So I feel bad for not updating in almost a week so I'm going to try and get this up by Sunday for you guys! Also I feel like my last chapter wasn't as good as others writing wise. In my opinion it was all over the place idk I'm super hard on myself so I hope this is better! Also I may not have another update for a while bc this week I have two tests and my graduation night Friday. So it could be a week before I get another chapter up so I apologize in advance :(
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*The next day*
"Hello." I said, answering my phone.
"Hey Ally!" A familiar voice greeted.
Instantly my heart started to melt inside.
"Hi Austin, what's up?" I asked with a smile on my face even though he couldn't see it.
"Meet me at the lake in ten. I have something really important to tell you!" he told me.
"Alright?" I laughed.
"Hurry ok! See you soon!" he exclaimed.
"Bye." I smiled.
And with that we ended the call.
I wonder what he's so excited about. I honestly had no clue to what it could be. Whatever it is, it must really be important. I'm actually so happy he called me. After what happened yesterday I had fallen in a horrible funk. Hearing his voice, and him needing me just lifted it so easily.
I made sure I was decent looking before leaving my cabin and heading to the lake. I walked with purpose, secretly excited to see him. I spotted him sitting in the sand and looking out across the water. I instantly smiled at the sight of him. He made me all warm inside and all I did was look at him!
I walked over to him as fast as my legs would go in the sinking sand. I enjoyed every step of the way, letting my feet get covered in warm, soft sand. He was still focused on the distance or whatever it is he's looking at. Austin didn't notice me until I sat down right beside him.
"Hey." I greeted.
"Hi!" He grinned from ear to ear.
"Someone's happy." I pointed out and laughed.
"I am! I'm so happy!" he cheered, still grinning like a goof.
His smile made my heart do weird things in my chest. The feeling was good but hard to ignore.
"So what did you want to tell me that's so important?" I asked.
"What I want to tell you is that last night, I asked Cassidy to be my girlfriend and she said yes! I wanted you to be the first to know!" he admitted.
The world and everything around me had suddenly come crashing down. I wish I had heard wrong but I knew this day would come, I just didn't think so soon. All the feelings I had been pushing away these past few days had just come back all at once. The most fresh and painful wound had just been made on my heart thanks to Austin. I could even feel my own heart radiating sadness. This was enough to completely break it. I was at a sudden loss of words. What was I supposed to say? The truth would crush him and probably ruin our friendship. I blinked back all the tears and choked the hysterical sobs trying to crawl out of my throat. My hands were shaking and I was incoherent of all the noise around me now. All I could hear was the sound of my own broken heart.
"Wow." I slightly whispered in shock.
What do you say when your best friend who you are almost positive you have feelings for tells you he is dating someone else?
"I'm … really happy for you." I lied.
I did my best to force out a smile, although it was a little weak. Those were the hardest words of my life. As impossible as it seems, this is seriously happening.
"Thank you so much. You're a really great friend Als." He thanked as he pulled me in for a hug.
The word friend just repeatedly echoed inside my head. Great. Another reminder that I'm still just his best friend after all of this. I can feel the wound in my heart becoming infected now. I guess things can just keep getting worse.
"Yeah. A really great friend." I choked out.
This hug was just making it all so much worse. I don't know how much longer I can sit here and take this without bursting into tears.
"Is that all you had to tell me?" I asked, hiding my sadness.
He nodded his head yes and smiled.
"Tell Cassidy I say congratulations. You guys make a great couple." I said to him as I stood up.
"I will and thanks again." He smiled.
This was serious pain because even his smile wasn't fixing or numbing it even the slightest bit. It's all so real.
"You're welcome. I'll see you later." I said before walking away.
As soon as I turned around I let the first tear fall. I didn't bother wiping them away. My heart hurt too much for me to care. Mentally, I'm lost. I'd go to my best friend in situations like these but Austin is my best friend so that doesn't mathematically work in this problem. I aimless wandered as far away from Austin until I thought to walk to Megan and Bea's. I guess it's time for them to know.
I knock on their door and wipe my tear stained face as I wait, but when they open the door instantly more tears fall.
"Ally what happed?" Bea asked.
She looked at me with so much concern as she pulled me inside. I didn't want sympathy but that's all people got when they cried right.
"Oh my gosh Als." Megan gasped.
Instantly she stood up from her bed and bolted to my side. Bea and Megan hugged me from both sides, trying to comfort me. I hugged back and cried a little harder, letting my sobs come out now. I took a few minutes to calm down so I could actually speak instead of hysterically cry into their shoulders.
"What happened?" Megan asked once I was done crying.
I took a deep breath before speaking.
"I'm sorry, I just didn't know who else to go to. I feel so stupid for crying like this." I shook my head at myself.
"It's ok Ally. You can tell us." Bea comforted.
"Here's the full, complete, honest truth. Ever since I got to camp things have been different between Austin and I. He and I have always been best friends, the whole camp knows that! But this year I got these weird feelings, feelings I had no clue about. I'm always nervous around him and I always find myself admiring him when I shouldn't be! I'm doing and feeling things that a best friend shouldn't be. Now I'm certain of all these feelings and I know they are here to stay. When Austin and Cassidy started to hang out I became super jealous. I'm still super jealous. I didn't understand why I was so jealous, unless …, I had feelings for Austin of course. I tried to ignore and deny it because I didn't want to believe it but now I know it's true. I like Austin. A lot. But now he's dating Cassidy and he's always going to see me as just his best friend. That's what happened." I admitted.
"Can I just say that I totally knew something was up between you two getting all flirty and stuff." Megan said making weird hand gestures as she spoke.
"Wait a second. Let's back up a bit. Why didn't you tell us you like Austin?!" Bea asked.
"I wasn't even sure I really liked Austin until he unknowingly broke my heart a few minutes ago." I answered.
"Austin is so stupid, and such a guy! How could he break your heart without a clue and how can he like Cassidy and not you?" Megan asked annoyed.
"Well she is way prettier than me. And super tall unlike me. Don't forget her likable personality." I pointed out to them.
"Ally, none of that matters! You are just as pretty, if not more. Austin is blind if he can't see that. And so what if she's tall. You can easily fix that problem with high heels but we all know Austin likes your height so he can tease you about it, which is a guy way of flirting with a girl. And she is so not nice I just know it! I've said it so many times and I'll say it again. She is fake, ok. She may not show it yet but she will. And when I'm right I'll say I told you so. She isn't genuine like you Ally. Austin will realize that." Megan exclaimed still very annoyed.
"Oh my god I totally forgot. Tomorrow's beach night! What am I going to do when I see them together?" I sighed sadly.
"You have to go Ally!" Bea begged.
"I don't think I can do it." I told them.
"I agree Bea! What better way to make Austin think twice about his new relationship then you showing up all confident, looking smoking hot and dancing with some really cute guys all night." Megan agreed with Bea and shared her plan.
"You're right! I'm tired of crying over him and I'd like to make him just a little jealous. Tomorrow we're going to have serious fun so I don't have to think about Austin or Cassidy." I agreed with them excitedly.
"Now that's what I like to hear!" Megan cheered.
"After tomorrow I doubt he is going to still keep thinking of you as just his best friend." Bea cheered too.
"Let's hope." I said still uncertain.
"Ally why don't you just do what Austin did? Find yourself a boyfriend. That could make him super jealous." Megan suggested.
"I can't. It's just not right. I'd be hurting myself more. And not to mention I'd being hurting a really nice guy worse than myself by pretending to like him. No one deserves that. Plus Austin only sees me as his friend. I don't think he'd get jealous if he feels that way about me. He'd probably want to do double dates or something horrible like that." I told them.
"Oh fine. It was worth a shot." Megan pouted.
"Now what do I do tonight? There's still the group camp fire in like twenty minutes! I can't face them." I stressed.
"It's going to be ok. I'm sure you're tired of lying and acting like you care but you're going to have to keep doing that. The last thing Austin or Cassidy needs to know is that you're jealous. Especially Cassidy because she is evil I know it!" Megan said, really emphasizing that last part.
She may hate Cassidy but I sure can't.
"You can do it. And we'll be there to help you!" Bea reassured.
"Ok." I said defeated.
How hard could it be right? I mean I have been doing it pretty well these past few days.
"I guess we should get ready." I suggested to them.
Bea and Megan both nodded excitedly.
Tonight is going to be something.
*At the camp fire*
"Ally!" Megan yell-whispered as she hit my arm.
"What?" I asked with my full attention on her.
"Quit giving them death glares!" Megan said still in a whisper.
"It's kind of depressing. I'm surprised they haven't seen you yet." Bea whispered too.
"Wow I didn't even know I was doing that. I'm sorry, it's just really hard." I whispered to them.
Cassidy and Austin are directly across the fire from me, making them the first thing I can see. It's kind of hard to not watch at the position they're at. And they were making it so much harder for me to be ok when they're being all cute and lovey. I think I'm going to be sick.
His arm is around her shoulder and she's even wearing his sweater. Her head's purposely rested on his shoulder and they acted like no one else was around the fire but them. Just talking and laughing amongst themselves. To say I'm jealous would be an understatement. I so badly wished that could be me and him. Laughing and smiling and cuddling as the sun fades out. That's all I want. Seeing them together really breaks my heart. It sucks.
Heck, everyone was having a good time but me. It's like I'm not even there. Well physically I am, but not mentally. I'm too sad to talk or try and have fun right now. Can you blame though. Today has been the worst day of my life, literally. There isn't much worse than finding out your best friend, who just so happens to be the guy you like, now has a perfect girlfriend. Knowing that I don't even stand a chance is what makes me so sad. I know I should be strong but you know what they say; you got have a little rain before the rainbow. And right now my life is like a never ending thunderstorm. I don't even know if the rainbow is going to come. I wouldn't be surprised if I didn't.
I tried to look away, trying to spare my heart from more pain but I just couldn't. I watched as they started to feed each other s'mores. Watching them is like deja vu. Memories of the first night suddenly came flooding back into my mind.
"Open up." He winked.
He was kidding, right?
We had an intense stare down for a good minute on whether I was going to or not. I'm pretty sure he was winning because I could feel the giggles coming. I kind of just gave up because I realized that this is the only way I'm going to get that s'more. I felt so silly but I did it anyways, opening my mouth up slightly annoyed. I took a bite of what was still left, and instantly moaned in satisfaction at the taste. I looked up at Austin to find him staring at me.
"What?" I asked confused, my mouth still full of food.
He waited for me to chew and swallow before responding.
"You have a little bit of marsh mellow right there." He answered as he pointed it out.
"Oh." I said a little embarrassed.
Suddenly he wetted the pad of his thumb with his tongue and brought it down to my face. He rubbed just above my lip, removing the marsh mellow for me. A million thoughts were racing through my mind as he did so. I felt a spark when he touched my upper lip and my heart was going a hundred miles faster now. I wasn't sure if it was the fact that our bodies were so close or just because I was suddenly so nervous. I'm sure he could sense how tense I had become as I watched him wipe the little mess away. Anyone could sense it. I mainly tried to focus on maintaining regular, steady breathing but even that was difficult. The worst part is that I don't know why I'm getting so flustered. It was just Austin. He and I have been friends for years so this shouldn't be bothering me like it is. What got me the most is that when he finished, he brushed his thumb down both my upper and lower lip before removing all contact from them. His rough thumb against my soft lips sent a tingling sensation all over my body. That definitely isn't supposed to happen with your best friend.
"There. Good as new." He smiled.
I blinked myself back to reality. I touch my upper lip, feeling a little courageous. I traced my fingers over the spot he had touch that night, and smiled as the memory finished playing. It tingled with a happy, good feeling when I touched there. It sent a rush across my whole body, ever nerve suddenly alive with happiness again. But it was all bittersweet because the feeling was instantly replaced with heartache when I saw them again.
The hurt inside my chest had reached to a whole new, very painful level. I secretly wiped the tear that had escaped away. I watched her wipe the marsh mellow off his lip just like he did to me and I had to wipe away another tear. I think my lungs had collapsed in my chest because I definitely couldn't breathe anymore. And not in the 'having my breathe taken away' sort of way, but the 'hey I like someone else sorry for crushing your heart' kind of way. He looked at her like I looked at him that night. She makes him feel how he makes me feel, which means he really likes her. He started to blush once she finished and I still couldn't look away even when my heart is now completely done.
I didn't know how to feel at what did next.
He leaned in and placed a soft, sweet kiss on her cheek. I couldn't even imagine what it would be like if he actually kissed her lips. I finally looked down at the ground and away from them. I let a few more tears fall down my face and stain my jeans. Luckily my hair shielded me from everyone but I couldn't let any more tears fall. I doubt I would stop if I didn't.
"Are you ok Ally?" Bea asked me.
"No. Not really." I managed to get out.
"Let's get out of here." Megan said to us.
All three of us stood up and said bye. Neither Austin nor Cassidy said goodnight or bye or anything back. I didn't care that Cassidy didn't, I cared that my best friend didn't. I shouldn't be so surprise but I guess expected more from him. A lot more. He doesn't care anymore does he? He didn't even notice I was there! You'd think after how he blew me off he would at least pay a little bit of attention to me but I guess not. Blowing me off is one thing, but completely ignoring me is another. I wasn't sad anymore. No. I'm angry and hurt now. I don't deserve this. Nothing in the world could probably fix this.
We started walking away and I really tried to use all my will power but it wasn't enough. I looked back at him one last time even though I knew I'd regret it. I just needed to know that it's really happening and that maybe he still knows I'm here. My heart sunk when I looked at him. He was laughing and smiling with her, and not once did he look at me. I choked back a sob as reality really hit me. I was right. Regret filled every inch of my insides. I shouldn't have looked back because there was nothing promising about it. This just shows how naïve I am.
I looked forward again but I didn't walk tall. I slumped forward, completely depressed. What's going to happen to Austin and I now? I don't even want to think of the worst possibility because with the way my luck is going it'll be the final outcome.
"I thought I could handle it back there but I couldn't. I'm sorry guys." I apologized as we headed to our cabins.
"It's ok." Bea reassured.
"Don't worry Ally. He's going to get a little taste of all the misery he has put you through tomorrow." Megan added.
"Good." I replied.
I would usually feel guilty or bad for doing these kinds of things but this time I'm not. He's not going to know what hit him tomorrow.
Ok so this is your back to back chapter and next chapter will be the beach night event! I promise the next one won't be so sad. I know this is a lot of heartache in one chapter but Ally is going to give him a taste of his own medicine! Also I know a lot of you want Ally to get a love interest but I'm sorry to say it's not going to happen in my story. I feel like it's not very realistic. At least from personal experience when I liked a guy and he didn't like me I definitely didn't try to distract myself or make him jealous by hanging out with other guys. Don't worry though because this story will have a happy ending. Also please follow me on my social media sights! I'm super close, like ten away from 1.4k on instagram so I'd really appreciate a follow!
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