Author's Note: So today I decided not to use any horizontal lines. #DealWithIt

Day One-Hundred Fifty-Four: Give Your Heart a Break by Demi Lovato

I remembered the day I met Spencer. It was at one of Hanna's parties. Actually, it was Hanna's 21st birthday. Spencer still had another month or so before she could legally drink, but she was already pretty tipsy when I met her.

I'd heard about her for years prior to actually meeting her from Emily, Hanna, and later Caleb (when he became Hanna's boyfriend).

When I met her, she was drunkenly rambling on and on and on about how love was a stupid thing and she hated the very prospect of it. I remember wondering if she'd just been dumped or gotten her heart broken. She sounded very bitter when she said it.

Okay, she was a little more than pretty tipsy. Emily was struggling to get her to stand upright by the time I'd started talking to her. She was very drunk. Emily finally got her to sit down and she began to ramble about love and how it was a horrid lie someone made up. She asked if I agreed and before I could answer, Emily intervened.

Now that I know her, I know she was just scared. She still is scared of love. I found it a bit endearing in the same way I found some little mannerisms of hers to be becoming on her: the way she'd bite her lip when she was trying to concentrate, how she'd click her fingernails whenever she was trying to beat me in Scrabble…things like that.

Sometimes, she acted flirty, but she never wanted to take our relationship any further than that. I think I want her to. It almost made me sad, like she didn't really trust me as her friend. I thought she'd see by now that I wasn't like all the other guys who screwed her over in the past. I didn't want to break her heart. I just wanted to make her feel better.

Last Sunday, Emily invited the four of us (me, Spencer, Caleb, and Hanna) over to her new apartment. We were having dinner together (in addition to being a straight-A med-student, she was also an amazing cook), but halfway through the dinner, Spencer got an urgent phone call. When she hung up, she looked about ready to cry.

"I'm so sorry; I have to go," she explained briefly. She looked very distressed. All of us were very concerned.

"What's wrong, Spencer?"

She paused for a moment before she just shook her head. "I…I have to go," she repeated before taking off for the door.

"Toby?"

Before I could answer Emily, I was taking off after Spencer.

When I got to the door, I saw Spencer walking quickly towards the street she parked her car on.

"Spencer!"

She turned around and began to run. She didn't look where she was going and this car came out of nowhere…

I don't really remember all of what happened next. I remembered that I felt really guilty. I just tried to soothe her—even though she was unconscious. The driver had stopped and apologized profusely (not that she was awake to hear it). Caleb finally came down and saw me and Spencer on the ground. It didn't take long for the ambulance to come. Thankfully, Spencer still had a heartbeat and still seemed to be breathing normally. I hoped she'd be okay. A few broken bones would be fine, so long as she didn't severely hurt herself. Then again, I wasn't Spencer, so I couldn't really tell.

I went to the hospital a while later. I figured that she'd be knocked out for a little bit and that her family would want to see her first.

I went at about ten. Visiting hours were over at eleven, so I knew I couldn't stay very long. I just sat by her side. I was right and she had broken her leg, but otherwise, she was totally fine.

I watched her sleep for a few minutes. She looked very peaceful when she was sleeping. About five minutes after I sat down next to her, she woke up.

"Toby? Where are we?" she inquired groggily. She looked alarmed when she realized that we were in a hospital room. She jumped up and started to grab at the IV in her arm.

"Spence!" I exclaimed as I pulled her hand away from the IV. "You're really lucky. And I'm…really sorry," I responded.

She just gave me a very confused look.

"If it weren't for me, you wouldn't have gotten hit by that car—"

"Wait, wait, wait. I got hit by a car?" she inquired with shock.

"Yeah, and it's my fault," I said with a sigh. "After you ran out of Emily's apartment, I just felt the need to follow you and I just had to call out your name as you were crossing the street. I'm so sorry."

She gave me a look that just said, "Are you kidding me?" She went on to say, "Toby, it wasn't your fault. You didn't hit me with your car. You weren't the idiot that crossed the street without looking."

I sighed. I'd continue to argue, but I didn't really have the energy to and I knew that Spencer would continuously debunk my arguments.

"Spence…what happened? What made you run out of the dinner like that?" I asked.

Spencer looked troubled for a moment. She could fake amnesia, but I could see that she remembered. "Well…my mom has had a few health scares. More recently, the doctors found a cancerous lump on her breast and…she just hasn't been feeling well. I got a text from my sister saying that she's gotten very depressed and…I didn't say anything because my mom didn't want anyone to know about it. You know how Rosewood is with gossip," she explained.

I nodded. I just held her hand. She smiled. "It kind of just…when you walked out and called my name, it just made me think that…" she trailed off before shaking her head.

"What?" I asked with a tiny smile.

"My mom always told me and my sister that you don't get second chances in life, well…at least, not second opportunities, I guess. When you get an opportunity you really want, you have to jump at it," she told me. "You don't get a second opportunity to do something that you really want to do. When it comes, you have to jump for that chance. And I guess that getting hit by a car and my mom's health scare really made me think about stuff. That's why I ran away from you. Well, obviously it had nothing to do with getting hit by a car, since that didn't happen yet, but now, thinking about it, it just makes me…"

"Spencer, spit it out," I prompted.

"I really like you, Toby. I think I like you as more than a friend. But I don't want to ruin our friendship with something that could just be—"

I cut her off with a kiss. There was no going back now. She'd said it and I reciprocated her feelings. Her hand moved from my shoulder to my chest, right over my heart. It made me shiver. Then, she pulled away.

"What's your holdback?" I asked.

She looked at me, almost a bit embarrassed. "I don't want to get hurt again."

I could see it in her eyes. She just looked scared sometimes. She could try and hide it with a fake smile, but the eyes were the windows to the soul for a reason.

"Spencer, I'll never hurt you on purpose. I know that you're scared…and I am, too. We can be scared and brave together."

She thought about it for a moment before smiling. It was a real smile.

"So…what about your mom?" I asked after she took my hand.

"I'm calling my sister so I can see what's happening. The nurse told me that my mom and sister visited me earlier, but I was still asleep," she responded. "I think this might make her happy, though," she assured me with a smile.

MilaMizz: I don't care what kind of gaga it is, as long as it's gaga. I suck at everything else. I'm glad you liked it! That's nice of your brother. I would throw a tantrum if something happened to my computer. I'm not even joking. It's like my baby.

tobyequalshottness:Thank you! Glad you liked it!

Guest: Thanks! :)

AL3110:I have no problems with tattoos. I just said I'd get one. I'm just talking about my mom. She doesn't like them because she said it reminds her of when people brand animals like cattle and she hates it. I barely saw any of Season 2 (it was in Season 2, right?) so I don't remember. But I like Klaine, too. Cuties.

The next one-shot is (hopefully) going to be very good. I love the song. It's 2 Sapphires by Becca Schack. It's a very pretty song. It was used on Dance Moms, too, for Kalani and Maddie's very controversial duet (it was a good duet, but I still don't think Abby should've entered it. Sorry, to everyone who doesn't know anything about that show. I'm just typing words at you). Anyway, it'll be good, especially if you like Toby's eyes :) -Kayson