Will She find Him or end up losing everything?

Chapter 16: How quickly everything changes…

Disclaimer: The characters are Stephenie Meyer's just tweaked for my crazy mind.

~(~)~ ~(~)~ ~(~)~ Merana's point of view

It wasn't nice but after everything I had shared with Bella, I felt exposed. I told her more then I had wanted or even had told others who had asked. Though I was very lucky. For I had caught myself before I said the most important fact my dirty little secret. At that I smiled.

Then it fell for I remembered that I was avoiding Bella so not to slip again. In fact I was spending more and more time with the wolves or just learning the lay of the forest. Though I did stop by long enough to check my emails, eat something not someone, shower, change, sleep, and talk with Carlisle if he was around.

It was beyond wrong but nothing was said and Bella really didn't say anything. Then again that girl was strange but who am I to speak. Though my day did lighten when I got two special emails from Karen. For she decided that a simple email with words was not enough so she sent me to homemade music videos.

The first one was of all the kids singing and dancing to Good Charlotte's The Anthem. It was really something especially when little Danny actually spoke. Ever since his parents were killed in front of him he never made a single sound. And being that he was four at that time it was heartbreaking but now seeing a seven year old Danny singing and smiling was just overwhelming.

Esme having been around when I played it had just to come over and see what was making me cry and laugh at the same time. When I told her the story about Danny she had me replay the video and we just watched till I noticed that everyone was staring at us. Then I took off.

The next day I showed up expecting the monthly report on everyone Jared and I had helped. Instead another music video, this one based on All American Rejects' Dirty Little Secrets. Though no one was holding postcards instead it was filled with pictures of them smiling, short skits of them in their new homes, or just them showing off their wedding rings. A lot of the people we helped were going to be killed cause they had broken the number one rule… they fall in love with a human… some even had kids. So it was nice seeing them all happy and actually living their lives. Though the end really had me breathless.

I don't know how she did it but Karen somehow got everyone together, even the kids in one place and had them all holding a sign. It read 'What's your dirty little secret Mom and Dad?!'. Mom and Dad are Jared and Is' code names for we are always checking in on them and asking what they are doing.

Though if they knew our dirty little secret they all would flip, cheer, shout, and demand us to come home so to throw a party. But it just wasn't in the cards and a lot still needed to be do before I could see me homeland again.

Now enough of that for today is a beautiful and exciting day. For today is Graduation and tonight the party, which I am attending but for some reason I feel wrong. Like there is something I am forgetting or that needs to be done.

But I don't leave or say anything to Jacob or the other two boys that are there watching as Bella walks across the stage.

It's stupid but ever since I got cheated out of my chance to graduate I always make it my number one purpose to see that everyone else has there chance on the stage. You really don't know how special it is to walk across that stage and hear your family cheering in the background to know you did it. I on the other hand was fighting for my life and the lives of two of my very closet friends that didn't make it.

Shaking my head I turned from the scene to stare back into the woods. For whatever is plaguing me just went up a notch when that memory surfaced. Looking to each of the boys I tell them to stay and keep an eye out. Then squatting down I leaped into the woods and several yards away so as to make sure they don't follow.

Dashing through the forest aimlessly I finally pick up a scent that has me growling. Angling to the south and leaping up to the branches I continue traveling but more in a eastern direction until I come upon a redwood.

Scaling it to the upper most parts I find what I had forgotten. A friend. An old friend. A lost old friend.

"So what's it this sometime?" I snarled watching as my dear friend Lucinda under the control of Issac steps from around the tree trunk to smile at me. Reigning in my anger so not to lash out or lose this moment I settle back against the redwood's trunk.

"Well I was going to banter with the safety of the coven but I think now it will be for the safety of the tribe. Give me the girl and I won't touch them." Lucinda says while demonstrating the boy scout sign of promise.

Laughing cause I know for a fact Issac was never a boy scout, let alone he was will over 5,000 when boy scouts was even formed.

Moving my hands behind me so I could grip the trunk as I let my anger boil up, I responded. "Issac, Issac, Issac there is nothing you can banter with. They won't let her go." with that said I let lose my anger. In the form of fire, which was directed right at Lucinda. But being that this was a normal meeting Lucinda, or I should say Issac was prepared and easily deflected my blast and disappeared into the woods.
Taking a moment to calm myself and to extinguish the few flames that landed on the nearby trees, I thought on what his next action would be. But deciding that it could wait I stepped off the branch and sailed down to the forest floor. Landing gracefully I took off running for the Cullens house. I was there in a matter of minutes in Alice's room getting ready.

Alice being Alice had gone out shopping and practically bought the entire store since she couldn't seen what I would like or even wear. Then she preceded to hunt me down, even coming close to crossing the boundary to tell me/threaten me that I was to choose one of the dresses for the party. Sometimes it really was a gift being me, then again no one would want to walk in my shoes.

So here I was slipping into a lovely lilac black lace dress. The sleeves bellowed down to my elbows and the bodice was tight with a slight plunging neckline that was covered by the black lace. The shirt was my favorite part, for it was layered and flowed just past my knees. Spinning around I watched as it bellowed out and just liked great on my. But there was one thing Alice made a mistake on. She bought needle tip high heels and the one's that matched the dress were 6in's. I just shocked my head while sitting on the bed to fasten them on.

Alice was just going to have to learn that high heels and I just don't mix.

'Is my M'a reaching for the sky?' Jared sent me while snickering. Snarling back I sent him the image of me on the bed.

"…"

Smiling cause I knew right at this moment he was drooling and debating on coming back. Though I didn't want him to drop what he was doing so I sent him an image of me kissing him and the feel of my arms around him, in which he responded in turn.

"Wow Alice really out did herself!" Carlisle just about whisper as he poked his head in.

Smiling I just looked around and shrugged at all the clothes and shoes. For after the party I was going to give all the clothes away. No matter what Alice said.

Then seeing that I had no choice I stood up and walked over to the three full length mirrors to get a better view of myself.

Carlisle now truly seeing me straighten up and walked into the room to stand behind me. "But nothing compares to you Little Sea." he said.

Whirling around in shock at hearing my nickname, I was even more stunned when he pulled my hair back and placed a lavender calla lily in my hear. He then twirled be around so I could see. But after seeing I instantly twirled back and gave him a big hug.

Then I started snickering cause I was still short compared to him, like a head short. But I wouldn't have it any other way. In all truth Carlisle was my last connection to my father. All of my father's friends or really comrades since it was hard for my father to trust others were dead. Even though Crispin could be consider a connection he was more mine since I was his creator and first love. Carlisle on the other hand was different for he never asked or did anything that would betray my father. In fact Carlisle always stayed in foreshadows never getting involved. Will that was until my father told him of me and then Carlisle helped in every way he could. My father always told me that there was nothing like a Cullen in your corner to make you feel strong.

Just another thing why I wouldn't let Issac have his way. To much to lose.

Stepping back I looked down to the absolutely horrid shoes and said, "Yes will poor Alice is going to learn the needle point high heels are a no-no when it comes to me." Smiling I winked at him. Carlisle catching on laughed as he left.

Just as he left the room a bewildered Alice walked into the room with Rose close behind. Rose had the biggest smile on and I just had the feeling she knew what was about to happen.

"Oh wow that looks great on you. Give us a little twirl." Alice just about demanded of me.

Smiling innocently as I stepped back to twirl the heel broke on that shoe. Luckily I had great balance but the other shoe couldn't handle all my weight and snapped right in half. Still being luckily I was able to gracefully twirled myself so I landed on the bed.

Alice at first was shocked but as Rose rushed to my side so did she. "Are you alright? I wonder what happen?" Alice blurted out right after one another as she helped Rose take them off my feet.

Shrugging my shoulders I reached over and pulled up another box of shoes. These just like the others were needle point but 8in high and black with ankle wrap around straps. They didn't even make it to supporting my weight for the straps broke when I flexed my feet.

It continued like that. Each pair of needle point high heels that matched the dress were put on my feet and then tossed aside after something braking or ripping.

Poor Alice was red in the face and hovering protectively over the other shoes while I slipped on my 4in full high heels. Rose on the other hand was using the excuse of throwing the shoes away just so she could laugh and not worry about Alice coming after her.

I did feel sorry for Alice but then again what could she have done besides not buying them in the first place.

An hour had gone by since I had first arrived and it had been spent upstairs in Alice's room with me going through the many horrid shoes before she caved and allowed me to wear my own. We quickly cleaned up upstairs for Bella had arrived and we wanted to see her before everyone else arrived.

Edward was showing Bella all that Alice had done so they were off of the foyer and more in the planning, now dance stage area. So I wasn't able to see them and when we reached the bottom step they were turned from us.

But when they did turn to greet us I stopped dead for a moment then rushed to Bella's side.

Her right hand was in a cast! She was hurt. Someone had had hurt her. Why it mattered so much to me really didn't register in my mind only that she was hurt and I wasn't around when it happen.

Before anyone could stop my I had her arm in my hands and examining it. Seeing that everything was as it should be or more precise there was nothing I could do I slowly lowered her arm and looked up to her face. "Who did it?" I snarled though showing no hatred or anger to her. It didn't even faze me that everyone was staring or that I was making Bella red with embarrassment. For I still was holding her hand, gently though.

"No one…" she spurted out but stopped when I moved closer. Taking a calming breath she recollected herself and began again, "It was Jacob but I hit him." She got out all in one breath. Then before I could ask why an image appeared in my head of Jacob kissing a furious Bella.

Looking up to Edward I see the truth and the anger yet pain was the strongest. Looking back to Bella I'm surprised to see embarrassment. Then it hits me…

The image…

I just witnessed Bella's past. The impossible had just happened. I saw into Bella's soul. For a second but still. Which meant Bella could control her power and if she becomes a vampire she would be a worthy foe or alley.

But I didn't say any of this instead I shouted, "Where's that dog? I am going to beat him down then shave him before throwing him off a cliff."

No one spoke or moved, just stared at me. As I spun around as if Jacob was there.

"Merana please don't," Bella pleaded after she realized what I meant. Then grabbing my arm she halted me while moving to look me in the eye. "Merana please don't hurt Jacob."

Smiling I hugged her, "Yeah no problem Bella. I just wanted to make to make up for avoiding you."

"So you were avoiding me!" she shrieked right in my eye.

But I didn't mind, well not until she started hitting me with her cast. Letting her go I got hold of her right arm to stop her.

"Forgive me Bella for I will never avoid you again." I said waiting for her to realize I once again had a hold of her arm. Then seeing her catch on I promised by crossing my heart with my finger.

Bella glared at me for a moment before smiling. But we didn't have anymore time for guests were starting to arrive. So instead we started discussing me and how to introduce me.

Though it didn't take long because Alice refused to budge. So I ended up being introduce as her cousin on her mother's side. It made no sense to me but then again no one ever questioned or though twice about what either I said. It was just accepted and everything continued on as normal.

The party was a like any other party only controlled. Being that there were seven vampires, three of which who could jump in before anything even happened. Plus the fact that Mr. & Mrs. Cullen, the parents were around.

Even though there were still a few incidents. Like Mike trying to dance with Bella even though I don't consider grinding dancing. Then there was Tyler. Who just would not leave me alone. I even told him flat out no, he stilled followed me around like a little puppy. At one point he even cornered me but moving fast I caused him to spill his drink. Though instead of spilling all over him and having him going home, it spilled all over me.

Alice most likely having seen it coming was unable to stop it. Though I believe she just wanted it to happen just to have me change (payback for the shoes). But she still showed up and really laid into him on disrespecting her cousin. Then before he could even blink she pulled me away and dragged me upstairs to change.

I really hated changing until she pulled out a red and orange dress. It was really something. I quickly slipped out of the lilac and black lace dress as well as the flower in my hair then stepped into the other.

It was a one shoulder wrap around dress that covered my chest and stopped at mid-thigh. Then after tying it off gave the impression that I was on fire. It was really kewl and beautiful and I looked like the Dragonian I was. But because of the incident before with the shoes I wasn't allowed even near them. Though it didn't make Alice any happier. In fact she glared at them before leaving the room.

Hurrying so I could catch her before she disappeared into the party yet I was surprised to find her still descending the stairs. Except she wasn't moving. Moving as humanly fast as I should I got to her side just as Bella did as while as the wolves.

After hearing that an army of vampires was on the way to attack and kill Bella we all moved fast to gather everyone together. I mostly organized for a space where we all could meet. Though I was more focused on the fact that Jared had not mentioned that there was an army of vampires near him. Then again it explained why he hadn't returned yet.

But there was one more thing that bothered me. Where did that red hair bitch and Issac fit in?

Jumping up from the seat I ahd claimed when everyone had arrived, everyone focused on me. "I need to go fishing." they all just stared at me. "But first I need the perfect bait." looking around my eyes stopped on Bella. "Perfect, Bella I need…"

I never got to finish as everyone started talking…

So sorry all my pretty baka's but it seems technology still doesn't like me and I had to write everything over again. Oh and for those of you who don't read my profile. I have a job that is trying to drive me into the ground so my chapters are going to take longer are getting posted. But don't worry I am working and writing. Just review if you have a problem with it.~~ Mary Mab