Can I just say that I am a horrible human being. I'm really sorry that I didn't update for you guys before I went camping. Honestly I kind of just got lazy and didn't finish the chapter like I wanted to … but if it makes you feel better I was going to write and post a one shot from my phone while I was camping but I couldn't because I didn't have any service where I was. So I beg for your forgiveness and hope you aren't too mad at me. I love you guys!
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"Good morning everyone!" one of the many camp leaders Darren, greeted us a little too perky for the early morning hour.
All of us were in the lobby of the main cabin, ready for the day.
"The younger campers will be arriving in about ten minutes. You all know your jobs with helping them get settled in, correct?" Darren asked.
We all nodded yes. Megan, Bea and I were in charge of giving the campers of ages ten to twelve their cabin numbers when they checked in. I didn't know what Austin was doing, but I had a good suspicion that it was with Cassidy. I wouldn't be the slightest bit surprised if that were the case.
"Alright then, let's get going!" Were Darren's final words before we all scattered to where we were required to be.
The first of Campers started to roll in not much longer after that. We greeted each and every one of the younger ones with warm smiles. Our job was fairly easy but we were still making sure we didn't screw anything up.
I looked up from the clip board my eyes had been glued on for the past twenty minutes to see Austin and Cassidy just outside the main cabin greeting and directing the campers inside. Well actually, it was mostly Austin doing all that. Cassidy seemed to be annoyed by the little kids and paid no attention to them. She was glued to her phone which was no surprise to me. But I felt bad that Austin was doing all the work by himself. I'd kill to be working with Austin right now. It's an excuse to be alone with him. Although I'm sure she'd use her wicked ways to make that impossible.
Despite my current state of annoyance and anger, Austin made that all go away. I watched him hug and high five and smile at all the little campers that came past him, and the way he made each one of them light up had my heart melting at an extremely fast pace. He was possibly the sweetest guy on earth, which is pretty ironic since he's dating the most evil person I've ever met, just saying. But the point is, he is great with little kids and I really love that about him. He may not be the smartest when it came to love and relationships, but he was a genius when it came to the little guys. Maybe he's so good with them because he too is also a kid at heart. But whatever the reason, he's able to make any sad kid laugh and smile in an instant, kind of like what he does with me. And it makes me think he'll make a great dad one day.
I found myself smiling like an idiot at the scenes that played out before me. But what really got me was when Austin took a quick glance my way and smiled at me too. His smile was seriously something else. I blushed a little bit when he waved at me and I felt my heart skip a beat or two. But his attention was pulled away from me to Cassidy when she started tugging on his shirt like an annoying six year old brat. I rolled my eyes at her. She's horrible, and Austin is the only one who can't see that.
I allowed myself to watch a little while longer before going back to doing my job. My patience for Cassidy was really wearing thin. I don't know how much more of her I can handle before I loose it.
A loud scream pulled me from my not so nice thoughts.
"Ally!"
I looked up to see Emily, one of the younger campers who basically idolized me.
I instantly smiled, laughing a little as she dropped all her bags and ran towards me. She attacked me with a hug, squeezing the near life out of me. The impact made me loose my balance a little but I quickly regained it.
"How is my favorite little camper?" I asked with a light laugh.
"Really excited to see you!" she cheered, continuing to squeeze me.
I guess you can say I'm not the only one good with little kids. Emily is ten now, but about two years ago when she first came here she insisted on only me helping her with things. I'm not sure why but since then she's become really attached to me, and it's kind of flattering if I'm being honest. Emily is basically a mini me, and everyone at camp agrees with that statement.
"Look at you! You're getting so tall, and you get even prettier every time see you." I stated.
"Well I am ten now." she said in agreement.
I couldn't help but laugh. One thing about Emily is that she is pretty straight up. She says what she wants and it's really cute. It's like she's a twenty year old woman trapped inside a ten year old body sometimes.
"And I'll never be as pretty as you Ally." She frowned a little.
"Why thank you, but you practically look exactly like me, so technically you are the same amount of pretty as I am." I said matter-of-factly.
"I can't disagree with that one." She replied with a shrug of the shoulders.
"We can catch up later, ok. You should probably go to your cabin and get settled, which according to this clip board says you're in number twenty three." I told her.
"Ok!" she cheered before skipping to her bags and off to her cabin.
"She loves you so much, it's really cute." Bea laughed.
"Agreed." Megan chimed in, laughing also.
"What can I say, she's just so precious." I smiled.
"Besides, I need a little positivity in my life to distract from the Cassidy situation." I sighed heavily.
"Things would be a lot simpler if you just gave her the punch she deserves." Megan shrugged.
I gave her a look of annoyance, crossing my arms in front of my chest.
"I'm just saying." She said, putting her hands in the air defensively.
I shook my head at her and rolled my eyes.
"Trust me, I would have punched her a long time ago but I haven't because I'm his friend. And I'd like to stay his friend if I can't be more than that." I told her with a warning tone.
"Well speaking of friends, Austin is heading this way at ten o'clock." Bea smirked.
I looked up to see that he in fact was headed this way. I admit it was exciting but also a little strange. Shouldn't Cassidy be making sure he pays attention to nothing but her?
"Hey Als." He smiled at me as he approached the table us three girls were seated at. He placed his hands on the table's surface, leaning forward on it which helped bring his face closer to mine.
I glanced over at the girls to see them pretending to be hard at work although I knew they were secretly eaves dropping on us.
"Hi." I smiled back.
"So what do I owe the pleasure of Austin Moon coming over to talk to me?" I joked.
He laughed and my heart did its crazy thing it's been doing ever since I got to camp.
"Well I was wondering if you wanted to go a canoe ride with me later?" he asked hopefully.
I knew Bea and Megan were internally screaming and to be honest I was too. In ways, this is kind of like him asking me on a date, right? But then I looked over at Cassidy, and to say the least she was really pissed. Her glare was piecing through my skin and her face was so red with anger that a tomato would envy her.
You stay away or I'll make the rest of your time here a living hell and I'll make sure Austin and this whole camp knows about your pathetic and obsessive little crush on him. Those aren't even the worst of what I can do to you.
Cassidy's threats echoed in my thoughts. As much as I want to go with him, I have to decline.
"I'm sorry Austin but I can't tonight." I lied through shaky breaths.
The look on his face broke my heart into a thousand little pieces.
"Why not?" he asked, his voice filled with sadness.
"I promised Emily we would catch up." It wasn't a complete lie.
"Oh." was all he could say.
"Maybe some other night." I suggested, carefully placing my hand on top of his in hopes to comfort.
"Yeah." He nodded although he still had that sad look plastered all over his face.
He pulled his hand away and I couldn't bear to look at him anymore. This was just too painful. I wish he knew that this wasn't the case, and that I'd do anything with him in a heartbeat. God he was killing me here.
I reached back out, grabbing his hand again.
"It's ok Ally, I understand." He said.
I was at a loss for words, but could you blame me? What was I supposed to say?
I watched his fingers slip from my grip as his hand dropped down to join his side. This time I didn't try to fight for his hand again. What was the point?
He made his way back over to join Cassidy in one of his many embraces. I felt my heart swell, and not in a good way as I saw his arm go around Cassidy's waist. She knew I was watching and she knew I was hurting but that didn't stop the forceful kiss she planted on his lips right before my eyes. That was enough to fuel tears to my eyes.
"Oh Ally, I'm so sorry." Bea said.
"This isn't fair." I stated.
The anger in my voice was now present and I felt my hands instinctively clench into fists as the anger swelled inside me.
"I know, Ally. I know." Megan said as she pulled me into a comforting hug.
But she didn't know. No one knows what this is like for me. They don't have to avoid him like I do. They don't have to live in constant fear that they'll lose their best friend to someone else. They don't feel the pain I have to every time he looks at me. And they don't have to watch the guy they love fall for the wrong girl.
Oh my gosh.
I just said that I love Austin.
Well, do I? I don't know much of anything these days. But I know that's a lie. Its past this I might like him thing now and as much as I want to deny it, I don't think I can. Who am I to know what love is though? I'm only sixteen. And I've had such little experience with the opposite gender with my total of two boyfriends in my life time, so I can't possibly know what love is. Liking him has caused more than enough pain. I can't imagine what loving him is going to do to me.
Ally Dawson why did you have to have an insanely attractive best friend with about as much clue as a piece of paper? Oh wait that's right, because I'm no better. Only someone as stupid as me would think they're in love with their best friend, but in all stupidity, it's true.
My life is seriously a mess.
Ok I'm sorry this is so short but I will make the next update a lot longer. I just wanted to give you guys something to hold you off until I can give you something really good. This was more of a filler chapter. Thank you for reading and being so patient. Please review and tell me what you loved about this update! You guys are great and I love you all so much! Also on a side note, my birthday is in less than a month which means my trip to Atlanta to see R5 is soooo close! I'm so excited to finally meet them, but I'm also really nervous!
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