Title The Windows to the Soul
Author landofthekwt
Rating K
Prompthe best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched- they must be felt with the heart." by Helen Keller (ib4y2)
Word Count 538
Warning none
Summary Inuyasha ponders Kikyou's soul
There were moments when he caught a glimpse into the soul of Kikyou. The woman he remembered. The first woman he loved. On those occasions he could see through her all the way to her soul.
The old hag could not even see her sister in the creature that Urasue fashioned. She could not see beyond the dirt and bone from which Kikyou's body was fashioned. It hurt Kaede to see Kikyou alive again because it brought back all the pain she felt for all those years.
Inuyasha understood the pain. He felt the hatred Kikyou felt when she thought he betrayed him Worst he felt the anger she felt at being deprived of the life she sacrificed everything to obtain.
Yet it was those glimpses into her soul which revealed to Inuyasha that Kikyou's soul was still there. Like the lost look when Kikyou realized that he cared for Kagome more than her after all she had sacrificed to be with him.
It was those rare moments that Kikyou dropped her mask that he lived for. It was those moments that made him fall in love with her. The vulnerable and lonely woman who was willing to give up everything to live with him as his wife and bear his children.
None of them saw that woman. None of them could see that soul. Kagome should be able to see it, but she was too busy being jealous of the love that Inuyasha still had for the first woman he loved.
He tried to explain to Kagome,but she was not ready to listen. She thought that she was second to Kikyou in his heart. He told her that she made him happy even though he did not deserve to be happy because of what happened to Kikyou.
Kikyou was the worst offender. Her vendetta against Naraku meant that her face was cover with the mask of the miko. When she was guardian of the Sacred Jewel, she told him that she could never show weakness.
Old habits die hard Kikyou returned to them with a vengeance. Once she faced the youkai seeking the Jewel alone. Now she felt she had to face Naraku alone. She spurned his help and his company.
All he could do was cherish his memory of the Kikyou he knew and loved. Others might not see her in that shell, but he did. Someday, the Kikyou he knew and loved would know peace. All her enemies would be gone. She would be able to go to Nirvana at last.
She might not want him to protect her. She might tell him that nothing his sword could never kill Naraku. That only she could expel Naraku from this world.
He had to hope against hope that she was wrong The Kikyou he knew and loved was not perfect She made mistakes. By trusting only in herself she died. That is what made her human Even if she thought was not.
She did not need to get rid of the become an ordinary woman. In his eyes she always was that person. The person that he loved . The person he would die for. The person he would risk everything to protect.