An eensy weensy little chapter tonight – just something to hold you over for a few days as I'm crazy busy at work. Hope you enjoy and thanks to my lovely reviewers. I may not have a chance to reply to everyone for a few days but I greatly appreciate those who take the time to comment. Thank you.

Everyone went out for lunch after the ceremony to celebrate the wedding. Jane had received hugs from both Wayne and Grace and a slap on the shoulder from Cho – the equivalent of a hug from anyone else. Teresa, of course, got hugs and kisses from everyone.

Over lunch there was a lot of laughter and reminiscing about old times – and a lot of teasing. Although Jane smiled, and even laughed when appropriate, he was unusually quiet the rest of the time. Such was the joy of the event that no one even noticed.

During most of the meal he sat and listened to his friends and – his wife – talk about old times. He also played with his ring, twisting and turning it on his finger. He glanced down at it and frowned. Why did it feel so strange? He'd only stopped wearing a ring a few months ago, but this one felt different, felt foreign.

He twisted it again but this time he looked at it closely. He'd been surprised when the priest had called for the exchange of rings. Cho had calmly handed him one for Teresa. He'd looked surprised but had accepted it. A moment later Grace had handed its pair to Teresa and she had put it on his finger.

He'd almost jerked his hand away but fortunately had stopped himself. He was pretty sure that Teresa hadn't noticed. He felt horrible about it but the reaction had been instinctive. He'd worn Angela's ring for over twenty years and it somehow felt – not wrong exactly – but odd to be wearing a new one.

This one was very different then the simple gold one he'd worn before. It was titanium – black, with a silver band down the middle. He was pretty sure that Teresa had intentionally chosen something very different from the one he'd had before, and he was grateful for that. He twisted it again, trying to get used to again having a woman's ring on his finger.

He'd wanted this more than anything, so was confused and frightened by the ambivalent feelings that were coursing through him. They had only hit after the ceremony, after everyone had congratulated them and they were on their way to lunch.

He swallowed, hating the feeling, hating that he couldn't simply rejoice in the fact that he was married to the woman he loved. He hated it. Right then he hated himself. He closed his eyes briefly and felt a wash of guilt stronger than any he'd felt in months. He felt like he'd betrayed both Angela and Teresa.

"Are you okay?" Teresa whispered to him at the moment Cho was teasing Rigsby over something.

"Hmm?" he smiled. "Of course. Just a bit – overwhelmed."

"I know", she nodded. "Me too." She reached out and took his hand and clasped it – the hand with the ring. Again he almost pulled away. Again he stopped himself.

This was Teresa. He would rather die than hurt her and he knew she would be hurt if she had any idea of what he was feeling right then. He had to do everything in his power to make sure she never found out. With a small breath in he turned to Wayne.

"So, Rigsby, how are the rugrats? Still have you wrapped around their fingers?"

Of course that kept the conversation going for quite a while, as there was nothing Wayne liked more than to talk about his kids. He could feel Teresa's eyes on him every once in a while, but managed to keep his expression looking interested and happy.

After few minutes he excused himself and headed towards the bathroom. It wasn't until he got there that he allowed himself to almost collapse. He began to breathe quickly and had to bend over slightly, the feeling of panic overwhelming him.

What the hell was wrong with him? Why did he feel so terrified? He took a few more breaths but still felt dizzy and nauseated. He eventually made it to the sink and splashed water on his face.

"You okay?"

He stood up quickly and there was Cho, looking at him in concern but not surprise.

"Huh? I'm fine, just a bit -" his voice faded out and he closed his eyes. He didn't even have the strength to lie.

"Scared?" Cho asked gently

He gave a bitter laugh. "Oh yeah." He took another breath. "I'm an idiot, I know."

"No, you're not an idiot. You just took a big step and it's normal to feel panicked. I know I would."

"You? Do you ever panic?"

"Of course."

"Did she notice?"

"Teresa? I don't think so. You did a pretty good job of hiding it."

"So what gave me away", he snorted.

"Your hands. Teresa was too close but I could see them."

"Shaking?"

"Oh yeah."

He grabbed a paper towel and slowly wiped off his face. "What the hell is wrong with me?" he asked softly. "I love her so much and yet I feel so guilty."

"About what?"

"I feel like – like I've betrayed Angela – and even thinking that makes me feel like I'm betraying Teresa."

There was silence for a moment as Cho regarded the other man. "Do you regret it?"

"What?"

"Marrying Teresa? If you could would you undo it?"

"Regret it?" Jane thought seriously for a moment. He thought about not having Teresa in his life, he thought about there being no baby. He then thought about what his life would be like if he walked away at this moment. No, he couldn't do that. Life wouldn't be worth living if Teresa wasn't in it.

"No. No I wouldn't. When she asked me – I – it was the happiest I'd been in a long time. And when I saw her walk to me and I heard the priest's words I felt like -"

"Like what?" Kimball asked quietly.

Jane's face broke into a crooked smile, although his eyes were wet with tears. "Like I'd received redemption."

The other man just nodded. "And the fear set in afterward?"

Jane nodded, although he didn't speak. He still felt strangely fragile.

"Jane, this was an emotional day for you. Of course you're feeling mixed emotions. It's natural. You'll probably feel the same when the baby comes. But if you know, in your heart, that this is right and that you love each other then you belong together. It will be okay, I'm sure of it, and believe me, if I think that then you know it's right. Just don't beat yourself up for how you're feeling. You have a total right to feel the way you do. This is a big step."

"Yeah", he let out a slow breath "I know you're right and I really wouldn't change anything, even if I could. I just – wasn't expecting this. Don't tell Teresa, okay? I don't want her to know about this. I don't want to spoil her day."

"Of course not, although you get to explain what we've been doing here so long."

Jane let out a crack of laughter. "I could tell them I was showing you a magic trick?"

"In the bathroom. I'd have to shoot you if you tell them that."

He laughed again and gave Cho a slap on the shoulder. "Thanks."

"Yeah, just don't make a habit of it. I have more than reached my quota of supportive man-friend moments this year. It's worse than shooting someone."

Jane was chuckling as he made his way back to the table. He still felt emotional and unsure of himself, but Cho had managed to help calm him down quite a bit. He put everything in perspective, which was exactly what he'd needed.

"You two okay?" Teresa frowned as the two men returned.

"Hmm?" he leaned over and kissed her on the lips. "Fine. Cho met a guy he used to know and we were chatting."

"Really?" Wayne glanced at his former partner as he sat down. "Who was it?"

"Who was who?" Cho asked.

"The guy you met. Jane said you ran into someone you used to know."

"I think he was an old gang buddy of Cho's", Jane added seriously. "One whole side of his face was tattooed with a big butterfly."

"A butterfly tattoo? Really?" Rigsby looked at him with interest. "Was it someone from your former gang?"

Cho shrugged. "No. He went to the same dance class as a former girlfriend of mine. He's actually gay and he was hitting on Jane. I decided to stay and protect him."

"Who? The guy or Jane?" Grace asked with a grin.

Teresa laughed at that and Jane gave a small smile, appreciating the distraction.

"Should I be jealous?" Teresa asked him, tongue in cheek.

"No", he put his arm around her. "I'm all yours."

She sighed and leaned her head on him. "Yes you are."

Jane looked up at Cho and gave a small nod, signaling his thanks. He reached for Teresa's hand and once again clasped it in his own. The fear and panic slowly started to leave and it was being replaced by a gentle quietness. He was embarking on a new life and yes, it was frightening, but he knew it was right. He leaned over and kissed Teresa on the temple.

"What was that?" she smiled up at him.

"Just happy to be wearing your ring", he whispered softly.

Cho smiled.