Alright so one of my favourite episodes of Rizzoli and Isles in "When the Gun Goes Bang, Bang, Bang." It's so intense and one of the reasons I really got hooked on the show. I recently rewatched it and I decided I really wanted to write it in. However, I've decided to do something a little different. I think we all know the episode well enough so I decided to simply start off at the beginning.

This is going to be the first part of the aftermath and it's going to include some flashbacks of things that happen prior to the shooting at BPD. So flashbacks are in italics. I hope that it will be easy to follow!

I will get Part 2 up as soon as I can!

Thanks so much for reading! -J

Chapter 12- After the Gun Goes Bang – Part 1

The first thing Jane registered was the pain. The panic and desire to keep Frankie and Maura safe; to get someone inside to help them, was taken over by an overwhelming pain as the bullet went through her and into Bobby. She felt herself falling as Bobby's grip on her finally loosened, someone calling out her name as she hit the pavement, blood already seeping through her shirt.

The world around Jane started to get fuzzy, the sound of voices yelling all around her as she attempted to keep her eyes open, fighting the desire to pass out as she felt familiar hands close down on her wound, someone repeatedly calling her name as if in a chant. Doing her best to focus on the face in front of her rather than the pain that was taking over her body, brown eyes met hazel, a flash of honey-blonde hair catching her eye as she willed herself to get up; to embrace the woman in front of her, who had tears falling down her cheeks, wanting to assure her that it would be okay; that she would be okay.

But as she tried to lift her arms, as she tried to speak, it was as if her brain was no longer sending messages to her body, so focused on the pain as darkness began to cloud her vision. Her last thought before she lost consciousness being the woman still kneeling beside he; Maura.

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"You're fidgeting," Maura pointed out, sitting in a booth beside Jane at the Dirty Robber two nights after telling Amelia and Angela about their relationship, waiting for Frost, Korsak and Frankie to join them. "I knew you were nervous."

"I am not nervous," Jane immediately argued, before beginning to pick at the label on her beer bottle. "Of course I'm not nervous."

"Could have fooled me," Maura raised an eyebrow, reaching out and stopping Jane from leaving shreds of paper all over the table. "Jane if you don't want to tell them tonight we don't have to. We can just have a drink like we planned and then go home. We can tell them another time."

"Maur if we don't tell them now they'll hear it from my mother," Jane shook her head. "I had to beg her to let me tell Frankie. She's not going to be able to hold it in much longer. Plus I want them to know."

"Are you sure?" Maura had to ask. "Because you don't really look like you want to tell them," she said, unable to miss the look of anxiety on the brunette's face.

"I'm sure," Jane sighed, looking up to find hazel eyes shining with disbelief. "Really Maur I'm sure," she repeated, squeezing the blonde's hand. "I admit I may be a little bit nervous but it's not because of you. I'm just really not used to sharing this kind of stuff with people, especially Frost and Korsak. I mean don't get me wrong, they're two of my best friends, but I don't normally introduce them to someone I'm dating unless we've been together for a while."

"Well technically you're not introducing me to them, they already know me," Maura reminded her.

"I know, I know," Jane said, sitting back in her seat. "I don't know why I'm getting worked up about this really. They're going to be happy for us," she continued. "This relationship is just really important to me and part of me really just wants to keep it all to myself."

"I understand," Maura nodded. "The last three weeks have been nice, just you and me getting to know each other better without other people watching us and asking us questions."

"Exactly!" Jane was quick to agree.

"But there comes a time in every relationship where you have to let the people you care about in," Maura continued. "It's like you said; they're going to be happy for us, so there's really nothing to worry about."

"What aren't you worrying about?" Frankie asked as he plopped down in the booth across from them, drink in hand, Frost not far behind while Korsak pulled a chair up to the end of the table, none of the men noticing Jane and Maura quickly pulling their hands apart. "Nice to see you guys started the drinks without us."

"Yeah well you guys took forever," Jane replied, trying to relax despite the nervous feeling in her stomach. "I was beginning to think you guys were never gonna show up."

"Hey some of us had paperwork to finish," Frost replied, taking a swig of his beer. "And obviously we were gonna show up, you two made it sound like not coming wasn't an option."

"Yeah what's going on with you two?" Korsak asked. "You were pretty insistent about drinks tonight Jane. So what is it?"

"Well," Maura began, glancing at Jane to see that the Detective was uncharacteristically pale, seemingly at a loss for words. "Jane and I asked you three here tonight because we had some news we wanted to share with you," she said rather officially, all three men listening with curious looks on their faces. "As you all know we've been spending a lot of time together lately and…"

"We're dating," Jane blurted out, completely interrupting Maura's speech, Korsak, Frost and Frankie staring at her with their mouths wide open. "Maura's my girlfriend."

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The first thing Maura registered as she ran out onto the steps of BPD was the way Jane was pulling at Bobby's gun. It took the Medical Examiner only a few seconds to figure out what the brunette was doing, calling out her name, hoping to stop her, to reassure her that Frankie was safe now. It was in vain though as the sound of the gun rang out, Maura feeling like her feet were working on their own as she ran straight for Jane, not even feeling the pain as her knees hit the sidewalk and she clasped her hands down on the brunette's abdomen, immediately feeling blood soaking her palms.

"Jane, Jane, Jane, Jane," she kept repeating, tears streaming down her face as she willed her mind to remember her training; to help her do something besides panic.

It was Korsak who suddenly appeared beside her, saying something about an exit wound as he placed a hand under Jane, Maura unable to bring herself to do anything more, still fighting to stem the flow of blood underneath her hands.

"Am…ambulance…we…need…." Maura muttered, watching as Jane's eyes fluttered open and closed, her breathing not as strong as it should be. "Korsak we…we need…"

"They're on their way Maura," Korsak assured her. "They'll be here soon. Just hang in there Jane. They'll be here soon."

With her heart pounding in her ears, Maura could barely hear the approaching sirens, focusing on nothing besides Jane, who now lay unconscious, until she felt a hand on her shoulder.

"Ma'am we need you to…" The paramedic began, taking in the panic stricken look on the blonde's face.

"I'm a doctor," Maura shook her head. "I'm…I can't…I…."

"Maura, you need to let them do their job," Korsak gently suggested, not wanting to upset the medical examiner, who still had tears falling down her cheeks, looking like she may snap at any moment.

"I have pressure on the wound, it's a gunshot to the abdomen there may be…" Maura continued to recite robotically until Frost came over.

"Maura you need to let them help Jane," Frost said, carefully placing a hand on the blonde's shoulders, knowing that there was no way the Medical Examiner could help right now, her concern for Jane clouding her ability to act. "Maura it'll be okay," she said, carefully pulling her back as a paramedic replaced her hands with his own. "It'll be okay. Come on. We'll go to the hospital. She's gonna be okay."

With Frost's arm around her, Maura allowed herself to be guided away from Jane, watching the paramedics work as the world around her began to feel as if it were shifting; her eyesight blurring as she felt her stomach lurch.

"B-Barry," Maura clutched Frost's arm tightly, feeling her legs beginning to give out beneath her. "Jane."

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One month. Maura couldn't remember the last time she was in a relationship that lasted a whole month. Actually that was a lie; it was Vanessa. Since the honey-blonde and her ex-fiance had broken up, Maura's love life consisted mostly of casual dating and the occasional hook-up, but nothing solid; nothing that lasted.

Things were different with Jane. In the month they had been together the couple spent nearly all their time together, whether it was alone or with Amelia or Jane's family, it didn't matter because they were truly happy simply being together. When they were apart Maura longed for Jane, missed her deeply; something she couldn't ever remember feeling when she was with Vanessa. Her relationship with Jane was deep and intense and it was filled with a passion that Maura had never experienced, a passion, which she was finding difficult to resist.

They had agreed to take things slow. They agreed they would date, and get to know each other. They would hold hands and kiss and simply allow themselves to be happy before they allowed themselves to engage in a sexual relationship; wanting to make sure they were both ready before taking the next step. But after one month, Maura wasn't sure how much longer she could wait.

Their family and friends all knew about their relationship. Everyone was genuinely happy for them, and they were happy together. So what were they waiting for? Maura wasn't sure she had ever fallen for someone as quickly as she had fallen for Jane and whenever they were together she longed to be with Jane; to feel her. But would it ruin things? Did Jane feel the same way? The honey-blonde tortured herself night after night wondering if perhaps she would be rushing things if she made any sort of suggestion to her girlfriend; her fears eventually cast aside when she realized that the brunette was on the same page.

"Let's go out tomorrow night," Jane suggested one Friday afternoon, visiting Maura's office. "I already talked to my Ma and she'll watch Mia as long as we need her to. I thought we could have dinner and then maybe have a drink at my place or something," she said, her eyes boring into Maura's, willing her to understand. "I mean I just thought we should do something special…one month and all…I know it's not a really big deal but…"

"I'd love to," Maura interrupted, looking back at Jane with an intensity that demonstrated her understanding. "That sounds perfect."

And so the next night Jane picked Maura up at the house, spending a few minutes with Amelia before ushering Maura out the door, neither woman able to keep their hands off each other as they found whatever reason they could to touch the other the entire way to the restaurant. Dinner was spent much the same way, sharing suggestive looks and reaching across the table while their legs were practically intertwined beneath it. It was as if time was barely passing by as they both buzzed with anticipation, unsure of how much longer they could simply sit at the table across from each other, before Maura was the one to finally lean over and whisper "take me home."

As soon as they made it inside Jane's apartment the brunette had Maura pressed up against the door, both their hands roaming as their lips met in a feverish kiss. Their coats were thrown off as tongues met and Maura began pulling Jane's shirt out of her pants, while Jane's hands searched for the zipper on Maura's dress. It wasn't until Maura began working the buttons on Jane's shirt that the Detective pulled away.

"Are you sure?" She whispered, breathing hard as she rested her forehead against Maura's, not sure she could stop if she tried.

"Absolutely positive," Maura replied, brining their lips back together as Jane found her zipper, pulling it down before letting the blonde's dress fall to her feet.

As soon as the material hit the ground, Jane's hands found Maura's ass, moving to lift the blonde, who immediately wrapped her legs around her girlfriend's waist, allowing herself to be carried towards the bedroom. As soon as they made it to the bedroom, Jane easily threw the blonde down onto the bed, shrugging off her blouse and pulling off her own pants and tank top before moving to where Maura lay panting, watching with hazel eyes full of lust.

Laying down over Maura's body though, the fast and frenzied pace set in the entryway was suddenly gone as Jane leaned in for a kiss that was slow, deep and was full of much more than just lust.

"You're beautiful," Jane spoke softly, her hand trailing up and down Maura's side. "Absolutely gorgeous," she said, giving Maura a look that made the blonde blush.

"I want you," Maura replied, reaching up and tucking Jane's unruly hair behind her ear before grabbing her to bring her down into another kiss, their tongues immediately meeting, making out until air became an issue. "I need you."

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"Angela."

It was the first thing Maura uttered in the hospital waiting room, looking away from her blood-covered hands to Frost. They had driven behind the ambulance, Frost using his sirens to keep up while Korsak rode with the paramedics, keeping an eye on Jane. Maura didn't say a word the entire way, staring at her hands, which were shaking and allowing Frost to drag her inside once they had arrived, only to watch Jane get whisked away into surgery.

"S-someone has to get Angela," Maura said, her voice shaky and full of nerves. "She's with…she's watching Amelia."

"It's alright Maura I know," Frost nodded. "Korsak already went to get her. They'll be here soon."

"No," Maura was quick to reply, surprising Frost. "No she can't…I…I don't want Amelia here," she said, her breathing becoming slightly erratic as she felt herself beginning to panic. "I can't…please. She can't see me like this…she can't…not until we know…Jane….please Barry I…"

"Okay, okay," Frost intervened, bending down in front of the doctor. "Just take a deep breath Doc, it's alright we won't bring Amelia here. It's okay," he said, placing a hand on Maura's knee. "I'll call Korsak and I'll meet him at your house. I'll go take care of Amelia alright?"

"But…are you…what about…" Maura tried to argue, her breathing starting to even out again, though she still felt completely panicked.

"It's alright Doc," Frost was quick to assure her, knowing how much Maura needed to be there. "Korsak will call me if anything changes. You stay here. Will you be aright for a little while until he gets back with Angela?"

"Hm..well…y-yes," Maura nodded, taking a deep breath as she tried to calm herself down. "Yes. Thank you Barry."

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"Mmm I hope it's always like this," Maura sighed as she lay in bed next to Jane, both still naked, their breathing finally returning to normal.

"Like what?" Jane raised an eyebrow turning her head to look at the blonde.

"Like this," Maura repeated. "You and me. I hope we always want each other like this. I hope we're always this good together; that you'll always want me the way you just did," she smirked.

"Oh trust me I'll always want you," Jane chuckled, leaning in for a kiss. "How could I not? You're amazing Maura Isles, in every way," she said, smiling suggestively. "And I mean every way."

"So are you," Maura replied, rolling to lay on her side so she was facing Jane, the brunette immediately following suit so they now lay holding hands between them. "I don't ever want to leave this bed."

"Well I'm all for that," Jane grinned. "I mean I would love to continue ravishing you but unfortunately we will have to leave the bed eventually. I mean you do have a daughter to get home to."

"I know," Maura sighed, running her fingers through the brunette's curls. "If only we could slow time down, just for tonight."

"Well I know you know that's not possible Dr. Isles," Jane said, earning a pinch in the side from Maura who then buried her face against the brunette's chest. Sighing, Jane wrapped her arms around the shorter woman, placing a kiss on the top of her head. "Don't worry Beautiful, we'll have plenty of time for many more nights just like this. We're only just starting. This is only the beginning for us. There's so much more ahead for us."

"Promise?" Maura asked, placing a kiss against Jane's chest, basking in the feeling of lying in her girlfriend's arms.

"I promise."

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"Maura!" Angela called, as Korsak led her into the waiting room; the blonde looking up from where she still sat staring at her hands. "Oh Maura," she repeated, embracing the younger woman as soon as she stood up. "Are they okay? Have you heard anything? Please tell me my babies are okay."

"I…there hasn't been any news," Maura replied, clearing her throat and fighting to keep her emotions in check. "They're both still in surgery and they won't…they won't tell me anything because I'm not family. I'm sure someone will be out to tell us something as soon as there's news."

"Vince said you helped them," Angela said, still holding Maura tightly, not noticing how the blonde seemed to be tensed up in her arms. "That you worked on Frankie and you were the first one to get to Janie after. I can't...Thank God you were there. I don't even know what I would do if…thank God you were there."

"I d-did what I could," Maura replied softly, wishing the older woman would release her. "I don't know if…I did what I could."

"Of course you did honey," Angela replied, gasping as she finally pulled away, noticing Maura's blood covered clothes and hands for the first time. "Oh my God. Is that…that's."

"I'm sorry Angela I should have…" Maura began, cutting herself off as she looked up to find Angela staring at her with wide eyes full of worry. "I'm just going to go clean up," she said releasing herself from Angela's grasp and quickly hurrying down the hall towards the nearest bathroom.

Feeling herself beginning to panic, Maura leaned over the sink, doing her best to calm her breathing, eventually looking up into the mirror in front of her only to feel her stomach lurch, sending her straight into the closest stall where she immediately threw up. Emptying her stomach, Maura remained kneeling in front of the toilet for a few extra minutes, taking a few deep breaths in order to calm her stomach before standing up on shaky legs. Returning to the sink, the blonde rinsed out her mouth before beginning to scrub Jane's blood from her hands, barely noticing the tears that were now falling down her face as she watched the red water run down the drain. It wasn't until her hands were clean that Maura finally let out a great sob, using the sink to hold herself up.

"Please let her be okay," Maura cried to a God she didn't believe in. "Please…please don't take her from me."