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"Mr. Solo, can you help me?" I reached out a hand to the pilot. He didn't seem to hear me so I walked over to him. He sat in a squat on the kitchen floor. Passing by a mirror I looked to be about 7, the full colour in my bluish skin was showing. Ms. Organs was nowhere to be found. Maybe she was with Ben. I called out Han's name again and I saw his head turn slightly.
He mumbled something I could not understand. "Mr. Solo I can't hear you." I reached out and grabbed his shoulder. He fell backwards and so did a bunch of dead children. They toppled on top of him as if a machine was dumping them. It was the younglings. Some had no arms, one looked directly at me. His eyes were white and a long laceration covered half his face. Han talked.
"You killed all of them." Blood began to overflow from his mouth and nose. With every word blood spurted in every direction, some hitting me. "You killed all the younglings. You are more like Vader than you realize."
The door to outside opened and I turned to see who it was. "You made my baby Ben turn to the dark side. You are the one who is the traitor, not Ben." Leia Organa stood in the door way, a giant hole punched out were her heart should have been. I shook my head and tied to protest but the heartless woman pulled out her blaster and pointed it at me. I felt a hand grab mine. Looking down, Hans face was morphing into someone else's. He was now Ben turned Kylo Ren.
He had his signature Kylo hair, long and black. The only difference was a giant red scar diagonally covering his face. His voice was raspy and blood trickled from the corners of his mouth. "I am stronger. You will not defeat me." I tried to talk but a hole was blasted through my stomach. Leia was behind me. She whispered in my ear.
"I could never love a tailhead like you."
I shot up to a sitting position and was greeting with a dark room. My dark room. I rubbed my head and whipped whatever tears I had shed during that crazy dream. 'Ten years.' I thought to myself. I swung my legs off the side of the bed. 'Ten years since I defected and I'm still having these fucking nightmares.' I stood up and did my morning stretches. From a down position I could see the door that connected my room to Kylo's room. On days we talk serious, as in about what happened and if we discuss personal things, I still call him Ben and he still calls me Taw'wave. In front of out troops and the General we are Kylo Ren and General Halla Ren. When I joined the Knights of Ren I had to take their traditional second name of Ren but I rarely ever use it in a professional setting. It makes me and Kylo sound married. I stuck out my tongue at that idea. I shifted my position with one arm in the air and one on my hip. I could now see my desk with a holo pad, my large tablet display and my light saber. I still owned my light side one because I had not yet meditated on my own kyber crystal. The day before I was informed by Snoke that my crystal was ready. I planned on meditating on it for a long time like Darth Maul did with his. Kylo took only a couple hours on his. Probably why his cracked. Not enough love in his crystal, if that's possible on the Dark Side.
I stood up straight and used the force to crack my back. I walked to my closet and pulled out the same outfit I wear everywhere, black crop top with black shorts. Black tights and the signature dark side cape. I strapped on my headpiece that I pulled off of a dead Twi'lek in the Western Reaches and attached my saber to my belt. I was tying my boots when Kylo came barging in. His helmet hid any emotion he was showing but his shoulders were shaking a bit and his hand was on his saber, his stupid cracked saber. I wanted to make a smart remark but he spoke first.
"Halla. Snoke wishes to speak to you. I'm here to escort you." Two troopers walked in behind him and stood at attention. He stepped closer to me and whipped a tear I missed. "Bad dream again?" If we were alone I'd have told him the truth, but with the troopers there I had to remain hard and distant. He knew this but he pushes the limits of the chain of command all the time.
I brushed his hand away. "Sith don't cry, Kylo. Thought I wouldn't know it from all the baby sniffles coming from your room. Miss your mommy and daddy?" I was met with a red saber inches from my face but I didn't flinch. He'd done this a million times before and after a while you get used to it. I could feel my eyelashes burn slightly but I still didn't move a muscle. I stared into the eyes of his helmet and out my hands on my hips. "Please don't wreck anything. I just finished renovating from your last tantrum." I walked around him and waved goodbye. The troopers followed behind me. I could hear my desk break in two and hoped he missed the tablet.
The troopers left me outside the large comm room used just for conferences with Supreme Leader Snoke. I stood with my hands behind my back and called out, "Supreme Leader, i was told you have information for me." A giant blue figure appeared on the already giant stone chair. Snoke did not speak. He sat there and looked at me for a long time. I wanted to say something else but that's not how this works. My first conference at Starkiller Base I was punished by General Hux for talking out of line. Even though we hold the same rank now he still treats me as a child. Supreme Leader finally spoke.
"Halla, today you will gain your Dark Side crystal. Meditate on it and pervade it with the energy of the Dark side." I nodded and he cut the connection. I walked out and dismissed the troopers. I made my way to the main control room and was greeted by Captain Phasma. Every time I saw her my heart skipped a beat and if she talked to me I began to sweat which is noticeable on blue-green skin. I nodded hello and made a beeline for General Hux. I patted him on the back.
"What do you want, Halla?" Hux hissed without turned to face me. I chuckled.
"Is that how you greet your fellow general? FELLOW general, Hux. Don't be such a sour face. It will get stuck like that." He turned to face me with a disgusted look and I couldn't help but laugh a little. "Don't you have something for me?" Hux sighed and handed me a small black box. I could hear a couple "what?" from the troopers.
"Don't worry fellow Dark Siders, Hux is not proposing" his shoulders stiffened at that and I heard him snort out a "as if." I opened the box and in it sat a red crystal. It had an oblong shape with a point on each side. Hux also handed me a saber hilt. It felt every light weight. I thanked him and made my way for the door.
"Not so fast, Halla. We still have work to do. Being a General and all you can take my post while I go for a smoke break." I huffed out a rough sigh and took my place at his side again. He smirked, handed me his telecommunicater and made a bee line for the door.
"THAT SHIT WILL KILL YOU YA KNOW!" I shouted to his back. He didn't even look back. Hux seems to be the only one I really can't get a good reaction out of. Phasma Stood next to me. She asked me what her orders were for today. I had to restrain myself and not say something sexual. "Well, Phasma, how about you start off with leaving me alone and dealing with your troops? Go train them or something." I could tell she smiled under her helmet and left the comm room. I could hear her call out to two troopers in the hall. Hux came back half an hour later, the stink of cigarettes on his breath.
I took me leave and headed for my room. When I entered I saw a new desk had been brought in and all my stuff was back in its original place. I took off my saber from my belt and set it on the new desk. I could feel the red kyber crystal humming in my pocket. I sat on the floor and opened the box, set it down and placed the empty saber hilt next to it. I had never meditated on a crystal before so I had to figure it out on my own. I heard Kylo's door slam shut and his saber come alive.
'Or I could guilt little Ben into helping me.' I stood up and knocked on the door connecting our rooms. Kylo didn't answer and proceeded to smash things. I opened it slightly and peeked in. A chair narrowly missed my face. Kylo turned to me, his mask meeting my eyes, and gasped a little.
"Ah, sorry. I didn't mean to hit you." I made a raspberry at him.
"You can't hurt me, Kylo. I came to ask…for your help." I decided against guilting him into anything. He may be an idiot but he's my idiot brother. "I just received my kyber crystal from Hux and Snoke. I wanted to ask you to show me how to meditate on it. They didn't teach us that back with the Resistance." Kylo stiffened at the word "resistance." I took a step towards him. "Is this a bad time?"
He shook his head and removed his helmet. "No," he sighed in his normal voice. "Just lock all the doors." He walked past me and sat on the other side of my new crystal and hilt. I locked the doors and sat in front of him, putting the crystal between us. "Now," he stated. "What do you know about the crystals?"
"What, now you're my teacher?"
He stared at me blankly and asked again. "What do you know about our kyber crystals?"
"Well, I do know they are synthetic, man-made. Not like the ones Jedi used. And I know they meditate on their crystal like we do. Do I just pick it up and think evil thoughts?" I reached for the crystal and Kylo grabbed my wrist. He had a look in his eyes I had not seen for…oh five minutes.
"Never touch the crystals with your bare hands. Either use the force to levitated them or use gloves." He made it rise up with a movement of his hand. I passed it to me using the force and let it levitate in front of my face. "When you meditated on this crystal, you can think evil thoughts but that won't make it as powerful."
"It will just crack it like yours did." His lip stiffened at that comment.
"Sometimes that happens. Use the force to levitate it between both your hands and imagine your energy flowing through it. Think back to your past, what you wish to become, how you came to be who you are today. When meditating on this crystal, you are Halla, not Taw'wave."
I closed my eyes and thought, 'I am Halla, not Taw'wave.' Feeling my energy mix with the crystal's I raised my other hand and air held the stone with my force. My arms began to burn and I could feel pins and needled throughout my body. A tear fell from my eye and Kylo again wiped it away. I wanted to bat his hand away for the second time today but I couldn't release my hold on the crystal. Kylo stood up and turned off the light. Through my eyelids I could see a red light emanating from where my hands were.
I thought back to the Solo's taking care of me. The burning sensation started to recede. I thought about young Ben and me playing with sticks as if they were sabers. Master Luke giving me my own lightsaber when I turned 8. Training with the other younglings. The burning stopped and I could feel nothing but a warmth. I could hear Kylo whisper in my ear, "Think of how they hurt you. They never loved you as their own." Then the burning started again but even worse.
I thought of General Organa finding me as a baby in my dead father's arms. I thought of Skywalker telling me to leave the training area until I agreed to help him train the younglings. I thought of the resistance fighters murdering my whole village, gunning down my parents. I thought of killing the younglings who would have one day grown up to be nothing but Resistance fighters, massacring more villages and leaving more babies motherless. I thought of General Organa in my dream calling me a tailhead. My arms burned so hot I thought them to be on fire. I wanted to scream and yell out for help but my voice didn't work. Then my mind went black, my arms still burning. It felt like years until I opened my eyes. My hands had a tingling sensation but the burning was gone. I took apart the empty hilt and placed the crystal in the setting. It force put it back together and suddenly the saber was heavy, slightly heavier than the one I already had. I was still sitting on the floor but the light was turned back on. Two troopers stood next to my door. It was open.
"How long have you been there?" I asked them abruptly, causing them to jump a little.
"Um…we've been here for a couple hours, Ma'am."
"And how long have I been here?"
The second one spoke this time. "You have been here a little over ten years, Ma'am." I force choked him and threw him down the hall. I raised my hand to the other one.
"How long have I been in my room, trooper. Think about your words." The stromtrooper swallowed and raised his hands.
"Yo-you've been sitting there on the floor for almost a week, Ma'am. We have been switching shifts with another pair of troopers every five hours." I lowered my hand and sat on my bed, new saber in hand. A week? What the hell have I missed?
"Gather the other troopers who watched me. I will meet you in Comm Room 4. I give you two hours." The trooper scampered away. I could hear him dragging his thrown partner. I placed my new saber next to the older one. They looked so different despite having similar hilts. I picked up both and held one in each hand. They felt about the same weight but the synthetic crystal saber had a slight vibration to it. Dirty thought came to mind.
"Hey, you're back." A voice said from my open door. I spun around, new saber alive and was greeted by Captain Phasma.I lowered the saber and sheathed the blade. I sat on the bed again. She walked in, hand still on her gun and sat in a chair across from me. "How are you feeling?" Phasma was the only one besides Kylo I could talk normally to.
"I feel…I don't know how I feel. I feel weak, like I was run over by a million tawntawns. I remembered all the bad things that got me here, Phasma. Killing those kids, turning on the Resistance." I held my head due to a headache that appeared. The Captain got up and headed for the bathroom. She turned on the shower and closed the door. I felt the bed give in a little from her gun and her hands appeared on my shoulders.
"Take a shower, a hot shower, and I guarantee you'll feel somewhat better." I smirked at her.
"Care to join me, Captain?" she leaned down, her helmet inches away from my face.
"And if I were to say yes?" she asked in a sultry voice. I gulped and turned light purple from blushing. I stammered, trying to say something but the captain laughed. "I'm messing with you, Halla. Go, take a shower." She sauntered away leaving me in my embarrassed state. The steam from the bathroom started to fill my room adding to my embarrassed look. I shook it off and stripped down to nothing. Two troopers passing by my room saw me and stopped. They found themselves being flung twenty feet before I slammed the door.
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