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Stef waited all night to hear from Lena. But, nothing. Her mind was going on really weird paranoid trips.

Baby? My love? What is she doing with her right now? Stef was going out of her mind with scenarios of the three of them bonding over the baby and being together again. This was the first time that Lena had seen her ex in months. And they had been together for a really long time.

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That afternoon after returning home, Sharon asked about why she wasn't spending the day with Lena and Callie.

"Callie's Mom came back today. She was there waiting when we got back from breakfast."

Sharon was stunned. "And you left them there alone?"

"Mom, Callie hasn't seen her Mom in months and 5 was definitely a crowd."

"If Callie hasn't seen her in months then does that mean Lena hasn't seen her in months? How did the two of them get along?"

"Mom! I don't want to talk about it ok? So just let it go please. Let's just enjoy the rest of the weekend. Why don't we go out for dinner and a movie?" Stef needed anything to keep her mind off of Gretchen pulling her Lena into her arms and kissing her.

Her sleep that night was full of tossing and turning.

The next morning, she got to work in a bad mood. Everyone tried to steer clear of her. Lena hadn't called or texted all night which left Stef nothing to do but have her imagination running wild to fill in the blanks.

Around 10 am she got a text from Lena: Hey love! Lunch at 1 café?

Sure. Sounds great. Stef sighed with relief. She hadn't realized until that minute how much tension she had inside her.

Stef got to the café before Lena and stood waiting for her outside. When she saw her come up, she gave her a small kiss and looked into her eyes. Stef considered herself an ace cop who could read any suspect. But, all she saw reflected in Lena's eyes was fatigue. She opened the door for them and they walked inside. They ordered and went and sat down.

"So," Stef started wanting to be subtle but instead being Stef and blurting out, "Did you two sleep together?"

Lena brought her head up fast in shock. Thankfully the waitress chose that moment to bring their food.

"No Stefanie we did not sleep together. God, I can't believe that you would even ask that. She's staying in the spare room."

"You didn't call me at all." Stef said in a somewhat hurt voice.

"Well, we had a lot to talk about. I told her all about you and she understands. That doesn't mean she's accepting it right now. She's going to need a minute. We have kids to figure into all of this after all."

"Why didn't you tell me that she was coming?" Stef asked still nursing some hurt.

"Because I didn't think about it! It's not that it was a secret. Honestly, Callie's been talking about it forever. It's just my mind was never on it. You have nothing to worry about in that department."

Stef let out a breath she didn't know she'd been holding. They were going to be okay. They began eating in silence for a while thinking over current events.

"Well, what about the kids?" Stef asked after her initial hunger had been satiated.

"I still have no idea. I mean physically they're staying here with me but in the long term. I dunno. It's going to be kinda hard with all of her traveling to get to know the twins. I don't think settling down is her thing. But, we'll just have to keep at it. She's a great Mom to Callie, when she is there, I mean. It's just – I never expected to have to deal with the whole broken family thing. Kids being shuttled here and there. Parents all over the place. The fact that she travels just makes it worse."

Stef knew firsthand exactly how messy the whole thing could be. "It's hard. But, you do what you have to do. And it does get easier. What's worse is when you don't have an extra set of helping hands." She reached across the table and grabbed Lena's hand. "But, you have me. And I'm not going anywhere."

Lena smiled her gratitude and kissed Stef's hand. "You help keep me sane."

Stef laughed and they continued eating.

"I get things might be a little hard with Callie. But, with the twins it'll be easier." Stef said

"What do you mean?"

"Well, she's been here for pretty much none of this at all."

"I didn't get pregnant on my own. She was there at the conception. This was planned by the two of us."

"Yeah, but, she won't really be their Mom. I mean not like she was for Callie. It's a completely different situation."

Lena's temper was starting to rise. She couldn't believe she was hearing this from another woman. "How so?"

Stef could tell Lena was getting testy. She had stopped eating and straightened her back up. Her chin was raised and she was looking at her down her nose. "I'm going to be there for the birth and all of the things that come after. Right? The twins will mostly know her through photographs and phone calls."

"Then, we hang pictures, skype, and do phone calls. But, she is their Mother. She was there at their conception just like Callie. She would've been there through more if I hadn't decided to leave. This is messy and not what I wanted but, it is what it is."

"I'm just saying. I would be willing to step up too."

"You don't have-"

"I know I don't have to. I want to. I am in love with you. And I love Callie. And these babies are a combination of all of you. I want to be there. I want to be there for the birth and the morning sickness and late night feedings and … I want it all. I want you all."

"You want to move in? You don't think it's too early?"

"Yes, I mean, I mean…. Yes I want to move in when it's appropriate. I don't think it's too early because you're having a baby. And there's paperwork that needs to be filed for the two of us to raise all our kids together."

"How about we start off small? Like with dinner?" Lena asked by way of a truce.

"Unless I'm the dinner, I don't see that as being a good idea right now." Stef joked trying to get the conversation back to neutral ground. Then, her eyes caught hold of the keychain that Lena had left lying on the table.

"What's this?" She asked picking them up to get a closer look. "You complete me, Gigi?"

"It's nothing. She brought some presents with her."

"It's a puzzle piece of a broken heart. It doesn't look like nothing. I guess she's got the other half? What exactly did you tell her about me?"

"Nothing. I mean, she guessed already when she saw you bring us home." Lena said.

"So you didn't really tell her about me? But, the two of you talk on the phone every other day. What have you two been talking about since we have been together?"

"I did! She just didn't want to listen. She ran to her room and she's been avoiding eye contact and being alone with me ever since!" Lena said her voice starting to get tight. "Look, this isn't something you talk about over the phone."

"But, somewhere along the line she's been getting the idea that you and her were still possible! How do you think that makes me feel, Lena?" Stef said with her voice going up sharply.

"Can we please not do this here?" Lena asked looking around them.

"You're right. I have to get back to work. Here's your heart back." Stef said as she slammed the keychain on the table and walked out leaving a stunned Lena behind her.