John woke up entangled with Blair and Tea. He didn't want to get out of bed, but he was hungry. He slowly climbed out of bed and headed to the kitchen. He grabbed the bananna's off the counter and the cucumbers out of the fridge and he headed up the stairs as he thought up a kinky way that he could enjoy his breakfast even more.

When he opened the door he saw Tea and Blair fondling one another as they kissed.

"Hey, wait for me," he said as he climbed on the bed.

"What do you have there?" Blair asked.

"A snack...lay down and open up wide," John said as he grabbed the banana and unpeeled it. Once Blair was laying down, John pushed the banana in and out of her as she squealed with delight.

"What about me?" Tea asked with jealousy flashing in her eyes.

"Don't worry, I brought something for you as well. Lay down and I'll pleasure you both at the same time," John said as he grabbed the cucumber with his other hand and inserted it in and out of Tea.

After they both had reached ecstasy, John pulled the banana and Cucumber out of them and they all three enjoyed their morning snack.

XOXOXO

The next morning Marty felt a peace that she hadn't felt in a long time as she woke up in Todd's arms. He looked so beautiful as he slept next to her and she felt overwhelmed by her feelings for him and before she knew it she was kissing him.

Todd stared at Marty with wonderment as he opened up his eyes and wondered if he was still dreaming as her tongue rubbed up against his own.

"Marty?" He whispered as their passionate kiss ended and he realized that it hadn't been a dream. "Are you okay? What was that?"

"I don't want to talk I just want to feel," Marty said as she kissed him again.

"Sorry to interrupt, but I think that we have a lot to discuss," Doctor Ray Martinez said as he cleared his throat.

"Yeah..." Todd said as he pulled away from Marty. "I'll leave you two alone. I'm going for a walk to clear my head," Todd said as he stared into Marty's eyes for some kind of answer to all of the questions, doubts, and fears that was bombarding him.

"Todd, don't go far...I would like to talk to you after my session with Marty," Doctor Ray Martinez said as Todd headed out the door.

"So Marty...I see that you and Todd have grown closer. How do you feel about him? Do you love him?" Ray asked.

XOXOXO

"Todd, what are you doing here so early?" Vicki asked as she opened the door.

"I really need to talk to you. I don't know what to do...it looks like I've gotten the one thing that I've ever really wanted, but I'm scared shitless and I don't what I should do?" Todd ranted as he paced around the living room.

"Todd, slow down, take a deep breath and tell me calmly and rationally what this is all about," Vicki said as she poured them both a cup of tea.

"It's about Marty...she kissed me this morning," Todd admitted as he grabbed the cup of tea from his sister.

"Marty...I thought this might have something to do with her. I heard that the two of you got married, so I take it that the marriage is turning out to be more real than you ever imagined it would," Vicki stated.

"I love her Vicki...I always have and I probably always will, I want a real marriage with her. I've always wanted her to love me too, but it's to good to be true. It's a fantasy that will eventually come crashing down."

"What if it's not a fantasy? Would it really be all that bad if you and Marty found love and forgiveness after all these years? Vicki asked.

"The problem is that I don't deserve her. I'm not the kind of man that she deserves. I hurt her Vicki and I can't ever take that back. I destroyed her life so my punishment should be what it's always been, to watch her with others, knowing that I can never have her. I should just leave Llanview and leave Marty before I hurt her again."

"You've changed and Marty knows that you have changed otherwise she wouldn't have married you and she most certainly wouldn't have kissed you."

"What if I haven't changed? What if that monster still exists inside of me?"

"He doesn't...he hasn't existed in you for a very long time. I believe in you and Marty believes in you and I think it's time that you believe in yourself."

"What should I do Vicki?"

"I think that you need to talk to Marty and follow your heart."

"I know...I better get going, I promised Marty I'd bring her breakfast. Thanks for listening to me."

"Anytime," Vicki replied as she showed him out the door.

XOXOXO

"Do you love him?" Ray repeated when Marty didn't answer him.

"Yes...no...I don't know," Marty stated.

"We need to talk about what he did to you," Ray stated.

"Todd didn't do anything to me," Marty said as she turned her head to look out the window.

"Yes he did...he hurt you, he raped you." Ray stated.

"I don't know what you're talking about. Todd would never rape me, he saved me," Marty said as tears fell down her cheeks.

"Yes he did, but he also hurt you. I think that you've chosen to block it out because you're traumatized by being raped again. I think that you've blocked out every bad thing that Todd has ever done to you so that you don't have to deal with the fact that you've fallen in love with a man that violated you in the worst possible way."

"I don't want to hear any more of this. I don't know why you're lying to me, but I know the truth."

"Then what happened the night of the Spring Fling?" Ray encouraged, hoping that he could break through her delusions.

"Nothing happened...I didn't go to that stupid party and I don't want to hear any more of your vicious lies about Todd," Marty said as she placed her hands over her ears and began to hum loudly.

"What's going on?" Todd asked as he entered the room.

"Todd I need to speak to you out in the hall now," Ray said as he stood up and walked out into the hallway.

"What is it Ray? Is this about the kiss that you walked in on?" Todd asked as Ray shut the door to Marty's room.

"Yeah it's about that dam kiss. She's sick Todd and she doesn't need you taking advantage of her."

"I wasn't...I would never take advantage of her. She kissed me...I just kissed her back," Todd explained.

"Do you love her?" Ray asked.

"You know that I do."

"Then stop this fantasy that the two of you have been living in and tell her that you raped her the night of the Spring Fling."

"Marty knows what happened the night of the Spring Fling."

"No, she's blocked it out and has refused to talk about that night with me. She's adamant that you never raped her," Ray explained.

XOXOXO

"Marty's adamant that you never raped her. She insists that she never went to the Spring Fling Party at all," Ray explained.

"What? She has to remember what I did to her."

"I think that deep down inside she does, but she's choosing to block it out because the fact that she has fallen in love with somebody who has hurt her...it's just to much for her to deal with."

"What should I do?" Todd asked.

"You need to tell her Todd. She's not going to listen to me, but she may listen to you."

"I don't know if I can hurt her again by forcing memories of that night on her," Todd stated.

"You have to...the longer she lives in denial the more she's going to hurt when the truth comes out, and the truth always comes out Todd. If you love her the way that I think you do, then you'll tell her before her feelings for you grow any deeper," Ray stated then he took off leaving Todd alone with his thoughts.

XOXOXO

"What were you and Ray talking about for so long?" Marty asked as Todd drove her home.

"It was nothing really, he's just concerned about you."

"Well he doesn't have to be...I'm happier than I've been in a long time and it's all because of you."

"That's great Marty," Todd stated as he smiled at her. He couldn't do it...he just couldn't hurt her when she was so happy.

Todd grabbed Marty's hand and helped her out of the car. He escorted her upstairs.

"You look tired, maybe you should take a nap," Todd suggested.

"I'd much rather spend time with you," Marty said as she leaned into him and kissed him.

"Marty? What are we doing?" Todd whispered as the kiss faded.

"I love you Todd. You saved me and you've helped me so much these past few weeks. I want to show you how much I love you, I want to make love to you," Marty said as she kissed him again.

XOXOXO

Todd felt so torn as he kissed Marty. Being with her was his greatest desire, but he also was so afraid that if he didn't tell her the truth then he would hurt her all over again.

"Marty, we need to talk," Todd stated as he pulled away from the kiss.

"What's wrong Todd? Don't you want to make love to me?" Marty asked.

"I do more than anything, but it wouldn't be right until you remember what happened between us the night of the Spring Fling," Todd explained.

"Not this again...nothing happened because I didn't go to that stupid party," Marty ranted.

"I'm sorry Marty, I know that the truth hurts but we can't live in denial...that just won't work. You were at that party and I raped you."

"Why? Why are you doing this?" Marty asked.

"Because I lied to you about that night once and when you found out the truth you said that I emotionally raped you and you were right. I didn't mean to hurt you back then but pretending that our past didn't exist was the only way that I thought that we could be together, but that was so wrong of me and I won't hurt you again even if that means that we can never be together."

"What happened the night of the Spring Fling?" Marty asked as she sat on the bed.

"I initially wanted to humiliate you the way that I felt that you had humiliated me. I brought a blow up doll downstairs to the party."

"I remember...I was so angry when I saw you with that stupid doll that we got in a huge fight and I told you that you were lousy in bed."

"Yeah, we both had a lot to drink that night and Kevin took you to his room to sleep it off. I felt angry, humiliated and rejected and I wanted you to know how that felt so I took Zach, and Powell up to the room."

"You all took turns dancing with me and you spun me around in a chair. I was so sick and all I wanted to do was sleep, but you wouldn't let me. You were laughing as I pleaded with you to leave me alone."

"But we didn't leave you alone. I told Powell to lock the door. I pushed you onto the bed. I pinned you down and I raped you. If that wasn't bad enough. I goaded and taunted Zach and Powell into raping you as well while I watched them continue to torture you," Todd explained as he cried.

"Marty, I'm so sorry," Todd stated after minutes of silence.

"You should be," Marty whispered as she slapped Todd as hard as she could.

XOXOXO

"I'm sorry...I shouldn't have done that," Marty whispered as she backed away from Todd.

"It's okay, I deserved that and so much more after the way that I hurt you. I don't blame you for hating me because I hate myself and I would go back and change things if I could."

"I know and you're right...I do hate you, but I also love you. I wish that I didn't...things would be so much easier if I could just hate you, but I don't. These past three weeks you've been so gentle, patient and amazing and I don't think I could have survived without you. I love you, but I don't know if that's enough to override all the pain and anguish that you've caused me over the years. I need time away from you while I figure things out. I'll get my things and go," Marty stated as she wiped the tears from her eyes.

"No, don't go. I'll go...this is your home now and I want you to stay here."

"Where will you go?" Marty asked.

"I'll stay with Vicki for a few weeks. Marty...I love you too and I want you to know that I'm going to spend the rest of my life loving and protecting you whether we're together or not."

Marty sat on the bed and cried as Todd packed a bag with his belongings.

"Take care Marty," Todd whispered as he headed out.