Ok so I had to re-write chapter 3 and 4 so yeah -.- Thank you to the person who offended me….I'm sorry you don't like Amu however that is how people around my area are like, girls round here just see sex as sex…..sex is different from making love so yeah! Doesn't mean she's a slut so just to satisfy the person who 'commented' on my ooc Amu I will let you know why Amu is the way she is! I was going to wait till a later chapter but just so I don't get anymore 'friendly' criticizing reviews I will explain in this chapter! Thank you to the people who like my writing and chapters I love my fans so much.

Amu's P.O.V

I sat there in silence I was finally thinking sober as I sat on the end of his bed it had only been 3 minutes but it felt like 3 hours in this silence…

"So….what your story….you don't seem like the type to just sleep with anyone" he said glance at me for what seemed like 1 second.

"Why is that so unbelievable ever thought maybe I just felt like having sex!" I snapped.

"No because you don't seem like that person" he said again staring me straight in the eyes then silence fell over us again and I decided to tell him.

"When I was 3….My life was amazing I had the whole 2.4 family life with the white picket fence etc.." I spoke up and hugged my knee's against my chest smiling sadly to myself.

"So what happened?" he asked staring at the floor.

"When I was four I was into my house I had been at the park across the street playing with my friends Tadase and Kukai but when I got back I heard screaming so approached the front room and my father was throwing stuff around then he hit my mum and I ran away crying. As I got older it got worse…..As I reach 7 he began hitting me….every time he smelt like alcohol, he kept getting worse until one day he smack my little sister…she was only 4 at the time and I was 12 when I saw him hit her something I'd never felt for anyone in my life rose in me….I felt hate for the first time in my life I realized I hated him. Not like you'd hate vegetables but pure hate, I attacked him and tried to strangle him….my mother dragged me off him crying for me to stop….I still have dreams about that night it haunts me. My mother finally divorced him and he was taken away to jail but I moved out I couldn't look at my mother anymore she wasn't the woman she used to be she was always depressed and she rarely spoke I had to take care of Ami my little sister until I was 14 then I asked my aunt my mother's sister to take my sister in and she did happily since she can't have children then, I moved out I now live on my own….My mum send me money every month so I can live but I only scrape by…" tears were running down my face as I paused.

"When I moved out I began hanging out with the wrong crowd and for about 1 year I was doing drugs and sleeping around… Kukai couldn't watch it anymore so he stayed with me for a while and eventually my personality died down a little I still have attitude but I don't do drugs and I don't sleep around when I was crying one night Kukai and I ended up sleeping together but it wasn't just sex….it was making love….no we don't love each other but al through he was kissing my tears away and tell me he still cared. Every now and then when I have nightmares he stays with me and when things get really bad and I need comforting he's there for me. I know I shouldn't sleeping with him if I don't love him but when we do it makes me feel like everything is going to be ok and if it wasn't for Kukai I would still be at the bottom of a ditch taking drugs….he's not a booty call that's a joke between us Kukai is the only man I have been with that has mattered we have a very mature relationship and understanding of each other's feelings it's not just sex…..it's us."

I look up to see Ikuto staring at me with wide eyes when I went to run out the room he stood up and pulled me into a hug.

"I'm so sorry Amu I had no idea you had been through so much" I couldn't help but cling to him and cry. Just then Kukai burst in.

" Hey guys times u-" he yelled then stopped I turn with tears still streaming and Kukai glared at Ikuto and gritted his teeth.

"What did you do to her!?" he snapped.

"Nothing she was ju-" he didn't get a chance to finish because Kukai started yelling again.

"Just what!?"

"Kukai c-calm down we just got onto the t-topic of my past and it just brought back memories he w-was only comforting me" I stuttered letting more tears out collapsing on the floor crying hysterically.

"Amu" He said sadly coming over to me and pick me up bridal style as I curled into his chest crying.

"Can you send everyone sober home and anyone who is drunk show them to the guest room." Was all he said then left walking into his room closing the door behind us he laid me on his bed striped to his boxers and got into bed with me pulling me against his chest.

"Amu, you know I'm here for you whenever you need me. Amu I'm indebted to you for the remainder of the life you saved." He said calmly kissing my cheek gently I glanced up at him and he wiped my tears.

"Kukai?"

"What?" he asked tucking a few strands of hair behind my ear.

"What are we?" I asked gazing up at him.

"We're lovers we come to each other when one of us needs to be comforted. When we're sad we need someone to show us that we're not alone it's just the way we are other people don't need to understand as long as we do." He explained stroking my hair gently.

"Thank you Kukai for being there for me when I need something to cling onto" I said sleepily as I drifted off.

***Dream***

I sat in my room reading a book when I heard mum and dad yelling again. I wandered downstairs and walked towards the kitchen when I saw my dad slap my little sister and she slid across the floor and started crying curled in a ball my mother ran over to her hugging her tightly crying my faced went from shocked to angry and charged at my father who was about to throw another plate and tackled him to the floor I was driven by nothing but hate and anger I wrapped my hands around his neck squeazing for dear life.

"AMU! STOP! YOU'RE GOING TO KILL HIM!" my mother screamed while trying to drag me off him.

***End of dream***

I woke up breathing heavily and sweating I got out of Kukai's arms and walked down stairs I grabbed Daisuke's cigarettes and took one outside. I rarely smoked I only did when I was stressed or upset. I never smoked more than one but it was my way of releasing the anger I felt from that dream.

"Amu?" I heard a deep voice say behind me as I sat on the steps leading from the back door outside it was about 5 in the morning and it was starting to get light.

"It's pretty isn't it?" I said smiling.

"What's wrong?" he asked sitting next to me on the step as I blew out some smoke.

"I had a bad dream." Was all I said.

"Why didn't you wake Kukai up?" he asked looking at me seriously.

"Because I can't always rely on Kukai" I said smiling.

"I see well you can talk to me whenever you need to I live here too." He said smiling as I put out the cigarette.

"Thank you Ikuto I think I'm going to go back to sleep thanks for the talk." I said walking back into the house and up the stairs. I walked into Kukai's room and saw him taking up the whole double bed and I glared at him. He was such a guy his head was on his pillow put he was spread across my side. He had one hand in his boxers and the other hanging off the bed I couldn't help but laugh. I tapped him on the arm gently he began to stir and looked up at me and moved over smiling pulling me back into his chest I fell back asleep and cuddled into him.

Ok so that's that I know its super long but that's why Amu is the way she is. Simple. Don't like it don't read it.

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