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Day One-Hundred Fifteen: Thinking of You by Katy Perry

I knew I'd probably never be happy when it came to my love life.

I was searching for something better. But there's nothing better when you've already had the best and you just…lost it. You constantly have to compare and realize that they're second best. Even if the one you chose was seemingly the best…you had to find something wrong with them in order to fulfill that need to compare, and subsequently for self-loathing (since you let the first one go in the first place).

I had nowhere to move on. Where was there to go when I had already had heaven on earth? Every place else was just hell.

"There are tons of other guys out there. Are you sure you're alright with settling for me?" he inquired.

I gave him this amused look. Obviously, it was a joke. "Toby—"

"Really, Spencer. How?"

I got very close to his face. I remember that. "Because you are the best. And you're like…a jigsaw puzzle with a thousand pieces. You're so unbelievably frustrating, but…I love the surprise and you're completely worth it," I said against his lips.

His blue eyes were playful. Oh, his blue eyes. I loved them so much. They held so much and spoke so little. I could just stay in his eyes forever and ever.

But I lost him and his eyes. I had to settle for a pair of brown ones when all I wanted were those blue ones. Whenever I was with him…I thought of Toby. When he touched me, I craved his touch. I wanted him to spend the night. I didn't want second best anymore.

The worst was whenever he tried to kiss me. All I could feel was the ghost of Toby's lips on mine. It was horrible. It made me feel disgusted with myself. It made me regret ever letting him go. Now, I learned what happened, but I couldn't erase the past. I couldn't bring him back. But I did want him to know, if he was still listening, that I loved him.

I stared at the door, like I was silently wishing for him to come back. I wanted him to barge in and take me back. No more mistakes.

But I knew that no amount of praying or wishing could ever bring him back. He was gone for good.

LittleBittyAbby: I watch ID all the time. So what did you think of this one?

Sarah:Apparently, I was dehydrated like two days ago because I got this horrible leg cramp and those happen when you're dehydrated, I guess (although I had like 2 bottles of water before going to sleep). It was awful. I could barely walk when I woke up later that night. I'm so glad you liked it! And stop...you're making me blush. Not that you'd know, since you can't see my face. You can't even imagine it since you don't know what it looks like :P

MizzFizzRizz:Happy Birthday! Well...late birthday when you read this! I should've PMed you...I'm sorry. I just have been so busy...it's ridiculous. My friend Santara gave me a koala bear like half the size of my body (which isn't saying much since I'm 61 inches tall) and it remains one of my favourite birthday presents EVER. That's cool, though. Aww! That's adorable! My cousin Melina talks to me about Wicked and school and stuff like that. And she sings. A lot. She's actually not that bad, especially for her age. She's usually pretty good with her pitch, for the most part, which I find impressive, since I couldn't hold a tune when I was her age. I have to wait 2 years to get a junior license, not that I really plan on driving. I don't want a car when I turn 17. I just really don't care about it. I just want my license. Aside from that, I want to go to Columbia or NYU, both in NYC, so there's no point in getting a car if I won't even use it in college. The longest I've stayed up since I was like 9 (because I used to pull all-nighters when I was younger, until I realized how much I love sleeping) was 4 AM. Typically, I go to bed at either 2 AM or 3 AM, depending on when I have to get up. I probably run on like 6 hours of sleep, which isn't healthy, but I feel most creative and happiest at night. I'm just a night owl.

tobyequalshottness: So glad you enjoyed the happiness, because it'll be scarce from now until...probably around 120 or so. Just not a happy block of songs.

Hey! Hey, guys! This was the half-way point of the one-shot collection! I have 115 more to go! Woohoo! That is, unless I decide to cut some out because this is getting long and idk if I'll finish in time...I hope not, though...

The next one-shot is Goodbye by Avril Lavigne and as a tw, it's SAD. Like, very sad. VERY sad. I'm sad thinking about it. 119 is also going to be REALLY sad, but we'll cross that bridge when we get there. -Kayson