It had been three days. Three days of Meredith lying on that floor. Three days of blank stares and three days of complete silence. Arizona had been over with soup and drawings from Sophia. It was kind of her but it didn't bring Meredith out of her depressive episode. Bailey had also been over and laid on the floor with Meredith for hours. Although Bailey didn't say anything, Meredith felt comforted by her presence. Bailey left to go to work and Maggie took over.
Maggie felt helpless. She'd never seen her sister like this before. Silence isn't something she was used to. 'Meredith get up.' Maggie says firmly. Meredith didn't move a muscle. Nor did she make a sound. 'I don't understand Mer. Please just do something or say something. Please.' She said. Again, nothing happened. 'Well I am going to have to speak to you and you know what I'm like. I just go on and on until somebody stops me. It's a whole 13 hours before anyone gets back from the hospital.' Maggie yapped.
Meredith used all her strength to sit up. 'Maggie, I am going through something here. I don't need to talk or have a sister thing right now. I am scared, I feel like I'm going to break down any minute and I can't have you talking constantly. I need you to go downstairs and make me coffee because I really want coffee. I also need you to text Cristina and ask her to come. Because I need her. I need my person and she's not here so please be helpful and text Cristina.' Meredith sobbed. Maggie rushed out of the door and Meredith sighed in relief.
She locked the bathroom door and opened the bathroom cabinet. She picked up a razor. Meredith looked at it for a while. She pressed the razor against her wrist lightly. Maggie knocked on the door and Meredith dug the blade into her flesh. She'd cut deeper than she wanted to. She looked at the wound and the blood. Meredith took a deep breath. She needed to explain to Maggie but she couldn't afford to scare her.
'Maggie I need you to listen to me. You cannot interrupt me and you cannot panic. I need you to do exactly what I say with no questions. That okay?' Meredith said firmly. 'Okay' Maggie says slowly. 'I need you to go into my bedroom there is a suture kit under my bed. You need to stitch my arm because it's bleeding and painful. Then I need you never to tell anybody about this. Can you do this for me please?' Meredith ordered. 'Okay.' Maggie said quietly. Seconds later Maggie came back and the bathroom door was open.
There was blood covering the floor and Meredith looked white as a sheet. She winced as Maggie touched her. 'I'm not going to hurt you. You know that, don't you?' Maggie said in a soft voice. 'You never know what people are capable of.' Was Meredith's reply. 'I'm your sister and this is a safe place. This is our mother's house. You've had good times, here right?' Maggie tailed off, remembering just what she'd said. 'Do I ask why you cut your wrist Mer?' Maggie asked sympathetically. 'On this occasion, yes you ask but never ask again. I got scared. I had a flashback and I needed to bring myself back to reality.' Meredith said under her breath. Maggie nodded and stitched her sisters arm.
'Did you ring Cristina?' Meredith asked. 'She's getting the next flight. She said that I needed to stay with you and not freak out.' Maggie replied.
The atmosphere was awkward. Meredith cleaned the blood from the floor. She looked up at Maggie with a stern look on her face. 'Maggie, I need you to promise me something.' She said. Maggie nodded as she sat herself against the bathroom door. 'Please don't tell Amelia or Miranda about this. I can't have people knowing I didn't fight.' Meredith said as tears rolled down her face. Maggie nodded again and hugged her sister tighter than she had ever before. 'I love you Mer' She cried. 'It's going to be alright, isn't it?' Meredith asked crying her eyes out. 'I don't know, but I do know that everyone loves you and we will protect you. You are strong Meredith Grey and I'm glad I found you. I'm really glad.' Maggie replied sobbing.