Will She find Him or end up losing everything!

Chapter 15: Merana Am'Nadial Gabriella

Disclaimer: The characters are Stephenie Meyer's just tweaked for my crazy mind.

~"~ ~"~ ~"~ Bella's point of view

"Because I never officially took my true name I ended up with many… every pass life name, all sort of nicknames, and whatever people felt like calling me; like M'a for my angel, Little Sea, Nad, Mera, Mery, even Princess. They all just became a part of my life. Each day was not only an adventure but a lesson of who I was/is," taking a breath for us more then herself she continued. "Each and every one f them stood/stand for something and had a very unique meaning."

"What does Merana, Amosal, and Nadia mean?" Rose asked.

Smiling Merana answered, "Merciful Little Sea. It was my mom that nicknamed me little sea. Amosal is an ancient name from my grandmother's time and mean shield for all/Protector over all. It's hard to say. Not many remember the ancient ways or even speak the language anymore." pausing once again though this time her smile dropped and she looked to her hands. "Where as Nadia means safe place, home. My mom also named me that in another life in hope that I would find comfort and love and turn from evil. Her hope for me to be good was dashed when I turned out to be as evil as my father at the time and Uncle Issac."

"Uh! When you turned out to be? How could you be as evil as your Uncle?" I blurted out as soon as the words soaked in. looking around I found that I was the only one upset or even stunned about that statement. Everyone had just accepted what she said as the truth.

"Bella as you are going to learn. The balance between good and evil is not as much between you and someone as it is a fight within yourself." Looking me dead in the eyes I took her next words to heart. "In many of my lives that balance was not only lost but showed both of their faces within one lifetime. I am very careful which side I let out and when." I just stared as the words rolled around in my head. They just didn't seem plausible.

It was Carlisle though who broke our eye contact. "Unlike us Merana has lived, died, and been born over and over again." Waving to Merana he said, "She is what we call a Life Traveler. Someone who travelers from Life to next without knowledge of the previous life."

"Ok I get there's more then what I see but can she really be evil?" I asked waving my hand as will at Merana.

Merana though didn't mind and actually spoke up. "Bella there are things in my past that I hope you never learn of but yes I can be evil!"

"Ok" Rose piped up breaking the growing tension. "What does SAG's, BMW, and BME mean?"

Merana laughed and I just buried my head in my hands as I sighed. For someone who didn't want anything to do with Merana Rose sure was paying attention besides stealing all of my questions.

"Will SAG's stand for Secret Armed Guard basically spies but they are directly connected to the thrown and take their orders directly from the crown, who they pledge their live and breath to. Not the council nor should they even be socializing with the council."

"So stealing Ralph's body and causing a scene in your wake was to draw out those aligned with the council." Edward stated more for everyone else then just to conform his own thoughts.

Merana nodded to him before answering the rest of Rose/Mine question. "UH BMW and BME were nicknames slash codes Karen and I used while we worked with Issac. We used them in all types of situations like to cause distractions, chaos, or just to let the other know that something was up." Merana very simple said.

Rose didn't like it and actually growled, "What do they stand for?"

There was a moment that no one moved. Merana didn't answer actually she was locked in a staring contest with Carlisle. Except I knew that in fact they were having an inner conversation. So shifting so that I could whisper into Edwards ear, I asked him "What are they saying?" he on the over hand just shook his head. It seems that Merana was blocking him.

Finally Merana broke eye contact with Carlisle and turned to Rose. "Ok BMW is Bitch My Witch. BME is for Bastard My Enchantress." Then turning she looked to all of us. "As you can take from the words they were used with raise voices and so poor foul to play as our pansy."

"Cat fights!" Emmett bellows out then moving to avoid the objects and pillows thrown at him he said, "What?! Isn't that what they were?"

"Will yes, they were. But no clothes were destroyed or claws used." Pausing so to turn to him Merana continued. "Though it wouldn't have taken much since we were basically naked wearing those stripes of cloth we were given as clothes."

"Do you have one of those outfits?" Emmett asked as he leaned forward. Though as soon as he did he was gone. We all were laughing while Merana latched onto Rose and kept her from attacking or going after him.

I started laughing at the fact that today just was not Emmett's day.

After calming Rose down and winking at her Merana sat back as she yelled out. "Actually all of those outfits were destroyed, burned or just plain thrown away. So any more questions?"

"I was wondering about Karen." Esme asked. "Like how she is Jared's brother and why she is with Crispin? I mean I thought vampires and werewolves can't stand each other."

I had to hand it to Esme that was a good question and one that I was very interested in now as will.

"Will for one Jared's not a werewolf. He's a werecat that can shift into any animal out there." She explained though waved her hand to the door to motion to the woods and the animals living there. "Though you are right Karen is different because one she has a different mother then Jared. And she inherited her mother's powers and skills as a witch."

"It was because of that that she became an interest to Issac and also that she was immune to his powers. Which was good cause the only person she would adhere to was me. Another thing that Issac hates me for cause when I left I took her with me."

"Now the reason she is with Crispin is because when I freed her, I had to stay behind to cover her escape so I sent her to Crispin. Who she madly fell in love with and actually helped him get over me."

Looking around I noticed Alice, who motioned me to go ahead. It took me a moment to get her actions but as soon as I did I was speaking. "Merana can I ask you something?" then seeing the error in my words I rephrased. "Can I ask you something in private?" I knew Edward would be hurt but I had to do this. "Edward I will be right back." At that I stood up and walked outside.

It wasn't long before Merana was beside me and we were walking into the woods behind the house. Then it wasn't long before I couldn't hear or see the house. Grabbing Merana's arm I stopped her and asked, "Is anyone following us?"

"No" smiling she added, "they understand you have questions and will give you space to ask them." At that she yanked me onto her back and started running.

I understood she was only putting distance between us and the house but it felt strange not being around them or the wolves. I even bet Edward is itching to come after us. I just hope he doesn't call Jacob to have him spy on us. Though Merana would probably hear him or sense him before he could get close.

After some time Merana stopped and eased me off her back. She picked a really nice spot, one I never been to. It was a small field with a small river running through it and some big stones by the river. Walking over to the river I knelt down and cupped my hands to get a drink.

But before I took a sip I looked over my shoulder at Merana. "Your fast." I said then took a sip. She was by me when I was done. It should have surprised me but I am used to it.

"Yeah well I can't out run a vampire" pausing as she also got a drink. "for after a period of time I have to stop. To catch my breath as I have a beating heart and considered a living creature."

I just stared at her while she drank more water then as she was getting her third drink I blurted out. "What are you?"

"I am a Dragonian." Seeing my puzzlement she explained. "A Dragonian is a descedent of a dragon that choose to become human or the offspring of a dragon and a human.

"What?" it was the only thing that I escaped my lips as my mind filled with questions.

"Though Jared believes I can actually take on the form of my inner dragon. He says I just have to want it." Merana said while she sat back and looked to the sky.

"How? Was your mother a dragon? Your Father? Are there any more out there?..." after a while I just stopped when I noticed Merana laughing.

I waited till Merana was done laughing. I didn't mind I probably asked a silly question or something but still I wanted to know what was so funny. After some time I got up and moved to the rocks. Merana either sensing my mood or seeing something in my expression followed as soon as I moved. As we sat down she started to speak. "OK I am sorry but that is not why we came out here. So ask your question?"

Looking down at my hands I finally got why she was laughing. Taking a breath and steeling my nerves I asked. "How do you know your in love?"

"Don't you mean… how were you able to choose?" Merana restated for me as she raised my face to look into my eyes.

Nodding yes cause I had lost my nerve I just looked to her.

"There is no right or wrong answer. Just what your heart tells you!" she said.

"But how did you choose?"

"At first I didn't I had both and I used both." Looking away from me she added. "It wasn't until later that I learned that it was Jared I loved and who I was meant for. The person who made me feel alive!" smiling at nothing I noticed her eyes had a glaze look to them as she continued speaking. "With Crise I always was the damsel, the weak human, or some love-sick little girl. I trust him and he trusted me but he never wanted me out of his sight or even outside of the house. I wasn't able to grow or mature as long as I was with him."

"But with Jared I had to be stronger, wiser, better just to stand next to him though he never asked of anything. Only stood me and what I thought/think is right. He trust me no matter what with his heart and life. Especially before I made my decision though I did hurt him and he wasn't always with me."

"Now since I made my decision we are together now and forever." She said looking to me.

"How?" I questioned

"Almost a decade ago Jared and I were separated on a…" thinking for a moment she continued, "mission. Except we couldn't stop thinking or wishing for the other. At the same time we both wished to hear or feel the other and at that moment a connection/bond/link was forged between us." Seeing my eyes light up with questions I think she responds quickly with an explanation. "Now it's not like mind reading or a constant thing. In fact we both have to be thinking of the other for it to work and still we can only talk in imagery and feelings."

"Really like what kind of images and feelings?" sitting up on my knees I leaned to her as I asked.

In less then a second my sight changed. At first I was looking at Merana the next I was seeing all types of things. Like Merana in different outfits and different scenery. But that wasn't the only thing my senses were in overdrive. One second I am freezing cold to warm to cool brisk wet. It was weird especially during all of this I was getting the feelings of being safe, happy, and lonely.

Not able to just enjoy what I was experiencing and wait it out I asked. "What is all this? Where are all this places?"

Suddenly everything changed and instead of experiencing different places I saw myself then felt anger and embarrassment then heard someone growling then nothing. It took me a while to collect myself and to find myself in Merana's lap. Though Merana didn't seem to mind as she was rocking back and forth as she laughed. So sitting up and taking note of the surrounding area I realized it had gotten late. I could barely see the sun, though what light was left was hurting my eyes.

I was rubbing my eyes when Merana touched my shoulder. "Sorry, I hadn't told Jared that I was sharing. He doesn't like being ambushed or shown in a softer light." Laughing this time with her I realized what I saw and felt was what Jared was showing Merana. He was really romantic and soft.

"What was all that?" I asked again after some time.

But Merana didn't answer instead she stood up and had me on my feet as will. "Come on we have to get back or Edward will explode." At that I was flunged on her back once again off we went. "Jared had sensed my sadness and was thinking of some of our favorites spots since we..." She explained after some time and some ways into the forest.

"Since when?" I asked holding tighter as we rounded a big cluster of trees and bushes.

"Uh" was the only thing I got cause as she paused to think she missed the big root that was right in our way. Tripping over it she resorted to flipping us into a hand spring and had us soaring high up into the tree tops. Clutching even tighter I almost closed my eyes as we fell.

Only we didn't, instead Merana snatched hold of a branch and swung us to another. So now we are traveling again. Except high up in the trees and she is half swinging half leaping from branch to branch.

During all this I'm quite, never forgetting that she had almost said something or that I had distracted her. But I wasn't going to let up I just had to bide my time and wait for the next opportunity.

Which wasn't anytime soon. As soon as we got back to the house she dropped me off and took off. For the rest of the week she was like that. Only coming by to eat, shower, change and talk to Carlisle if he was home. Over then that she was with the wolves.

Another one under my belt and still can't promise when the next one will be out but I am working on it. Just have to handwrite it then transfer to computer. Oh hey REVIEW NOW! ~~ Mary Mab