Following his silence Nancy had turned away from him and was now fighting tears, Andy could see her form shaking slightly. He sighed and got up to put his hands on her shoulders in an attempt to comfort her. She spun around immediately throwing her arms around him sobbing quietly into his chest. "Hey, hey, sh, I´m here, I´m right here!", he heard himself say. His heart went out to her. He had caused her so much pain the first time around, didn`t she deserve something better this time or in general for that matter?She was carrying their child for heaven`s sake and his precious little girl deserved everything he could possibly give her.
That night Andy finally had no other choice than to spend it in bed next to Nancy at least if he didn´t want to provoke another argument or more tears. It felt strangely familiar and yet incredibly odd to have her snuggled up next to him fast asleep. It just didn`t want to feel right, as he closed his eyes his mind drifted off to Sharon. How many times had he imagined her head against his chest, his nose buried deep in her hair and her scent intoxicating him throughout this last year. He had almost become dependent on their little dinners, their endless talks, her ability to soothe his rage attacks with a few calming words, gestures or even just looks. Where was she now? Whatever happened to her after this dreadful scene? If this was his past, would it be hers too? Was she out there too,possibly pregnant with Emily and (worst of all) married to Jack? The thought alone made his whole body tense and caused Nancy to shift a little with a complaining hum. In an attempt to calm down he forced himself to think back to 2 days ago. He felt like on his first date when he went to pick her up that night. Louis had done his best trying to convince him of the inevitable failure of this undertaking and they had gotten into a major argument about it but in the end Andy had just walked away leaving him bickering on his own. He thought it was kind of cute how Provenza tried to disguise his so very obvious jealousy. Andy just had to tell Sharon the truth about his feelings and was hoping he had read her signs correctly and that the confession would end up being mutual. He loved her, he had never been more certain about anything in his life and he was more than ready to commit to her and to them whole heartedly. It was nothing like the exciting, all light headed carefreeness and strong physical attraction he rushed into with Nancy, but a feeling of coming home after a long exhausting journey, a warmth that wrapped itself around him like a comfortable blanket,for the first time in his life he felt grounded and the thought of losing that for good made his heart ache.