Carlisle
It had been a few hours. Bella felt better now as we all tried out hardest to cheer her up. The only thing that really upset her at this moment was that she wasn't able to attend Renee's funeral. Edward had promised to take a trip to Jacksonville where she would lay to rest after it had calmed down a bit and it was the less sunny months.
Esme finally let me go find Violetta. She hadn't made another appearance. Every so often I would put all my concentration into the air around me to see if I could smell any blood. I did every night when she went to bed in a less than satisfactory mood.
Esme followed behind me as we walked up the staircase.
"Why can't you do anything right? Why couldn't you just be there for Bella? Why did you have to reveal that to Edward and Jasper?" I heard her whispering to herself through tears.
I knocked lightly. "Letty?"
"No." She said weakly.
I looked to Esme, and she nodded. I opened the door slowly and let Esme walk in first in case Violetta was getting changed or something.
I followed behind her and closed the door behind me. Violetta was lying in her bed, completely ruined. She looked like a mess. Mason wanted to come up with us, but Esme told him to stay downstairs. She was right to.
Esme sat down beside her and brushed her hair from her face, "Vi? What's going on?"
She didn't reply, just glanced at me and rolled over, facing the wall opposite us. She was trying to hold her tears back.
Esme looked at me for help.
"Violetta." I addressed, rounding to the side of the bed she was facing. I crouched in front of her and she buried her head into her pillow. "Come on, look at me, baby girl."
She peeked out with one eye. "There's one of your beautiful blue eyes."
She closed it again and put her face back into the pillow.
"Violetta, it's okay to have these days."
"No it's not. Bella is upset, and here I am dying inside" She looked at me with one eye again, "And that was the wrong thing to say."
I couldn't fight the small smile that occupied my lips, "Sweetheart I think Bella had enough people surrounding her. You would have had us here sooner if Esme let me leave the room." I joked.
"She wanted to be alone. I know the feeling." Esme defended, fighting a smile.
"But Vi, you need to tell me what's going on it your pretty head." I found it works a lot better when you compliment them as you talk to them. It always worked with Esme, and it seemed to change Violetta.
"War." She said coldly. "With myself. And sometimes Edward…"
I couldn't help the small laugh escape me. She smiled weakly, finding joy in being able to make me laugh even in her darkest times. "Well, it's not even near the time you go to bed, and you haven't eaten, so you can either come downstairs and have dinner with the wolves, or you can talk to us."
"Is there another option?"
"You can talk to Jasper." Esme said.
Violetta groaned and put her face back into the pillow once again.
"Or Carmen?" Esme offered. She knew that Violetta took a very quick liking to Carmen, and trusted her very quickly. Carmen just sent out that vibe.
She didn't react to Carmen's name, "Would you like me to go get her?"
There was silence for a few seconds before Violetta lifted her head, "Okay but hear me out, what if…I just go to sleep and don't talk about it at all?"
"Not an option." I shook my head.
She groaned again and dropped her head.
"Carmen it is." Esme said, standing up from the bed.
"She'll be here in a second. I love you." I kissed Violetta's head and followed Esme out.
We walked down the staircase.
"Hey, Carmen? Do—"
"Say no more." Carmen cut Esme off, "I heard." She stood up and smiled as she walked passed us and up the staircase.
"Hear me out, what if I don't talk to anyone…" Jasper repeated, "That actually sounded sort of convincing."
"If she was actually looking at me, I probably would have given in to be honest." I sat back down, Esme at my side.
"Where are the girls?" Esme asked.
"In here! We're trying not to burn the house down." Alice called from the kitchen.
"Bella can cook." Esme called back.
"Not for a while…" Bella chimed in.
Esme rolled her eyes and stood up.
This left males in the room.
"So, Carlisle, why did you want to see us today?" Sam asked.
I glanced at Jacob and Renesmee, "Don't leave this to me. You wanted to ask him."
Renesmee rolled her eyes.
"Sam, you know how a few weeks ago you were talking about moving the pack?" Sam nodded. "Well, what if we moved with the Cullen's? Made a second res?" Jacob finished.
"What would we do about Billy and Sue? Claire's parents?" He asked.
"We're all close to Claire. Her parents are always on the Makah reservation anyway. She pretty much lives with you and Emily. Sue and Billy are happy with Charlie; we never see them often anyway."
"Grandma and Rose would be more than happy to have Claire around, too." Renesmee added.
I heard Tanya yell at Kate in the kitchen. Something about getting something on her. They were all laughing. Leah walked back out.
"Leah!" Rosalie called, as if asking her for help.
"You got yourself into that mess!" She yelled back, sitting down beside Seth.
"So, you guys have to move?" Paul asked.
I nodded, "I'm supposed to be 23 years older than I look. People are starting to get very suspicious, and the kids haven't changed a bit since high school. We've left it longer than normal for Ness, Jake, Seth and Leah's sake."
Jared glanced at Seth and Leah, "You got a mention." He smirked.
"Jealous?"
"That I don't live with vampires? Not one bit." He said.
"Was that a pun?" Garrett asked.
Everyone laughed as they realised the unintended joke.
"I don't think we'll be able to stretch our stay even another year."
"Well Carlisle, we could all just never go out in public, and we could just do your make up before every shift to make you look older…" Alice smirked from the archway into the kitchen.
"No thank you." I declined.
"Where will you be moving to?" Quil asked.
"We've got two places in mind. Denali, Alaska, so we'd be closer to them." I motioned towards Eleazar and Garrett, "Or Minnesota."
"How far are they from here?" Embry asked.
"Denali is just under 2 days by car, about a day by foot. Minnesota is just over a day by car, half a day by foot."
"How far is Denali from Minnesota?" Seth asked.
"A bit over 2 days, 1 and a half by foot I think."
"Considering we always stay at either place for a week at the least, it's not far." Eleazar said.
"Wouldn't it be easier for you to work in Minnesota, rather than Denali?"
"Much easier." I nodded.
"Well, we can talk to Billy and Sue about it. Emily, Rachel and Kim. Claire's parents." Sam nodded.
"Great." Renesmee smiled.
"Please remember that they are doing this for you, Renesmee." Edward said.
"Jacob, Leah, Seth, Mason and Violetta too." She said.
"Yes, but don't forget that it will be hard for them to leave home if they do decide to come with us."
"They can stay here if they want. I will just go visit you guys sometimes."
"I like how you're just assuming we'll let you stay here away from us." Bella called from the kitchen.
"It's not your decision, I'm an adult." She called to her.
"We'll see how it all pans out." Edward said to her.
"Shit! The game is on tonight, and it already started!" Emmett stressed, turning the TV on quickly. All of the guys except for Eleazar and I took an interest to the game. We stood up and walked into the kitchen, sitting down at the dining table joining it.
A while passed and the guys were yelling at the TV. Dinner was served as soon as the game was over, and the wolves sat down around the table.
I walked up the staircase and knocked quietly on Violetta's door. "Yeah." She said quietly.
I opened the door and looked in. She was sitting out of bed at Carmen's side.
"Dinner is served if you're hungry."
"Thanks." She said. I nodded and walked back out, closing the door.
I walked back down the staircase, and she walked down a minute later, walking into the kitchen.
Carmen sat down and sighed, "She hasn't had a very good week. On top of just being in the hospital, she's been in a rather dark place."
I glanced at Edward and Jasper.
"Don't look at us. She hid it well; we had no idea until today." Edward said to me.
"Anything that we need to know about?" Esme asked.
Carmen hesitated and looked towards the kitchen. She didn't want to say anything that the wolves would hear, so she got her phone out and started typing.
A minute later, Esme's and my phones received the message.
"She hates who she is. All of her. There isn't a thing she likes about herself. She doesn't like it here, I don't mean Forks, I mean the Earth. In this world. She feels like she doesn't fit in anywhere and she always gets along better with people older than her. She was holding a razor in that bathroom earlier, but decided against it after the reactions last time. She stood protectively in front of her draws when I was near them. When I asked, she said it was nothing but I shouldn't look. I would suggest you do."
"I feel guilty for revealing that much, but you're never going to be able to help her if she doesn't tell you." Carmen said, "She doesn't want either or you to think of her as a burden, or you, Jasper."
I handed my phone to Jasper as he through it. Esme stood up, "Don't let her know I'm up there." She whispered to me.
She disappeared up the staircase quickly and silently.
"I hate doing this to her." I said quietly.
"It's for her own good, though. Or, I assume it is." Rosalie said.
I nodded, "Yeah."
Esme appeared on top of the staircase with the most worried expression I have seen in a while. It was like the first time when she saw Violetta on the ground and yelled at me to take her to the hospital.
"What is it?" I stood up.
She held up several small bottles. I flashed to her side, taking them from her hand. There were 5 pill bottles, all full with very strong drugs.
"She must have swiped them from the hospital." I said quietly.
"Not your office or bag?" Esme asked.
I shook my head, "These are strictly for hospital use only, they're the strongest of the strongest that we can get our hands on in Forks. She took all of these at once…and well...my guess is it wouldn't go down so well…" I said with an upset tone.
"You guess?" Tanya asked.
"We don't know the exact effects of human drugs on her or Renesmee. Their bodies work the same, and completely different. They react differently. But this is too strong to go unharmed."
Esme took in an unsteady breath. She turned and walked into our bedroom. She closed the door behind her. It was too much for her to take, having been in this position before, she knew what it felt like to hate yourself to the point where you would rather kill yourself than be alive.
'Hey, do you—" Violetta started but stopped when she saw me at the top of the stairs, holding the bottles. She took a deep breath and took a step forwards, "Dad, I can explain."
"Oh, I really don't think you can." I said quietly.
Mason walked out to her and followed her gaze, looking at me. He saw the bottles too. "What are those?" He asked.
"Violetta?"
"They're nothing. Go and eat."
"Are they—"
"Mason. Go." She cut him off and talked sternly. He looked at me and then Edward before he turned and walked back into the kitchen.
"Can we please just drop it until the wolves are gone?" She asked.
"Fine. Go and eat."
"Thank you." She said quieter as she turned around.
I put the pills in a hidden place in my office where she wouldn't find them and went into my room. Esme was lying on the bed.
"Esme?"