PRESENT
"And don`t you dare show up here again before you´ve had a decent amount of sleep", "I´ll do my best Lieutenant and you make sure you call me the minute something changes!" "Of course Captain , now try to get some rest and I´ll see you in the morning! Don´t worry, I won´t let him out of my sight!" Before Sharon could say anything else Provenza had hung up. She let out a shaky breath before plugging her phone in to charge. She really didn´t want to leave the hospital but the older man had practically ordered her to go home. She hated to admit it but he was right, she was physically and emotionally exhausted and so she, Nicole and Provenza had agreed on taking turns watching over Andy. Looking at her reflection in her bathroom mirror she became aware of all the dry blood in her hair. A shower was long overdue! While the hot water washed over her drained body colored pink by all the washed out blood she saw Andy´s lifeless body in front of her once again. She suddenly felt stone cold despite the current temperature of the shower. There was nothing she could have done, it all happened so quickly: her hand in his, the dark blue SUV driving by, two shots, Andy tumbling to the ground….fear had a lock on her heart once again. She couldn`t lose him, she just couldn`t. She couldn`t lose her friend, her confidante, her rock, her shoulder to cry on. In a situation like this he would have held her steady, put her back on her feet or simply held her while she had a good cry. He would have smiled and there would have been golden sparks in his kind brown eyes, he would have brushed a strand of hair from her forehead and told her that it would be alright . For once in her life she felt secure and cherished and…. loved. There, now it was out, she had finally dared to admit it to herself. She was sure that he was going to tell her exactly that but she wasn`t sure that she was truly ready to hear it. And now she might never hear it…she shook her head vehemently. She needed to stop this line of thinking, he would wake up, he was stubborn enough to not give up without a fight, he wouldn`t just leave her, he had promised as much!