead," I cried out. Jake reached up to grasp my hand but I yanked it back like it was on fire. I didn't care about the look of hurt on Jacob's face.

"Calm down Bella. He isn't dead," Sam said putting a hand on my shoulder," He's upstairs. He-" I didn't even let him finish his sentence before I was up and racing to the stairs.

"Bella wait," I heard Sam call after me and heard footsteps pursuing me. I was about three yards away when a big bare chest stepped in front of me, grabbing my shoulders. I tried to push past him but he held me still.

"Come on Bella. Let's go talk to Sam," he said like it was a hostage situation," Do not make me carry you." I ignored him only thinking about getting to Paul. Somehow I managed to slip out of his grasp and I raced up the stairs hearing voices calling my name behind me. When I reached the top of the stairs I headed into the guest bedroom.

I froze in the doorway when I looked inside. There lying on the bed looking as pale as I've ever seen him considering he was Quilete. His whole left side was bandaged and he had a cut across his forehead. If it wasn't for the faint rise and fall of his chest I would have thought he was dead.

"Bella," Sam said from behind me," I'm so sorry. I didn't want you to see him like this."

I didn't reply just continued to stare at Paul and what I had done to him.

"He's going to be okay Bella. He'll be all better in a couple of days." That set me off. I spun around to face him. He took a step back in surprise.

"It doesn't matter. Don't you see," I said pointing a finger behind me," I did this to him. It's my fault that he is hurt."

"Oh Bella," he pulled me into a hug," This isn't your fault it is the vampires fault. I wasn't buying it though. If it weren't for me he would be happy right now. I pulled away turning and going down the stairs tripping multiple times. I needed some air so I went out and stood on the porch. I felt someone behind me and turned around to tell Sam off but instead coming face to face with Jacob.

"What do you want?" I asked sounding harsher then I had meant to. Looking at him now reminded me of our short time together and my hand instinctively found the not completely healed scar on my stomach. Despite myself I felt bad about how things had ended.

"Sorry Jake," I apologized.

"Bella," he began," listen I know your with Paul and everything, but I just wanted you to know that I'll wait for you for as long as I have to before you come to your senses."

I couldn't help it I rolled my eyes," That isn't going to happen," putting emphasis on each word.

"I know you think that but-"

"Stop Jake you know that won't happen."

"Fine Bella," he conceded," I just wanted to tell you that I still love you and I know you still love me too."

"Jake-" he cut me off by leaning down. I realized his intentions a moment to late and his lips were on mine. I pushed as hard as I could against his chest, but of course he didn't budge so instead I went stiff and after a few seconds he realized because he pulled away and looked at me. I didn't know what to do I couldn't believe he had kissed me. I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out so instead I turned and stormed into the house. I stood in the doorway of the living room shaking I was so pissed.

"What's wrong Bella?" Kim asked.

"He kissed me," I hissed.

"Come again?" Sam asked standing up from the couch where he was sitting with Emily.

"Jacob kissed me," I gasped out.

"What?" Came the same word out of eleven different mouths. I was bombarded with questions that I couldn't answer.

"What's going on?" Everyone fell silent at the sound of Jacob's voice.

"Bella was just telling us something interesting Jacob," Seth said taking a step forward,"You kissed her?" He said taking another step so that he was standing face to face with Jacob. Jacob stepped back holding his hands in a calming gesture.

"Hey I didn't mean any harm."

"You didn't mean any harm?" I was exasperated," You tried to kiss me while I am dating one of your friends. Why haven't you gotten it through your head? I don't love you anymore not in the way that you want me to. I love Paul in that way."

"Well I'm glad to hear you say it," I spun around to see Paul leaning heavily against the staircase but standing no less. I rushed over throwing my arms around him.

"Ouch. Sweetheart your going to have to loosen your grip I still have a few ribs broken." I immediately retracted my arms and instead gripped his hand. I went up on my tiptoes to peck him on the lips, but instead he reached up tangling his hand in my hair. I pulled away smiling. I looked up into Paul's eyes before he leaned down to kiss me again.

Six months later

"Bella!" Paul yelled from the bottom of the stairs. I looked around at the room that I now shared with Paul. I had moved out of my dad's house about a month ago and now I lived Paul. My dad hadn't been very happy at first but had eventually agreed when he realized Paul and I were serious.

"Come on were going to be late Bella!" He yelled again.

"I'm coming!" I replied looking in the mirror one last time. I wore a long sleeve dress which was one of the few things that fit me with my ever growing stomach. I walked down the stairs carefully so that I wouldn't fall to where Paul was waiting for me.

"You look beautiful babe," he said when I reached him," How are my two favorite girls," he laid a hand on my stomach.

"Were amazing handsome," I said smiling.

"Good because we're going to be late to your own baby shower."

"It's not just mine," I said," It's Emily and Kim's too."

"Yes but you're the only one that matters to me." He replied smirking.

I smacked his chest," That's rude. Now let's go." We turned and walked out of the house.

A/N only the epilogue left. Thank you so much for reading also there will be details for my next story at the end of the next chapter. Please review!