'This is my chance. Derek is gone. My mother. My mother didn't care. She thought I was ordinary. My life is a mess. I'm dirty and I feel like nothing is going to be the same again. I would be scared. I would be but I'm not because Derek is gone and I was just raped and nothing is the same. It's like when I was in that water and I tried to fight. I tried to fight but then I stopped fighting because I thought what's the point. What's the point in anything? The carousel never stops turning.' She thought.
Just as Meredith stood up to jump, Miranda shouted her name. 'Meredith please listen to me. It's Dr Bailey. Don't you move. It's okay it's just me. I'm not going to hurt you. It's only me. I won't let you do this. You were my intern, my baby and I raised you to become a great doctor. Come down. Talk to me. Please talk to me. I'm here. I got you okay I've got you.' Miranda said walking over to Meredith and finally embracing her from behind, pulling her off the ledge. At first Meredith fought then she gave up fighting Bailey. 'I can't do this Bailey. I need Derek. I need Cristina. I can't…I can't' She sobbed. 'Come inside, come on. I got you.' Miranda consoled.
They got into the lift and sat in the attending's lounge. Miranda locked the door so nobody could get in. 'Meredith, do you want to tell me what got you into this state? I thought you'd put this behind you? Please let me in so I can help you.' She said seeming genuinely concerned. 'Bailey, I want to tell you, I do but I don't know what to say right now. I just know I need a bath and I need to sleep.' Meredith replied. 'You know that I can't let you do that until I do a rape kit Mer.' Bailey protested. 'Ok, but you can't do it. Get Robbins. Nobody but Arizona Robbins.' Meredith said firmly. 'I'll page her now.' Was the reply. 'Will you tell her and April to keep it to themselves. You know how gossip travels in this place.' Meredith grumbled. Bailey nodded.
An hour later, Arizona walked into the Attending's lounge and gasped at the sight of Meredith. 'What happened? Are you okay? Seriously Meredith. What the hell happened to you?' Arizona asked slightly flustered. 'Dr Robbins, I need you to stop asking questions.' Bailey said quickly. 'What I need you to do is perform a rape kit on Dr Grey. Dr Grey requested that you do this. I will be outside.' She finished handing the kit to Arizona.
The rape kit took ages. Arizona documented every bruise and every cut, the scrapings under Meredith's finger nails. She took photographs of the wounds and bruises. The clear finger marks on her thighs and shoulders. Meredith sat in silence and didn't say a word. Arizona found this unnerving. Arizona took Meredith's blood and finally called Bailey back in. 'Morning after pill. I need the morning after pill' Meredith muttered. 'You want the morning after pill?' Arizona said curiously. 'Yes, please I have three beautiful babies and I can't. I can't.' She explained. Bailey left to get it.
'Mer, do you want to tell me anything?' The paediatric surgeon asked. 'Thinking about it makes me feel sick. It's like I'm drowning.' She replied. 'I get that. Nothing is going to feel the same for a while. But let me tell you. It will get easier.' Arizona tried her best to reassure her. 'Seriously? Seriously are you going to pull that crap on me? I'm a doctor, a frigging doctor and you're a baby doctor. You should know better that to say this crap about how life gets better and I should just wait for it to happen.' Meredith ranted feeling slightly guilty about being mean. 'Sorry, I meant that I'd been there and I get it and all this horrible pain disappears.' She said bashfully. Meredith replied sorry not knowing what else to say. After taking the morning after pill, Miranda offered to drive Meredith home. She accepted the offer. Meredith thanked Arizona for everything she'd done and left.