Chapter 14:

'I can't believe it's almost over' she thought calmly.

It was soon nearing the end of the courtship period and she will have to make her decision.

Should she follow her heart of her head.

If she follows her heart she would be happy but if she follows her head her heart will be safe.

"Kagome" she looked up and saw golden eyes looking down at her.

"Hello Inuyasha" she said averting her eyes back to the village.

They were both on top a hill that looked over the entire village. She loved it because it was quiet and peaceful.

"What are you thinking about" he asked sitting next to her.

"You know exactly what I'm thinking about" she sighed softly

"Did you atleast think about what I said" he asked seriously

***Flashback***

It was a warm starless night in Inuyasha's forest as our young confused miko sat against the God tree.

"Hey Kagome" said girl looked up and saw Inuyasha.

"What is it Inuyasha"

"I know you have feelings for both of them, and they're deep" he said sitting next to her.

"What do you care" she rolled her eyes. The two haven't been close since that fateful night.

"Look I know I messed up big time back then, and there is no excuse, but from what I see it worked out great for the both of us"

"AND HOW THE HELL DO YOU FIGURE THAT" she yelled furiously.

After that night, the two avoided each other at any cost and the subject was never brought up again so all the feelings she felt between than and now are starting to show, and right now was her breaking point.

"WHILE YOU'RE OFF WITH YOUR MATE HAVING A FAMILY I'M STUCK HERE WITH NO ONE MY FAMILY IS GONE I DON'T HAVE YOU AND NOW I'M SCARED I MAY NOT HAVE ANYONE BECAUSE I'M TOO AFRAID TO FOLLOW MY HEART BECAUSE NOTHING GOOD HAS EVER COME OUT OF THAT" by now she was panting and with tears streaming down her face.

She didn't want to be feel this way, especially now.

Her heart was racing and it was still broken and she feared it may never be completely fixed.

Inuyasha sat there calmly letting her get it out. He wasn't as stupid as others pegged him to be. He knew she was hurting but he also knew it wasn't a hundred percent his fault. And what he's about to say next may get him killed.

"Now you know how I felt for all those years"

He literally saw the last of her self control snap.

"Your heart says one thing but your mind is screaming for a safer choice, but when it comes to love it is never safe nor easy"

She became quiet and let out a dark laugh before looking him in the eyes.

What he saw scared the shit out of him but didn't show it.

It was her eyes. Her eyes were void of any and every emotion. There was nothing but darkness.

Figuratively and Literally.

"Oh and what would you know about love Inuyasha, you did nothing but lead me on for years only to throw me away in the end"

Her voice was cold but he still heard the hurt.

"And how the hell did I lead you on Kagome" he growled. He was tired of always being the bad guy "By protecting you, defending you, providing for you and keeping you safe because by your logic I suppose Miroku was also in love with you as well as Sango and the Old hag"

"HOW DARE YOU INUYASHA" she yelled as her body glowed a dark purple

"YOU ALWAYS CHASED OFF ANY SUITORS THAT CAME MY WAY MAKING IT SEEM AS IF YOU CARED" she yelled.

"THAT'S BECAUSE I DID CARE AND STILL DO KAGOME. NOT ONCE HAVE I EVER TOLD YOU THAT YOUR FEELINGS FOR ME WERE MUTUAL. AS FOR THE SUITORS, YOU DIDN'T WANT THEM SO I CHASED THEM OFF. I'M NOT AS DUMB AS YOU WANT ME TO BE. I KNEW YOU DIDN'T WANT HOBO NOR KOUGA BUT THEY STILL PERSISTED MAKING YOU STRESSED AND ANGRY SO YES I CHASED THEM OFF BECAUSE IF THEY COULDN'T RESPECT YOUR SPACE OR FEELINGS THAN THEY DAMN SURE WASN'T WORTH YOUR TIME AND HEART"

Right now he was just as pissed and angry. He hated how he was talking to her but damn it was for her own good and he wanted his friend back. He hated that they weren't talking anymore.

He sensed she was calming down and her glow disappeared and her eyes were back to normal.

"Than why didn't you tell me" she cried softly crumbling to her knees holding herself.

His eyes were softer and walked over to her holding her close to him.

"I did, but you wouldn't listen" he whispered "But I guess I should have been more clear"

All those times he left her for Kikyo.

All the arguments over their secret meetings and how she would catch them together.

It was obvious he didn't care in that way but her heart was taken and she didn't want to take it back from him.

When she thought about it, he was right. She saw a handsome guy who protected her countless times and being so young and dumb, she thought she loved him and that he loved her too.

She just didn't want to believe someone could love the dead more than her.

"Kagome, I do love you. You are my best friend, I would do anything for you because you have given me so much. You gave me life again, friends, taught me how to be selfless and compassionate"

He growled jokingly hearing her giggle at the last one.

"Ok so I'm still working on that one" he laughed softly.

She looked up and gave him a small smile before hugging him.

He hugged her back.

He missed this. He missed her. He missed their talks and fun.

It felt nice having it back.

"Thank you Inuyasha" she whispered.

"I'm always here when you need me"

"Good" with that she pulled away "because I don't know what to do" she said softly becoming sad once more.

"Kagome, love is a lot of things but is never easy" he sighed "Love is patience, compromise, communication but most of all it's risky. You may get your heart broken in the process but if it's true love, then it will be repaired by the same person and he will do anything to keep it whole"

She couldn't believe who was talking to her but kept quiet.

"A lot of people would settle out of fear and go for the safer choice, but I don't want you to do that" he made her look at her.

His eyes were serious as he spoke.

"I want you to follow your heart and choose the risky road because it will be worth it in the end. You say your heart has done nothing but hurt you yet it is because of your big heart that you feel whole again. You found where you belong and a family among all of us. We care about you and love you. It is because of your heart that you have a son that looks up to you. Its because of your heart that any of us are where we are today. Believe it or not Kagome, it's because of your heart that made us who we are, you just have to follow it and listen carefully when it talks to you. If you follow your head, than yes you will be happy but there will be a void in your heart that can only be filled by one person"

"Thank you Inuyasha" she smiled hugging him "when did you get so wise and mushy" she joked.

"Oh shut up wench" his eyes got big when she pulled away.

"Sit boy. . . I told you stop caling me that" she laughed and ran off back to her hut with an angry hanyou behind her.

And like that, a piece of her heart was repaired.

It was whole again.

"I have" she smiled.

"And" he questioned.

"Tomorrow is going to be an interesting day"