Things Were All Good (Yesterday)

by PenofaPhoenix

Through a series of letters to Remus, 16-year-old Teddy Lupin accounts Andromeda's slow deterioration into the clutches of Alzheimer's disease. / It's hard to watch someone you love slowly slip away, but when she's all you have left? It's unbearable. {My entry for the Harry Potter MHealth Fest on LiveJournal.}

17. XVI December 21

XVI. December 21

Dear Dad,

She's gone…

And it's all my fault.

I was supposed to be home this weekend, but I decided to stay in Hogsmeade to get Christmas gifts for everyone. And now I won't be able to give Gran her gift. Ever.

It was a stroke, according to the doctors. At least it wasn't aspiration pneumonia, right? That's more prolonged…. It was most likely from the clinical trial – it's all my fault. I remember letting you know about the strokes that were happening because of the new drug, and it just so happened that Gran got the active treatment.

Its.

All.

My.

Fault.

I don't know how to move forward from there – I still have exams and interviews and graduation to go through and more… I suppose we'll see what happens from here, then. Forgive any inadvertent crying.

Love always, Teddy