"Can you take me to see my friends?" Remus asked Lily, hating the stony way she looked at him. Merlin, it was difficult to look at a face of a beloved and well-missed friend only to see anger. Remus was sitting in yet another room, now separated from both Regulus and Remus. Lily didn't answer him, and Remus assumed that that meant a solid no.
"I really am sorry that we appeared like this," he tried. "We wouldn't of had we could help it." He still received no response from her. Remus couldn't help but compare her to the Lily he had known when she was alive. His Lily had been quick to show her feelings. Not too long ago, he had assumed the same about this Lily. Now he wasn't so sure. His Lily wouldn't have been able to ignore him like this one could.
"Please, Lily. Talk to me. I don't know what's happening here, but we need to fix it," Remus tried one last appeal. "Can you at least tell me what happened here?" Finally, he managed to get Lily's attention with that. Lily stiffened and whipped around to face him.
"Do you really think that I'd tell you anything?" she hissed. "I'm loyal to Regulus. You won't get me to whisper his secrets into your ear just because you look like Remus, just because you think I'm weaker than the others? Do you really think that all you have to do is ask me and I'll run to you like you're him?" Lily's voice had progressed into a yell, and she struck Remus in the shoulder, hard.
"I – Lily… I don't know what you're talking about," Remus said. His eyes were wide from the shock of Lily hitting him and yelling as she had. He couldn't help but wonder how she believed Remus had wronged her. Or had it been Remus? When they had first met Regulus, he'd accepted pretty quickly that Sirius had sent them, not actually being too surprised by their appearance at all. Perhaps he wasn't the first 'Remus' that Lily had met.
Remus couldn't help but feel sick that Sirius stooped so low in this world as to polyjuice his attackers into lost loved ones. But surely, as McGonagall hadn't been able to change their appearance, the others had to accept that that hadn't been true.
"Why did Sirius go dark?" He tried asking Lily. Despite her anger and silence, Remus found that he too many questions to give her the silence she wished for. She would have to either answer or ignore him, he figured. After all, she was the one keeping him from the others so she was the only one whom he could ask.
"You're not doing too well of a job playing Remus, you know," Lily said, still looking away from him. "Remus had tact."
"But also he has to protect his friends and find out what's going on," Remus told her, speaking in the third person. "You have information, and I need it. My friends – my family – is trapped here. And even worse, I have more friends and family trapped back at home."
"Who?" Lily asked skeptical of who he possibly had left behind. Remus understood her train of thought; almost everyone to whom he'd ever been close had traveled with him.
"My kid," Remus whispered. "My Teddy." Remus didn't mention Tonks. Couldn't mention Tonks, rather, as his throat closed up and prevented him from saying another word. He looked away from Lily, looking down, thinking of that little boy with the blue hair. Teddy loved everyone who held him. He'd grab one of their fingers and hold on tight. For such a small baby, he really had a pretty strong grip, Remus remembered.
Lily sprang at him, and Remus looked up just as her wand poked his throat. Swallowing hard, he stared at her sad, angry eyes, waiting for her to speak.
"You're not him," she whispered. "You've just proved it for me. You're not him." Remus didn't speak, wondering what he had said that had convinced Lily that he was lying but truly unwilling to test her when her wand was at his throat. "I should kill you for all you've done to us." Lily's wand jabbed at his throat, poking into the skin even further.
"I'm not your enemy, Lily," Remus tried. "I don't know what I said that told you otherwise."
"He never would have had a child," Lily said. "Never." Remus's heart sank as he realized where this was going. This Lily knew him well. Enough to know that the fear of passing his Lycanthropy to his son would have prevented him from having any children.
"He's not a werewolf," Remus said, feeling the small, familiar 'thank Merlin' that he wasn't. "Teddy isn't a werewolf."
"He never would have taken the chance," Lily snarled. "He wouldn't have risked it. He suffered too much from the disease."
"We didn't plan on him," Remus whispered. "I was terrified when I found out she was pregnant. I tried to convince her to get rid of it. She wouldn't. She refused."
"Who's she?" Lily hissed. "Who is this girl that fell in love with the wolf? Who's the girl that made the wolf fall in love with her?"
"Tonks," Remus breathed. "Nymphadora – though she hated the name." Lily pulled backwards from him, reeling from his words. Remus guessed that she knew Tonks. It made sense, considering in this world Andromeda most likely had been closer to Regulus than Sirius. Lily seemed hurt by his words, and he wondered why, wondering if there was more to it than just her Remus not being alive.
"Why would Tonks want you?" Lily said, her voice suddenly louder as it cracked through the tension of the room. "How did she know you?"
"She was in the Order of the Phoenix. She fought with me," Remus didn't try to answer why she fell for him. Honestly, he wasn't sure about that himself. He had tried to make her run, but each attempt had only brought her closer to him. That's how he knew that she truly loved him, and somewhere along the way, he realized that he truly loved her too. Remus reached into his jacket and pulled out the photo of Tonks and Teddy.
"We named him after Dora's father. Ted. He died not long before Teddy was born," Remus said. "I miss Teddy more than anything. He became my world, even as the world turned into a battlefield."
"Where is your Tonks now?" Lily hissed, her anger welling up again in her eyes. "If she loved you, then why isn't she with you now?" Lily shook his shoulder hard, and Remus just glimpsed what looked like tears beginning to form in her eyes.
"She's dead." Remus spoke softly. "My son is an orphan. And even now, I can't be with her." Lily's hand dropped off of his shoulder, jolted back as if physically shocked. Tears welled in her eyes, and she turned from him, looking towards the wall and only staring at the stone.
"Why did you come here?" she whispered. "Why do we deserve this again? Are you just to torture us, with ideas of what could have been? To kill us from the inside? It won't work, Remus. You won't defeat us." Lily seemed intent on protecting what she loved, who she loved, but she also seemed frozen, trying to protect the glass walls that protected her emotionally. Remus could see that she was falling apart. With his Lily, years ago, he could have offered to help pick her up. But looking at this strange, old, and tired Lily, he could hardly see the woman that he had known.
"I just want to go home," he whispered. "Teddy is going to die without us there. Without Harry, we lost the war. Voldemort has won."
"Well," she hissed. "Too bad you didn't have someone like Regulus to kill him for you then." And with those final, shocking words, Lily turned and nearly ran out of the room, the door banging behind her and a soft glow reflecting off the door, showing that a magical lock had been activated.
Well, Remus thought, at least he learned one thing.
The counterparts in this world were all crazier than the ones he knew. Merlin, he never would have imagined that possible.
Woahhhhh – two chapters. I really need to stop procrastinating on school.
