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*With Austin*
Boy did I ever fuck things up.
Ally is leaving today and it's my fault. I'm just hiding away in my cabin, caught up in my thoughts. I don't want to go out there knowing that she's leaving for good. I'm so ashamed that I'm the cause of all of this. I drove her away and now she hates me! I've hurt her so badly and I'm such an idiot. No, I'm the biggest asshole ever. Megan and Bea are right; I don't deserve to call Ally my best friend. Well now I can't even call her that anymore because of what happened last night.
"I'm really sorry, but I don't think we can be friends anymore."
Everything that she had said to me last night hasn't stopped replaying in my head. Her words echoed in my crazy mind, and it was starting to drive me completely insane. The wounds of her words were still fresh on my heart and haven't stopped bleeding. I can't believe I let things get so sour between us. And I can't believe she's just giving up on us. It's just I thought things were really ok after our hang out day. She even said so herself! I guess she's just really good at hiding how she truly feels.
"I don't care that you have a girlfriend, I care that you so quickly forgot about me and ignored me and treated me like I didn't even exist as soon as she came around!"
I wish she would have said something a lot sooner, before things had to come to this. God, she probably tried countless of times to tell me but I just have to be so clueless! She'll never forgive me and I don't blame her. I wouldn't want to forgive me after all the things I've done. I got so caught up with Cassidy that I let our friendship fall apart. If things were the other way around, and she had gotten a boyfriend this summer instead of me and just starting blowing me off for him like I did to her I'd be so mad. I wouldn't have been able to stay quiet like she did. Ally has to be a saint or an angel or something so pure because no one has that much will power. Only she can throw away all of her feelings just to make others happy.
"I-I like you, Austin. I like you a lot. I've liked you ever since the start of camp but you're too blind to see."
This was the most reoccurring thought for me. Ally, my best friend of seven years, told me she likes me. I am blind as hell alright. As if things couldn't get more complicated right now. I know I'm with Cassidy but I'm beyond confused about everything! And Ally is still caught up on all this Cassidy stuff and I don't understand! I want to believe the things she's telling me, I really do! But it's so hard when I've seen nothing she's told me about. I wish this wasn't so confusing. I don't know who to trust or what to believe anymore. I don't even know what to feel anymore.
"I wish it didn't have to be like this, but it's the best for my heart and it's the best for you and Cassidy. Trust me this hurts me a lot more right now than it hurts you."
Oh, I so begged to differ. This hurts me a lot more than she'll ever know. I now know what having your heart ripped out feels like, and I totally deserve every ounce of pain. She went through this every god damn day and stayed so strong. It's been probably fourteen hours for me and I'm whining like a little baby. It sure didn't feel like it's for the best. I think this might be for the worst. But out all the pain, what hurts the most is that I can't change her mind. She forever hates me and is leaving in a few hours for good. Our friendship, everything, it's all over. I more than messed up. I don't even know what this qualifies as. I just destroyed the best thing I've ever had and I should have been more grateful for her.
A bang on the door interrupted all my sour thoughts.
"Go away!" I groaned from my bed.
"Austin, open up!"
"We know you're in there!"
Those two annoying voices could only belong to Megan and Bea. Now couldn't have been a worse time. I don't want to talk to anybody. But I know they're persistent and aren't going away until I answer the door. I rolled over and slumped my way out of bed. I lazily walked to the door very annoyed.
"What do you want?" I asked as I opened the door.
There in front of me stood two very unimpressed girls.
"Dude, you were supposed to convince her to stay! So why is she still packed to go for today?" Megan asked.
"Because she's really leaving." I stated sadly.
I ran my hands through my hair repeatedly. I didn't like the fact that the statement was so true.
"What happened to you?" Bea asked, referring to the depressing state I was in.
A lot has happened to me. Like the fact that I no longer have a best friend who just so happens to like me a lot. I have no idea what to say right now. How do I explain what's happened without breaking some more? I stopped running my hands through my hair and started fiddling with the hem of my shirt. I was so nervous and agitated and confused and so many emotions mixed into one that it hurt like hell.
They were growing really impatient watching me try to distract myself from my own thoughts. I took a shaky breath before finding the strength to tell them everything on my mind.
"Last night when I went to go talk to her a lot of unexpected things happened. One minute I was telling her to stay and then she was yelling at me for being an ass. She told me everything and you guys are right, I'm a real jerk. I've hurt her so badly and somehow she still likes me after what I've done. " I told them although I'm sure they already know about these things.
"Listen Austin, you need to stop moping around here and pull it together! Ally is leaving in a couple more hours, there's still plenty of time." Megan informed me.
"Plenty of time for what?" I grumbled.
It's useless. I can't change her mind; it's been made up for a while now.
"To go stop her from leaving! God Ally is right, you are so clueless." Bea shouted at me.
"It's no use. She doesn't want to talk to me and she broke off our friendship. I can't face her even if I wanted to." I said.
"We didn't want to do this because we thought you would have figured it out by now but I guess once an idiot always an idiot, right?" Megan asked.
I'm pretty sure it was rhetorical so I didn't answer but I was slightly offended.
"What do you mean?" I asked her as she pulled out her phone.
"Ally wasn't making that stuff up about Cassidy, and I know your idiot factor has kicked in and you refuse to just go off her words on it. You want proof well I've got proof and lots of it too." Megan said.
"Just watch this." Bea told me as she handed me the phone.
The video started off with me and Cassidy talking.
"Austin I forgot my sweater over by the benches, could you go get it for me please?"
"Sure thing, babe. Be right back."
I recognized where this was from. This was taken at the night of the scavenger hunt. But why? I didn't understand. It's just Cassidy talking me and that's nothing bad.
"Why are you showing me this?" I asked them.
"Just keep watching." Megan told me.
That sure didn't answer my question but I turned my attention back to the small screen, curious anyways. What I heard next really shocked me. It didn't even sound real. I think my heart had stopped as her words registered through my mind correctly.
"I hope you're staying away from Austin like I told you to."
"And I hope you get an even spray tan next time you're at the salon."
"Whatever. Trash me all you want but we all know who's in control here. I can have Austin turn against you a lot faster you think."
Oh my god. OH MY GOD! I'm not sure what to think right now. I know this is real but it sure doesn't sound like the Cassidy I'm in a relationship with. I rewinded the video back a bit just to make sure I didn't accidently miss hear anything.
"I hope you're staying away from Austin like I told you to."
"And I hope you get an even spray tan next time you're at the salon."
"Whatever. Trash me all you want but we all know who's in control here. I can have Austin turn against you a lot faster you think."
That actually came out of Cassidy's mouth. I thought she'd never hurt a fly let alone talk so venomously.
"Is this real?" I asked them with a lot of confusion.
"Oh it's real." Bea nodded.
"Keep watching it gets better!" Megan smiled sarcastically.
I wish I could have not kept watching. It actually hurt to listen to this right now.
"You know what? You're a real bitch."
"Oh honey, tell me something I don't know."
"That's it!"
According to the video, Megan went on to hit her but Ally and Bea held her back. Cassidy shrieked in response, obviously scared. None of this makes any sense right now.
"You better tell your friends to watch it."
This all seemed so wrong. I've never heard her talk like this. She's so sweet! Well she used to be. This video isn't lying and I'm not going to deny what's right in front of me. Ally was right all along.
"You deserve every bit of what's coming to you."
"Sweetie this isn't my first rodeo. I'm still the reigning champion and I never lose one these fights."
She started to laugh, but it wasn't the lovely sounding one I always here. This one was so different. It sounded so… wicked. And not like her at all. It really scared me.
Shortly after she finished her laugh I arrived back with her sweater. The video ended right after that, a notification popping up asking if I wanted to replay it. I hit no.
"There's a lot more where that came from." Megan said as I handed her back his phone.
"You better believe us now! We swear this is all true and if you need to watch all the videos to believe it then fine." Bea added.
"I-I, wow." I stuttered out.
What am I supposed to say that? This is way too much for one person to process!
"Spit it out pretty boy!" Megan sarcastically encouraged me.
"I had no idea. I thought she was a great girl, but wow. But now…" I stated in shock.
"She played all of us all like a violin. Well everyone but Megan and I…" Bea trailed off.
"I don't even know if our entire relationship was real now." I admitted a little hurt.
"Now do you believe Ally?" Megan asked.
Oh god, Ally. She put up with all of this and I didn't even know let alone care! I'm a horrible person and an even worse best friend.
"This makes my mess up a million times worse! God is it even legal to be as much of a jerk as I am?! I should have believed her when she first told me. I was so stupid to think she'd ever lie to me!" I confessed, angry at myself now.
"Well to be fair Cassidy took influence on your judgments. And there's the fact that you're an idiot teenage boy." Bea tried to make me feel better but it came out making me feel worse.
"I need to find Ally. I need to find Cassidy!" I started babbling in a panicked voice.
"Austin calm down!" Megan slapped my arm to shut me up but it didn't work too well.
"No! I think I might like Ally too and I've just messed it all up!" I blurted out.
Wait. Did I just say what I think I said out loud? I bit my tongue but it was too late. Good one, Austin.
"You finally admit it and we're the people you tell it to?! Seriously man?!" Megan exclaimed with wide eyes.
I somehow had forgotten how to speak. My own statement had left me in a major state of shock. I do like Ally. I've always had a small crush on her, especially when we were younger. It was nothing huge, I've just always thought she was cute and she still is. But as we got older I found it'd be best to just push them away before they developed into something I couldn't control. Being friends with her has always been easy; I didn't want to ruin that. Kind of too late for that now though because I've done a lot more than ruin what we have.
"Just go and do the right thing before it's too late." Bea advised me.
I nodded my head, finally understanding something today.
"I've got to end things with Cassidy and then find Ally!" I stated, letting out a long sigh.
"Maybe you're not such an idiot after all!" Megan smiled.
"Normally I'd be offended but I owe you guys a big thank you. If it weren't for you two I would have let Ally walk away and still be thinking Cassidy is innocent. I'm so sorry you guys." I told them, my voice suddenly sincere.
"Don't apologize to us, apologize to Ally!" Bea exclaimed.
"But you're welcome!" Megan chimed in.
I laughed a little and it felt good. I haven't laughed at all these past few days. But enough moping around! I need to make things right again.
"Good luck!" they shouted as I ran off to find Cassidy.
I was definitely going to need it.
I ran to her cabin first but she wasn't there. I was in too much of hurry to ask anyone if they had seen her, so I just kept running around like a mad man. I eventually found her down by the lake with a few other girls I didn't know too well.
Here goes nothing!
"Cassidy!" I shouted to get her attention as I approached her.
She saw me and waved, sending me a smile that made me feel sick to my stomach.
"Hey baby, what's up?" She greeted, snaking her arm around me for a hug.
I immediately pulled her hand away and she looked at me with a confused expression.
"Don't hey baby me." I said a little disgusted.
"Is everything ok?" she asked me.
I rolled my eyes at her. God she sure knows how to put on an act.
"No, it's not." I started.
"Well what's wrong?" she tried to grab my hand but I pulled it away. The last thing I wanted was for her to touch me and give me fake comfort.
"I know everything you've said and done to Ally and because of you she's about to leave camp for good." I finished a little bitter.
Her eyes went wide for a second but she quickly recomposed herself.
"I'm sorry I'm not sure what you're talking about?" she said to me, pretending to be clueless.
"Quit the act Cassidy. I've seen you're true colors and they aren't pretty." I told her with, my words colder than ice.
"Austin, listen to yourself! Did Ally tell you this because it's not true!" she tried to convince me.
I don't know who she was trying to convince but it definitely isn't working on me.
"Stop lying to me!" I yelled in frustration.
She seemed taken aback my tone.
"Austin c'mon, I love you." she said as she grabbed my arm again. She leaned in to try and kiss me but I pushed her off before she was even close to my lips. I can't believe I've kissed the girl who's hurt my best friend.
"Why are you still embarrassing yourself?! I know everything so stop trying to convince me otherwise because it's not going to work!" I yelled at her again.
"Don't do this Austin." She started to fake cry and all I could do was shake my head at her. She is seriously awful.
"Cassidy, just give it a rest already! I saw plenty of proof and it was so awful that I can't even stand to look at you right now." I told her truthfully.
"You should believe me, I'm your girlfriend!" she protested.
"I can't be with someone who goes out and sabotages my friendships like you have. I don't believe you so I guess that doesn't make you my girlfriend anymore." I stated simply.
Everyone around us was watching and listening now but I didn't care. She's the one who had to create a show; I'm just going to be the one to finish it. People were clearly enjoying it. She deserved a little humiliation after all that she's done to Ally. She isn't going to scheme or lie her way out of this one.
"You don't know what you're saying! It's Ally you should be calling a liar not me!" she yelled.
"You know I actually liked you but I don't even know who you are anymore. Did our relationship even mean anything to you?" I asked her.
"O-of course!" she stuttered, obviously lying straight to my face.
Just as I had suspected, and I'm not all that surprised.
"You're a fraud and should feel ashamed of yourself. We're through." I told her harshly.
She stood there in total shock. Her mouth was wide open and she looked beyond pissed.
"I-I never get dumped! I ALWAYS break up with the other person!" she shrieked.
"There's a first time for everything right." I shrugged.
The look in her eyes became similar to the one she had in the video I had seen not too long ago.
"Well it's too late anyways. I've already won, like always! You may have dumped me but you can't convince Ally to stay!" she shouted at me.
"You're wrong. Because unlike you and me, Ally and I have something real between us. That's something you wouldn't know. I'm done talking to you." I shook my head at her.
"UGH!" she shrieked and kicked over the nearest thing next to her, which thankfully wasn't me.
"Now if you'll excuse me I need to go get my best friend back." I smiled.
She stormed off in the other direction, screaming and having a total fit. I didn't stay to watch like everyone else. That was the last thing I said to her before walking off to go find Ally.
It felt so good to finally be Cassidy free. She's crazy and I'm really stupid for thinking she was so great to begin with. I'm so disappointed that I didn't clue in to this on my own, because I really should of. And it hurts that I was in what I thought was a real relationship, but it turned out to be one huge lie. But now I can really fix things with Ally. I just don't know what I'm going to say or how I'm going to say it! I've got one chance left, and if I screw it up I'll never forgive myself for ruining things between us. Ally's right, she doesn't deserve this and I'm going to make sure she never feels this way again, even if it's the last thing I do.
FINALLY SOMETHING GOOD THAT YOU HAVE ALL BEEN HOPING FOR! IM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW! And I couldn't resist not giving you a second update today when you gave me 40 reviews for the last chapter! That's crazy! You guys seriously make me feel so loved! The amount of reviews that have been flooding in for the past few chapters are overwhelming, thank you. I hoped you liked Austin's POV but next chapter will be back to Ally as per usual. Tell me what you thought in the reviews and thank you for reading! Love you guys so much :)
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