Guilty
A few hours have past and Bobby was still in the Library with Sam. Lexi was getting dinner going but she wanted to find Dean first. She had then knocked on his door.
"Go away." Dean said from behind the door.
"Dean please let me in." Lexi begged her brother.
"Lexi, not right now." Dean told her when he placed his hands over his face.
"Dean- please don't push me away." She was telling her brother.
With that he had opened the door for her to come in. Dean sat backed down on his bed. Lexi was going over by Dean.
"Dean- I am really worried bout ya." She told him softly.
"Look I am fine. I don't wanna talk bout it." He yelled when he told her.
She then got up and ran downstairs. Dean felt bad for yelling at her. When she was running downstairs, she didn't see Sam there. He had then grabbed her which startled her.
"ARGH!" She yelled when she didn't see who it was at first.
"Hey." He said to her when he grabbed her by her arms.
Sam grabbed her and brought her closer and held her.
"Shhhh." He said to her when he could hear her crying.
"Ssam." Lexi said to her brother, when he stopped her.
"Just give him some space." Sam told her when he pulled her away.
When she looked up to Sam, he wiped her tears away.
"Thanks. I need to get dinner going." She said quickly to her brother, when she ran into the kitchen.
Bobby stood there listening what happened. Sam turned and saw Bobby there.
"He's feeling guilty about Jo and Ellen. You know Dean." Sam was saying when he eyed upstairs.
"Yeah I know that idjit brother of yours. Aint nothing to be guilty about." Bobby was saying when Dean was coming down.
"Ok either I'm drunk or I'm dead." Dean said when he saw Bobby standing in the middle of the room.
"No you're not dead. Bobby told Dean. Dean was then getting a drink.
Dean was very quiet after that. He sat down while Sam was telling him about the research and what happened in that building of what they saw.
"Dean you do know that you are NOT to be blame for what's happened to Jo and Ellen." Bobby was explaining to Dean.
"Bobby, I should of stopped them but I didn't. Heck I should of NOT let EVEN my sister be in there. She was almost killed for sure I don't know what I would of done." Dean said in an angry tone, when he was pointing into the air while he was talking.
"Dean look, we understand but feeling guilty is not the way to be." Sam told his brother.
"Hey guys." Lexi softly told them when she was coming into the room.
"Yeah." Bobby and Sam said in unison to her.
"Dinner is ready." She said heading back to the kitchen.
They were coming to sit. Sam went over to her.
"Ya need help?" He asked her.
"If you don't mind putting this on the table, careful its hot." She told her brother when she gave him a smile.
They were all sitting around the table. Lexi was very quiet.
"Alexandrea you look tired. You ok?" Bobby was then asking her when he was wondering.
"Yeah I'm fine." She told him when she looked like she was ready to fall asleep.
After dinner was done, the boys were heading back into the Library. Lexi was cleaning up the kitchen. She was so tired that she knew she should try and get some sleep.
"Hey guys. I'm head off to bed." She told them when Sam was coming by her.
"You'll be ok up there?" Sam was asking her quietly when he was then standing in front of her.
"I'll be fine. You're down here." She told her brother when she gave him a hug .
"Nite kiddo." Bobby said to her when she gave him a sad smile.
"Nite." She told him back. "Night Dean." When she then left quickly before he can answer her.
Dean knew he needed to talk to her. "I'll be back." He told them when he was heading up to her room.
When he got to her room, he knocked on her door. She came and opened the door. She was surprised to see Dean standing there.
"We need to talk, come." He said to her leading her to his room.
When she got to his room, he was making her sit down on her bed.
"Lex- hear me out and just let me finish." He said to her when she nodded to him.
"Fine." She said to him.
"I am sorry for the way I have been acting. There gone because of me." He said to her when she was trying to stop him.
"Dean." She said to her brother.
"Lexi no. You know how I am, about any one in my presence and if they are killed or hurt its on my shoulders. I was told by Dad that I needed to take care of you and Sammy no matter what." He was telling her when she stopped him.
"You are and I love you and Sam for it." She told her brother.
"I love you too. But I just wish they didn't follow us. I feel bad that we lost Adam as well. " Dean was telling his sister.
"Dean all this guilt, its gonna kill you. You're not being fair to yourself. Jo, Ellen's and Adam's death was no way your fault. You are the best brother. Ok well maybe you can be bossy." She told her brother when she chuckled.
"If you weren't a pain in the butt I wouldn't have to be so bossy." He said to her sarcastically, but jokingly to her.
"No really, please Dean I hate seeing you like this." She was telling her brother.
Dean sat there taking in what she was saying.
"You know for a real pain in the butt of sister, you sure no how to make a brother feel good." Dean said to her given her a smile.
"Love you too." She was telling him when she side hugged him.
Dean was then back downstairs with Sam and Bobby.
"Ok so do we know why you are fully back?" Dean was asking Bobby.
"I don't know how long I am back for." Bobby was telling Dean.
"Well there must be a reason why you are." Sam said to Bobby when they all nodded as they agreed.
"Cass just said God wanted him alive." Sam said when they were trying to see what that meant.