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Disclaimer: I do not own the original story or the characters of Sesshomaru, Rin and Jaken. I own Satoru, and all seven of his kids. (Stitch voice) Okay, Okay. I just got an email with the reviews. I am so sorry that I confused everyone! Rin is not pregnant with Sesshomaru's child number three. Yes, Satoru must return to the North to ensure there is a North for his kids to claim, as their birth right. Sesshomaru and Rin alone? Hmm. Lol. Anyway, I re-posted this chapter and fixed it hopefully it will make sense, I a super super super trekkie duper sorry.

A Change

Satoru continued smiling as he came behind me, taking my coat off before putting it gently on the chair beside him. He reached for my hand, I stepped back pulling it to my chest. That small act, in his eyes, I had stabbed him in the back. The mystical blue of his eyes widened as if I had just killed him. That, was nothing to compared to what had happened this morning, if he had seen us, seen me I am certain that would have killed him right there. That was something that I could not tell him. I turned my back to him. What was wrong with me?

(Flashback)

I sat in my room, thinking of how delicious dinner was, as I sewed a blanket together, made of silk with print of cherry blossom a top the bright blue fabric. Cherry blossoms were such a beauty when they bloomed, I couldn't wait for the baby to see them. They were a happy and special flower. Truly the best part of spring. I smiled, humming a tune to a song that my mother sang to me when I was little. It was a song that I would sing to my child, and they would sing it to theirs. I had hope that they would find love. If Lord InuYasha, with his tough exterior, could marry someone as incredible as Kagome. My kind hearted child could too. I would hope that my baby could grow up to be just like InuYasha, as kind hearted. But still strong, and if a boy, as handsome as his father, if a girl, I would hope she would have his hair. Odd request I thought to myself. We would be a great family, all three of us.

"Rin." At the sound of my name, I looked to find Master Jaken standing in my doorway. In his demonic eyes, that usually showed no care towards me, I could feel some sense of sympathy.

Something was wrong. I rose quickly to him, bending over to meet his gaze.

"What's the matter Master Jaken?"

"Lord Sesshomaru wishes to see you."

Was that why? Was something wrong with Lord Sesshomaru? Without another word, my heart pulled me towards where I knew he would be. Late at night, as long as we were in the palace, Lord Sesshomaru would be in his study tending to the official duties of the West as Lord of the Western Lands. It was a time that he usually did not want to be disturbed and I abided by that request, so what was so urgent that he would see me there. What put the look on Master Jaken's face? I knew it was unlikely that Lord Sesshomaru could be hurt, Master Jaken seemed fine. Was it someone from the village? Lord InuYasha, Lady Kagome. Miroku, Sango, Shippo…Kaede? Was everyone alright?

I stopped abruptly at his door, knocking before entering. Regardless of what tragedy had come, Lord Sesshomaru would never forgive me if I did not show him the respect that he had earned. Upon hearing enter; I stepped in the wide room. In the center of the room sat Lord Sesshomaru, combing through papers that covered the whole of his desk. He rose as I stepped in, closing the doors behind me.

"Is everything okay?" I pleaded, praying that all of my friends were alright.

"No." My heart dropped at his tone. In the past months that I had been with Lord Sesshomaru, he had lightness in his tone when he spoke to me, even if he was angry. Now, it had returned to the flat and empty tone he used when he addressed everyone that did not know him, only now, it was darker.

It forced me to take a step back, Lord Sesshomaru mirrored me. Now, his whole body seemed tense.

"Rin..." His voice was cold. "You intend to keep it."

"I do."

"I can not allow that."

"I do not care what you can allow." I snapped. For the first time, I had snapped at Lord Sesshomaru. "This child is as much mine as it is yours, even more so mine because I can love it for being who it is."

"I will not acknowledge this."

"I do not care."

"Rin, it must be dealt with." His words were final.

I pushed back the tears that welled in my eyes. My hand flew to my mouth. That was why Jaken was sad, that was the cause for the look in his eyes. He knew about the pregnancy, and he had known Lord Sesshomaru far longer than I had. Despite the changes that had overcome Lord Sesshomaru since our meeting, he would not change so much as to allow a half breed with his blood to exist, or to be recognized as his. I would not allow him to take a child that was a much his as it was mine. I took a breath as I prepared myself for the worst. Lord Sesshomaru would not kill me, and that was all I had to hope for. The situation was not one that I could take lightly however, if Master Jaken had shown some worry or sadness for me, it must mean that Sesshomaru was intent upon doing all he could to erase this.

"Why are you like this? If a half breed child was of such inconvenience to you, why did you even bother with me!"

"Return to your room, I will not debate this further."

"Is anything a debate with you? I am not going through with it."

"Rin-"

"NO." I said firmly. "You do not get to make that decision for me. This is my baby; I am keeping it, with or without your approval."

His face began twisting. The demonic features morphed slowing into his face; his lips widened exposing his canine fangs. His eyes were slanting, changing from liquid amber to the burning red with the fire of his pure anger. I did not move, nor did I care. He would not take the choice from me. As the moments passed, I began to abandon all hope of him changing his mind, letting the baby grow up here, letting us be a family. He was nothing like InuYasha, or his father. He seemed in some way, like his mother. That thought crushed me, where was the Sesshomaru I loved.

"I will not tell you again. I do not want it in my sight. If you choose to keep it, that is your life that you will ruin. There is no place in this world for either."

"I will not make a choice between remaining here with you or my child."

"Then I will handle the matter."

"Matter?" I asked as I tried to find the air to breath. My hand was held over my heart, as if the keep the shards I felt it breaking into from falling to the floor.

"You are a child, Rin. You know nothing!"

"Then you have made a child with a child. You have assisted in this baby's creation, and I will take all of the responsibility. But you will not, will not, take my baby fromme."

"I will not have it in this house! It will be gone!"

I turned, ignoring his orders for me to return, he came behind me, grabbing my wrist and turning me to him. With consent, my hand flew up. He fell to the ground, his features returning to the human mask I now saw as nothing more than just that. His face was red around his eye.

With a tone just as unkind, and uncaring, I said "I will not ever allow you to touch me again."

With those final words, I was gone. I quietly closed the door and returned to my room, passing a stranger dressed in black that stood just outside the hall without a single word.

(End)

I fell to the floor wishing for nothing but the chance to forget all that had happened. Sesshomaru did not love me. He never even referred to it as a child. It was always 'it', but it should have been them. It broke my heart that day. Why did I still want to consider him? Why did I kiss him? I had a family; I had everything, why did I want to do this

"Rin!"

Satoru rushed down to me, hesitant to touch me. I looked in his eyes.

"Rin, are you alright?"

I shook my head as it dropped, heavy with the tears that streamed from my eyes.

"What's the matter? You can tell me anything… Let me help you."

I slowly forced my head up. Before I had control over my own lips, I confessed everything that had happened this morning. My heart fell with every second that Satoru's smile sank less and less. What surprised me was his lack of. He did not seemed shocked by what it was that I was saying. Especially when I told how it was Sesshomaru that seemed to be the aggressor in the middle of it all. I may have started, but something in Sesshomaru seemed desperate to continue. Satoru's response was to turn his head to the direction of the Western wing. His eyes darkened as if contemplating something, as if he had seen only fault in Sesshomaru. And though I know it was a stupid question, it surfaced from within me; did Satoru expect this to happen? If so, why did he bring us here? Was it a test, if I accepted, which I did, to make this journey with him, did I submit to a test that would question which was stronger? Was the love I had for Sesshomaru stronger than the love I have for Satoru?

Regardless of what the answer was, for not even I knew, and I did not care to know. Sesshomaru was my first love, I could admit that much, but to say that I love him still after everything that had passed between us was too far to go. Satoru was no fall back, he was not as close to Sesshomaru as I could find, I did not marry this demon because he was just that. I married him because I loved him, as I did with Sesshomaru, I could imagine no better life, not being Lady of the North, but by being Rin Fujian wife of Satoru Fujian. I could not be Lady of the West. Things had happened this way for a reason. I had left the palace; I had met him by the choice of fate. He came to me, and in so many ways saved me from the darkness I tried desperately to fight every day since I left here. I loved him, I loved Satoru. Whether the countless times I had said it past had been enough to push me to believing it, I believed it now. I doubted myself, something that I could not allow. I had to learn to grow up when I was only fourteen. I had a child as a child, had to learn to take of myself and a child not much like me, in addition to another child. I had to change from the carefree girl who loved Sesshomaru, into a woman with children.

Now I was taken back to the time where the only thing I could see was Sesshomaru. My present would require another change that might just insure my future and the future of the family that I was responsible for. I had life and more importantly a family, both with Satoru not Sesshomaru. He had nearly destroyed me once, Itachirou and Naiera gave me the strength to pick myself back up. Satoru gave me the ability to feel like I was needed in this world, needed for him. I was all that he wanted, and that was enough. With every day that went by were Sesshomaru was in my thoughts, I was losing that family. I would have to change once again, to ensure that they would not be hurt. I must forget completely the life that I lived while I was here. I am here with Lord Satoru Fujian of the North, and as the mother of his children, his wife Lady Fujian of the North, that was how it had to be. I could not allow myself to stray any further towards a past that was pure agony to think about.

As I looked at Satoru, I realized that the past that hurt me, was now his present. I could not open my mouth now that my story was over to give him the apology that he deserved. Still, no apology seemed efficient enough to cover what had happened.

"I am sorry, Satoru."

His lips curled.

"You should be." His breath shook as he laughed lightly. Not laughter of humor, but more of concealment. As to be expected, I hurt him. He shook his head for a moment, his arm reached around my waist, pulling me with him as he stood. The action was so quick; I lost my breath at the same moment my heart stopped.

It beat again, only when his eyes met mine. I was shocked, there was no pain in them, there was nothing, his pupils had engulfed the entire eye, they were completely black, and dark. I could not breathe.

"Satoru?"

"Rin." His voice was slightly different, an evil echo underneath, shivers ran down my spine with every word. "I am going to forget this. It is far more painful than letting the memory overcome every minute of the day… I will leave tomorrow for the North. But, my time with you is over. The rest of your life is yours to live. The truth of all that ever was in your life will come in time. There are things I cannot tell you…"

"Satoru-"

"I can tell you, that I love you, and that was never my intention. Be careful, Rin."