Infinity and Beyond
-Chapter 6-
Resistance
I gasp as I feel something dig into me. I want to cry, it hurts very badly. I feel very cold and my body won't stop shaking.
My nose feels like there's glue inside it, and it's hard to breathe. I'm scared. I want Michael, I miss him. "Michael, help me." I can still whimper very quietly.
I feel a hand on my cheek. "Shh. It'll be okay. I promise." Nikita's voice says quietly.
"Michael…" I can only whimper as I feel the tears roll down my cheeks. I want him to come and make me feel better.
I feel someone lying down next to me. I hope it's Michael. "Come here, sweetie." It's Nikita. She's hugging me warmly. "Try to get some sleep."
"It hurts." I feel more tears fall out of my eyes, but I'm glad she's beside me.
"It's going to get better soon." She kisses my forehead. "I love you, okay?"
My body won't stop shaking and I can't stop crying. Nikita continues hugging me as she hums quietly to me. I don't know how long it takes, but I do fall asleep.
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I hear a typing sound and a shaking sound. I feel a little bit better than before. My body doesn't hurt as much and I don't feel cold anymore. But my nose is still stuffy and I have a little bit of a headache.
I slowly open my eyes. Owen's on a bed beside me, I try not to look at him, he's even scarier than Nikita! I look to Nikita, who's typing on her computer again.
"Glad to see that you're awake, Owen." Nikita says. "Don't get up too fast. You got shot, remember?" She gets up from her chair and walks to a small table that's close by.
"Where am I?" I peek at him from under my blanket to see that he's looking at the ceiling. I look up there too, but I don't see anything.
"We're at my safe house." Nikita says. "You've been in and out of consciousness for 48 hours since we got back from Montreal."
"I took out Percy's bullet." She shakes a silvery bowl that has a tiny, hard thing inside it. "If you don't mind, I also removed your tracking implant." She puts the bowl down beside his bed. "Division can't find you here. You lost a lot of blood—"
Nikita grunts as Owen grabs her arm and kicks her down onto his bed. He presses a leg onto her neck to choke her. Nikita gasps as she can't breathe.
I find myself crying again. I don't like it when bad things happen to Nikita; it makes me feel as if I'm at the doctor's.
"Where's the key?" Owen asks.
Nikita's free hand reaches for a thin, gold thing. "Where's the key?!" Owen repeats angrily just before Nikita stabs him with her sharp gold thing, making Owen yell as he lets go of her.
Nikita coughs as she can finally breathe again. She runs to her big black treasure chest and opens it. Owen pulls the sharp gold thing out of his body and throws it toward Nikita.
Luckily, it doesn't hit her. She gasps before pulling out a handgun and pointing it toward him. "Stop it." She says to Owen.
I cry harder, she sounds scary again. The crying is making my body hurt more, but I only find myself crying louder.
"Oh, don't cry, sweetie." Nikita looks at me and she quickly lowers her gun as she walks toward me.
I feel very weird right now. I feel as if I want her to stay a little further away from me, but I also feel as if I want her to hug me.
I don't move as she puts down her gun before coming beside me. She lifts me up and crawls in underneath me before putting me back down. I'm on top of her as we're both in a sitting position.
My head is resting on her chest, and I'm sort of sitting on her lap. She wraps her arms around me and rocks me a little.
"That your kid?" Owen looks at her with a raised eyebrow.
Nikita just glares at him and doesn't say anything. I feel feathers tickling me inside my stomach as I almost want to giggle.
"Get some more sleep, Infinity." She tells me softly as I find myself leaning even closer to her. I feel less and less scared of her as she once again, holds me until I fall asleep.
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"I'm naked." I hear Owen say. My body almost doesn't hurt anymore and my headache's gone. My nose is also not as stuffy anymore.
"And observant." Nikita says to Owen in a tone that computer mama would call "sarcastic" as she's sitting beside me and holding my hand.
"You got anything to eat?" Owen asks as I open my eyes. I'm hungry too.
"Well, I don't have any raw meat to throw at you, but, I do make a mean veggie shake." Nikita stands up and walk to a small table to pour out two cups of water.
She gives one to me and one to Owen. "You stitch up the wound?" He asks.
"Standard field dressing." Nikita says. "The real damage won't begin to heal for at least a year. Four years out, you'll still feel her."
She sits back down beside me and pulls me onto her lap before hugging me. "How are you feeling?"
"I feel better." I find myself hugging her back.
Nikita rubs the back of my head before looking back to Owen. "You know, you and I have more in common than you think, Owen." She says a little sadly. "Division took away someone I loved too. That's why I walked, or ran."
"When?"
"Four years ago." She looks sad too. "I made the same mistake you did. Best mistake of my life."
"Who was it?"
Nikita smiles, but it's a sad smile. "He was a web designer. He was funny, goofy almost, and when he smiled, he was real, so real it hurt." She looks like she's going to cry soon. "His name was Daniel Monroe. I was deep under cover when we met. We started to make plans. Exfiltrate to South America, live on a beach, start a family."
I feel Nikita hugging me a little tighter as she looks hurt. I want to make her feel better, so I do something I haven't done before, I kiss her on the cheek. This surprises her, but she smiles after a few seconds.
"What happened?" Owen asks.
"Daniel and I had his parents' lake house to ourselves for the weekend." Nikita says. "I drove up there to meet him in the Adirondacks. When I got there, he wasn't inside so, I walk down to the dock, found him floating face down. Coroner said he drowned, but I knew it was Division."
Nikita looks at me for a second, I find myself staring back. It's weird, I don't feel scared. "If I can get my hands on that black box you were protecting, I'm one step closer to bringing down Percy, and then what he did to Daniel, and to Emily, he won't be able to do to anyone else."
Just then, I hear my stomach growl. I'm hungry. Nikita smiles as she hears it too. She leans in toward me until her nose can almost touch mine. "Are you hungry?"
"Uh-huh." I nod.
"Come on, let's get you some food." She says as she picks me up.
"Can I have fries?" I find myself asking as she walks out of the room with me still in her hands.
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"That's the second time I've seen you on that computer." Owen says as I'm sitting on Nikita's lap eating fries while she's typing to Alex. Nikita quickly stops.
"Who are you in contact with?" Owen asks.
"I was just searching for black box locations." Nikita says as she spins her chair around to face him. "You can find anything on the internet, you know."
"Even if I was to tell you where it was buried, there are six more hard drives secured by guardians just like me." Owen tells her.
"That's okay." Nikita shrugs as she stands up, picking me up with her. "I've got a plan." She walks over to the chair beside his bed and sits down. Once again, I'm on her lap.
Luckily, I'm facing Nikita. I don't want to be facing Owen, he's scary. "Oh yeah?" Owen says.
"Yeah." Nikita nods. "Phase one, find them. Phase two, kick their ass. Phase three, veggie shakes. It seems to be working with you." She smiles.
"Yeah, well, it won't work with the others." Owen says.
"Who are the other guardians?" Nikita frowns.
"I don't know who they are." Owen shakes his head. "I don't know what cities they're in. All I know is that Percy handpicked each one of us."
"Why did he pick you?" Nikita asks.
"I was a cleaner." Owen answers. "I was his favorite cleaner." I almost giggle when I see Nikita roll her eyes.
"No questions asked, got the job done." Owen continues. "I was able to stay detached."
"Till you met Emily." Nikita says.
"When Percy made me go to Montreal to guard the box, he told me that it was the most important assignment of all." Owen says. "What he didn't tell me, was how much down time would be involved. Kind of just crept up on me, how much I cared about her. And then, it hit me. I started to see the people that I've killed. Their faces, I started to see them as somebody's brother, or somebody's kid. And now I know how it feels, to love someone and have them taken away from you. You never know how much you miss them, till they're gone."
Nikita wraps her arms around me and pulls me into a hug. She looks sad again.
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"Thompson Park, underneath the Oak tree, by the bridge. It's where I buried the hard drive." Owen tells Nikita as she's changing his bandages. I'm sitting on the floor while playing with my Little Mermaid toy set.
"Wow." Nikita says quietly. "That veggie shake worked better than I thought." She stands up and walks over to a small white box to grab more bandages.
"It's like you said, having the black box would help you take down Percy." Owen says. "You should go get it."
"No." She says. "I'm gonna stay here till you're better, and then we're gonna go and get it together."
"I'd like that." Owen smiles a little. "I would. I don't think it was meant to be."
"This is your fight too, you know?" Nikita tells him.
"I wasn't just any cleaner, Nikita." Owen says. "I was Division's cleaner. In house, Nikita, I was a reaper."
'Owen's the one who killed Daniel.' That doesn't sound good…
"A reaper?" Nikita asks.
"I cancelled other agents." Owen says. "People from their old lives, people they'd confided in about Division, people they'd fallen in love with."
"How?" I turn around when I hear Nikita whisper. She sounds very hurt and like she's going to cry soon.
"It was quick." Owen says.
"No." Her voice shakes, and she looks tearful, but she looks as if she's trying very hard not to cry. But I can see her body shaking a little.
She stands up and walks over to me. I feel nervous as I don't know what to do or say. Nikita picks me up and hugs me tightly, as if it helps her in some way.
I don't say or do anything, and just let her hold me. I can't think of anything to say or do. "He didn't feel a thing." Owen says again.
Nikita's body is shaking a little more now and I can hear her making very quiet choking sounds. When I try to turn my head to look at her, her hand stops my head from turning.
But I can hear her when she can't hold it back anymore as her choking sounds grow louder. I can hear her crying.
"You know, they never told me your name." Owen continues. "But from how you described how you found Daniel, I remember that place, in the Adirondacks. I knew it was a matter of time before I had to tell you."
Nikita calms down after taking a few deep breaths and her cries have almost stopped. "Did Michael know?" She sniffles. I know something's hurting her, so I hope it doesn't have anything to do with Michael.
"What?" Owen asks.
"About the kill order." Nikita says.
"Percy gave me my orders." Owen says.
I can now turn my head around to look at her. I can see the tears on her cheeks and she looks very hurt. I don't like it when she's hurt; it makes me feel as if someone's pinching me.
Nikita sees me looking at her and is just about to turn her head away when I raise a hand and wipes away the tears on her face. "Where does it hurt?" I ask quietly.
"What?" Nikita frowns. She sounds very surprised.
"Something's hurting you." I say sadly.
"I'm okay." She says as she brushes my hair out of my face. But I think she's lying, I can see the tears in her eyes.
"Smile a while and give your face a rest, laugh a while and ease your little chest." I sing the song Wendy always sang to me when I fall down and hurt myself. "Reach your hands up to the sky, while you watch them with your eye." I finish by kissing Nikita on the cheek.
There are tears rolling down Nikita's cheeks, but she laughs. "Thank you." She wipes at her cheeks before hugging me again.
I can see Owen's laughing too, but I don't know why it's funny…
Just then, Nikita's phone rings. 'Alex is calling for help.' Nikita puts me down before going to answer her phone. "Hello." She walks out of the room with her phone by her ear.
"So kid…" Owen says before I quickly pick Lily up from the floor and hug her nervously. "Is Nikita your mom?"
It's weird; I almost don't mind calling her that. "Yes." I nod quietly, not looking at him. I'm glad that he doesn't say anything else to me so I can go back to playing with my toys.
Ariel is swimming in the ocean with Flounder and Sebastian. They're being chased by Ursula.
"Oh, you poor, unfortunate souls." Ursula sings loudly as she chases after them.
"We've to hurry!" Ariel says to Flounder and Sebastian. "If she catches us…"
Just then, Prince Eric comes to help them. "She won't. Follow me."
Prince Eric leads them into a pretty ice cave. "Hide here." He tells them. "I'm gonna lead her away."
I look up again when I hear Nikita walk back into the room. She gives Owen a quick, sad look before looking at me.
"Do you still hurt anywhere?" She asks softly.
"Nuh-uh." I shake my head as she's changing her clothes. She walks over to her big box of weapons and takes out a handgun.
"Do it." Owen says to her as she turns to look at him again. "It's why I told you where I hid the box. You don't need me anymore. This is the way it's supposed to end."
The look in Nikita's eyes is scaring me a little. But when Nikita turns to look at me, she looks nicer. "Come on." She picks me up. "We've to make a quick trip."
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Nikita parks her car at a gas station. "Stay here, okay?" She tells me before stepping out of the car.
Just then, I see Alex stepping out from behind a truck and running toward her. But another car stops behind Alex. Nikita quickly hides as Michael steps out of the car. I bite my bottom lip; I wish I can go say hi to him.
Alex and Michael is standing there, facing each other. I can see them talking to each other. Then, they look like they're shouting at each other.
Michael opens the car door for Alex to step in, but Alex looks like she's starting to talk again. Then, Michael says something to her before she gets into the car.
Nikita waits until they're gone before getting back into her car. She turns around to look at me. "Let's go home." She smiles at little at me.
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When we get home, Owen's bed is empty. Nikita quickly picks me up and has her handgun ready. I wrap my arms around her tightly. Owen scares me, and so does that gun in her hand.
Nikita picks up a needle from the empty bed and looks at the open handcuffs that were keeping Owen locked onto the bed.
Nikita walks over to her computer table with me still in her arms. There's a small piece of paper with words on it. I see two capital I's along with some other letters. But I don't know what words they make.
She rolls the paper ball up in her hands as she closes her eyes a little sadly. Then, I say something that even surprises myself. "I love you, mommy." But I say it because it's true. I'm not scared of her anymore.
Nikita quickly looks at me, very surprised. "What did you call me?" I can hear her breath shaking and she looks like she really wants to smile. She slowly crouches down in front of me.
"Aren't you my mommy?" I frown and tilt my head.
This time, she really does smile wide as she pulls me into a warm hug. "You love me?"
"Uh-huh." I smile and nod.
"I love you too." She kisses me on the nose.
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Author's note: As always, please remember to review me your thoughts and suggestions. I'd like to take your ideas and explore them with this story.