Title No Rest for the Wicked
Author landofthekwt
Rating T
Prompt Doing Nothing (Inuyasha #22
Genre: The Goals of Dead Career Women
Word Count 680
Warning None
Summary Kikyou realizes that she cannot stay in the Temple after the Illusory Death
She had told Naraku that if he wanted to find her, she would be at the temple. The temple was not for her anymore. It was for virginal miko who learned from the masters how to remain pure and true to the kami. Once she had been one of them, but not anymore. She was a golem. A being forged from bones and graveyard soil.
The oni who had created had tried to bend her to her will in order to create the jewel. Kikyou followed no path but her own. .Her first act was to kill her creator. Urasuae thought that she would be grateful for giving her life, but Kikyou had made the decision to die to end the fighting over the Jewel. Inuyasha, Kagome and Urasuae brought her back to life to face the same fight that she had
Urasuae had been the first to wrath, but the anger her soul felt when she died spilled out against Inuyasha, her would-be betrayer. His betrayal ran deeper since she has dared hope for a husband and a family. A life beyond the fighting to protect the Jewel. All that had been dashed by his betrayal. She had hoped that he would choose to die with her. Instead he chose to live with his reincarnation. The betrayal was complete and she knew that she could never be with him again.
Her instinct to play with the children and heal the wounded followed her wherever she went. Even though she was dead, she seemed compelled to perform these acts of kindness. She found it ironic that although she was driven to help children and the wounded she had no qualms about using the souls of dead girls to her own ends, had left Inuyasha to his fate in the Kodakhu and the Illusionary Death and actually tried to kill Kagome. .
For some reason what she had done and what she would need to kill Naraku did not bother her the way that it would have when she was a pure miko and the guardian of the sacred jewel. Her purpose in finding Naraku had been to discover his nature and determine the best method of killing him. The sooner she finished the task that the better. Then she could rest again. For the moment she needed to concentrate on getting Naraku the Jewel so that she could purify him and Jewel.
She would do anything that needed to be done to complete her task. If that meant killing Kagome or using the souls of dead girls to move she would do it. If it meant that Naraku would become more powerful because of his possession of the Jewel, so be it. There was only one route to victory and no one not even Inuyasha would stand in her way. She did not have time to save him. He would have to save himself from Naraku.
The soldiers in the camp saw her as angel of mercy. Little did they know that she was actually a monster more vicious and deadly than any they had ever seen. She would not disabuse them. They only saw the miko devoting her life to heal them. For the moment she could pretend to be the woman she once had been. It filled in the time and allowed her function in society until she completed her task.
She had lost her humanity when she died. All she had left was a drive to complete the task that she thought she had completed when she took the Jewel from the World. Kagome had brought her soul and the Jewel back to this world where they had fought before. She had wanted to find peace in death. Now she could only rest when the Jewel was gone from the world. Then she could sleep forever.