The football game was going good, Finn had scored the most points. He was like a scoring machine and Rachel couldn't believe how well he was doing. She didn't really want to go to the game but of course she had too, but she just felt awkward because the last time they had spoke was the whole Sam and Chloe thing.
She kept building her walls up and really hoped that every night when she went to bed she wouldn't dream of him or that when she first wakes up she wouldn't think of him but the truth is she does.
It was now the end of the game and she didn't know what to do. She used to run up to her brother and Finn to hug them, but this time she was just stood there watching them congratulate each over. She then looked at Finn and started to get lost in her thoughts.
She didn't know where along the way their relationship changed, but it was certainly not for the best. When he touched her, it was like he was seeing her for the first time. She was really upset that it took a full transformation for him to realise she did actually exist. Rachel tried to convince herself that the physical transformation had nothing to don with Finn's attention, but that her leaving made him realise sh was important.
"Hey sis" She heard Puck shouting from the court bringing her back to reality.
She forced a smile on her face and waved. She was good at pretending even if she knew deep down her brother noticed something was wrong with her but he wasn't asking because he knew she wouldn't tell him.
"I'm waiting for my hug!" Puck added opening his arms. Puck really missed his sister, even though she was there he could see in her eyes that something was missing. She wasn't the same person he used to know.
Rachel smiled and shook her head. Her brother needed her affection, he was always there for her, standing by her side. She walked down to her brother and threw herself into her brothers arms.
"You played a fantastic game." She said against her brothers chest.
"You're sweet sis" Puck said laughing against her head. "I almost didn't get the ball." He added kissing the side of her head.
"Still.." Rachel said breaking their embrace looking into his eyes.
Finn had been watching the whole time. He felt his chest tighten. He really wanted to go see her.
About a minute later all of the players were going to the changing room when Finn heard his name and turned around sighing. It was his dad.
"Yeah dad." Finn said. He gave 100 percent playing in that game, yes it was mainly to impress Rachel but it was also to try and make his dad proud. His dad always pushed him to be better and never praised him.
Rachel was about to leave when she saw Finn's father stop him. She knew how much stress he put on Finn and she didn't like it. She decided to hide and listen to their chat.
"So... What did you think about the game?" Finn asked. "I scored 32 points!" He added with a proud smile.
His father shrugged. "Well you could of scored more if you didn't pass the ball. There was scouts here tonight Finn."
Finn's smile suddenly faded.
Rachel couldn't believe what she was hearing. His farther was never proud and she hated Finn never stood up for himself.
"Come on dad! Did you see the boys i had to tackle off?" Finn said frustrated. "32 points i think i would of impressed the scouts!"
"Well more points would of impressed them more son. Right?" His father smiled.
Finn shook his head and sighed with anger. "It's never going to be enough is? I'm never going to be enough." he said with pain in his voice. Finn looked down and started walking to the changing rooms.
His father watched his son leave and shook his head. He was about to go when Rachel stopped him.
"Mr Hudson? Do you have a minute?" She asked politely.
He turned around and smiled. He loved Rachel she was always round the house so she grew on him. "For you? Always." He said nicely. "So what can i do for you?" He asked sitting on the bench, waving his hand for Rachel to do the same.
"It's not what you can do for me.." Rachel said smiling. "It's what you can do for yourself before you lose Finn." She added in a serious tone.
Finn had forgot his jacket so went back to find Rachel talking with his father. He stayed back to listen.
"Lose my son?" His father asked frowning. "What are you talking about?"
"You don't even notice it do you?" Rachel asked sighing. "You know your not proud." Rachel added.
"Did he say something to you?" His father asked slightly annoyed. He hated people telling him what to do.
"He didn't need to tell me anything." Rachel said looking down. "You know how close me and Finn are and i know when something is wrong with him, and lately he hasn't been himself because of you!"
"Excuse me?" His father said surprised.
"I'm sorry i don't mean to be rude. It's just he tries so hard to make you proud." Rachel said smiling. "And if i were you i would be the proudest father alive."
Rachel looked at him and saw the emotion in his face. He looked up towards her and she noticed different emotions; anger, guilt, disappointment and pain.
Finn was stood shocked at what he was hearing. He noticed he had tears rolling down his cheek. He knew Rachel knew but he couldn't believe she had just said that.
"I am proud of him Rachel." His father said looking at her. "I just push him so he's not a failure like me." His father admitted.
"But you have to understand your making him feel like a failure." Rachel said sighing running her hands through her hair. "He bottles everything up and then takes it out on anyone, and it's mainly because of you. You always ask for more of him, but there could be a time when he won't be able to give you more."
"I'm not sure you know what your talking about Rachel." His father said angry.
"I do, and i'm not just going to stand here without saying a word while he is suffering and your the source of his pain! You know he is one of a kind, you are so lucky to have a kind and caring son like him." her voice started shivering.
"I.." Was all his father could say.
"The last time you saw me, you asked what i wanted for my birthday." Rachel said smiling. "I want nothing, all i want is for you to show your son you are proud of him and that you love him." She added seriously. "He should be enough. Anyway he is enough." Rachel said looking in his fathers eyes.
Finn grimaced, One part of him felt so lucky that Rachel stood up for him and said that, but then another part he was scared to see what his fathers reaction would be.
His father laughed.
Rachel frowned looking confused. She started to get angry now. "I wasn't joking!" She said shouting a little louder than she intended.
"No i know you weren't" His father said smiling. "It's just now i know your dad was right." He said as he looked at what Rachel's reaction was. She hated speaking about her dad. "When you were born, Finn was only a few month old but your dad rang me and told me to come see you and Puck and he said how strong you would be, i'm sorry he's not around." Finn's father said taking Rachel's hand.
Rachel started to get tears in her eyes. Yes she hated her dad but she still missed him.
"When i first saw you and your brother i made fun of your dad because i said you were beautiful and took after you mam." He smiled. "He asked me to be Pucks godfather and i was confused because i was more close to you." He said laughing. "I was curious why he was asking me and he said that i couldn't be the godfather of my future daughter in law."
"What?" Rachel said shocked.
"Yep." His father said nodding. "Your dad kept joking saying that we would have a Puckerman/Hudson wedding one day because he bet you and Finn would be together. I never thought about it until now." He added.
"Finn and i are just friends." Rachel said gulping. "I'm just standing up for a friend i would do it for Quinn." She added standing up and holding her head straight.
Finn put his head down at this point. He was quite disappointed by the comment.
"That's what you might think Rachel." Finn's father said nicely. "But your eyes say otherwise, i know that look, it's the same look Finn gets when he talks about you." He added.
Rachel opened her mouth and quickly closed it. She was trying to convince herself she was over him.
"I will see you Sunday for your meal! 18 i can't believe it" His father said walking away.
Rachel stayed still for a few moments. She couldn't believe what had just been said. All she wanted to do was stick up for him and this happened.
Finn watched her for awhile. He really wanted to go over to her and just kiss her but he knew he couldn't.
It was Saturday night and Rachel was getting ready to have a movie night with Quinn.
They were such bad liars! Rachel said laughing. She and Puck knew Finn had organised a party for them at the beach house. Tomorrow was the day of their actual birthday but it was just a family dinner with Finn and his family. So Finn decided to throw them a party tonight.
"Oh baby! You look beautiful" Rachel heard her mothers voice appear.
"Yeah?". She asked looking at her mother then turning to look back in the mirror. She was wearing a strapless champagne colour dress that made her look like a princess. Well that's what Quinn said. Quinn had bought it and said it was an early birthday present.
Her mother nodded and smiled getting tears in her eyes. "I just can't believe both of my babies will be 18 tomorrow, it just feels like yesterday i was holding you in my arms"
"Oh mam!" Rachel said walking towards her mother and hugging her tightly. "Don't ruin my make up" She joked. "I want you to know mam, me and Puck are like this because you gave us all the right love! You had faith in us and always supported us." Rachel said pulling away and looking into her mothers eyes.
"Thanks baby" Her mother said drying her tears. "That was a lovely thing to say." She said taking her daughters hand to sit on the bed with her. "Talking about stuff i saw Finn's father earlier today." Her mother started.
"I know i was out of line." Rachel said interrupting her mother. "But things needed to be said and i couldn't hold it in any longer!" She looked at her mother and saw confusion in her eyes so stopped.
"Please continue." Her mother said laughing.
Rachel blushed. "No that's fine you started it so continue." Rachel added laughing.
"Anyway." Her mother said laughing shaking her head. "He told me you didn't want anything for your birthday so he was just going to give you money. He also told me i raised a fantastic daughter who is more mature than most adults he knows." Her mother said stroking her daughters hand.
Rachel smiled.
"It's a lovely compliment baby but it scares me, You never take any risks, you have never made a bad choice and i just get worried you won't be happy if you don't take those risks." Her mother said seriously.
Rachel looked down, she knew her mother was right. She knew she always played it safe but it was because she doesn't want to get hurt.
"Anyway." She said raising her daughters head. "You have fun tonight, has you brother left?"
"Yeah Santana wanted to give him a early birthday..." She suddenly stopped and looked at her mother embarrassed.
"Yes, i don't want to know, have fun tonight" Her mother said leaving the room.
Rachel and Quinn made there way to the party which had already started.
"This is kinda bad." Rachel said shaking her head. "I am an hour late for my own party." She added laughing.
"Sorry." Quinn said pouting. "It's not my fault don't be made." Quinn said in a pleading tone. "My car broke down, so it wasn't my fault."
"No i'm not mad you idiot." Rachel said hugging Quinn. "It's just funny." Rachel said walking into the house.
As soon as they arrived, Rachel saw Finn with a crowd around him.
She sighed and put her head down. She looked back up to see Chloe walking past with a tray of shots.
"Stop." Rachel said stepping in front of her. She took two shots from the tray. "One for me and one for you." Rachel said laughing.
"Oh boy!" Quinn said taking the glass from Rachel's hand.
"Come on Quinn! It's my birthday" Rachel said cheerfully. "Were hot and young."
"Oh, it's your birthday to?" Chloe asked smiling. "What are the odds it's your brothers birthday too."
"Umm, Chloe there twins." Quinn said slowly.
"Yeah it's impressing." Chloe said walking away.
"And he slept with that?" Rachel asked more to herself than Quinn. She took the shot from Quinn and drank them both.
"Hey easy, your not drunk girl." Quinn said taking the empty glasses from Rachel.
It had been a few minutes and Rachel went into the living room to find her brother, because she lost Quinn.
Rachel had been drinking quite abit and felt hot and sick. But she was having a good time.
As soon as she entered the living room the DJ spotted her and stopped the music.
"Yeah, here's the birthday girl! She made it". He said shouting in the microphone. "Where have you been girl?"
Rachel blushed and noticed everyone was staring at her.
Finn could see her discomfort and joined her fast and gave her a hug, he then turned to the DJ and shouted to him to play the music.
"Aww..Finn Hudson" Rachel said smiling at him. "You saved me."
"Have you been drinking?" Finn asked laughing.
"Drinking? What do you call drinking?" Rachel asked cupping his face. "I had a few of those." She said pointing to Chloe who was filling up the shots.
"Ohh." Finn said widening his eyes. "I see." He added putting a hand on Rachel's back.
"Yeah." She said nodding. "You look hot tonight Hudson. You know that? I could kiss you right now." She said looking around.
"What?" Finn asked bringing his head down to Rachel's mouth so he could hear. He heard it! He couldn't believe her heard it.
"Where's my brother?" She asked like nothing happened.
"I saw him go upstairs with Santana about 10 minutes ago." He replied still with his hand on her back.
"I see." Rachel said laughing. "Kinky sex. Oh Chloe." She screamed.
Chloe came over with the shots and handed her two.
"Thankyou." Rachel said taking the two shots. She turned her attention to Finn. "That girl is dumb, but she does learn fast! I get why you wanted her." Rachel said with jealously.
"I think you have had enough all ready." Finn said trying to take the drinks from Rachel.
"Nope." She said drinking them fast and then slipping.
"Okay, that's enough." He said directing her out of the living room.
"I will be good! I promise". She said raising her hand like she was in court. "Stay with your groupies." She said laughing. "Who's going to get a piece of Finn Hudson tonight?" She asked. "Find out in the next episode." She said waving to him looking for Quinn.
Finn watched her go and shook his head. Why was she being like this? This wasn't the girl he knew, the girl he loved. He quickly came back to reality did he just say the girl he loved?
He turned around to see one of the football players. "Hey, you i need you to keep an eye on Rachel okay? Don't let her out of your sight."
The boy nodded and stood by Rachel.
Finn looked at the door. "I need some air." He said walking out.
Rachel was walking around the whole house and started to regret how much she had to drink, she was trying her best to keep it all down.
She finally found Quinn who was with some boys. She told Quinn she was going for a lie down.
She walked upstairs and looked for an empty bedroom she found a room and lay on the bed looking at the ceiling falling asleep.
She woke up 30 minutes later and she actually felt better.
"Is this Finn's room?" She said talking to herself she stood up. She turned on the light and looked around the room, it had all his pictures and trophies in, she smiled before hearing a knock on the door.
"Are you feeling better?" Asked Finn standing behind her.
Rachel jumped turning around, holding a picture of him.
"Sorry didn't meant to scare you." He said smiling shutting the door.
"No don't be sorry, it's your room anyway i shouldn't be here." She said smiling.
"Your welcome anywhere in this house." He said smiling at her walking towards the bed sitting down.
"Thanks." She said sitting next to him.
"So, you will never guess what happened today?" he said looking at her.
"Tell me." She said getting nervous. She was so close to him and sat on his bed.
"Well usually on a Saturday morning around 6.00am my dad normally wakes me up to go for a run." he said looking down. "Anyway he didn't and then when i went downstairs he told me how proud he was of me and he loved me." Finn said grinning.
Rachel smiled and put her head on his shoulder. Finn put his hand on her hand and they both got a chill.
"He said he didn't want to lose me." Finn added looking into Rachel's eyes.
Rachel smiled. "I knew you were enough, you always were, it just took him forever to realise." She looked at the clock. "I better go back down."
She got up and walked towards the door when Finn spoke.
"Did you think about it?" He asked standing up.
"Think about what?" Rachel asked confused.
"Think of me while you were away?" He asked. "You said you wouldn't forget me, so did you always think of me?"
"Of course i did." She said with a smile. "I can't believe you remembered i said that."
"I remember everything about you." Finn said locking eyes with hers.
"Why are you doing that?" She asked with pain in her voice. "You don't know how hard it was for me to get over you." She said looking away. "Every time i think i'm over you it all come back." She added.
Finn looked at her without a word. He knew she was drunk and he couldn't believe what she just said. "It's the alcohol talking." he said.
"I wish it was." Rachel said with a sad laugh. "I know what i'm saying." She locked eyes with Finn. "Don't look at me like that!"
"Like what?" Finn said.
"Like you care for me." Rachel shouted. "And don't talk to me like you care for me either." She said getting confused.
"What if i can't stop." Finn said walking towards her. He stopped where their bodies were touching.
"Please, were going to do something stupid." She said looking up into his eyes. She looked at him and without thinking threw her arms around his neck and started kissing him.
Finn pressed his body close to hers.
Rachel you love him, so what if its a mistake. Rachel thought to herself bringing her hands on his chest starting to unbutton his shirt.
Not like this! Finn thought. He didn't want this to happen while she was drunk. He thought breaking the kiss and taking her hands in his to stop her. "No Rachel." He spoke "I don't want-"
"What?" Rachel asked stepping back. "You wanted this to happen ans now it is your pushing me away?" She said getting angry.
"No, you don't get it." Finn said reaching for her.
"Don't touch me!" She said her eyes full of tears. "Stop playing with me Finn, Just forget i exist okay?" She said storming out.
"Rach, wait." Finn said running out after her.
At the exact moment Puck and Santana walked out the guest room bumping into Rachel.
"Hey little sis.. You okay?" Puck asked hugging his sister. He looked at Finn and frowned. "What the hell happened?" He asked Finn.
Rachel looked towards them and knew there was going to be trouble.
" 's." Finn began. I wish i could just tell him i loved her. Finn thought.
"Finn has nothing to do with it." Rachel smiled. "I drank too much and Finn followed me to make sure i was okay and started giving me a lecture it just pissed me off." Rachel said looking at Puck.
"Oh." Puck said surprised. "Well he's right. Thanks man." He said looking at Finn.
Finn shrugged. "Don't mention it." He looked at Rachel she looked so hurt.
"Come on little sis" Puck said laughing. "Lets drive you home." he said kissing her head.
"I can drive her home if you want Puck?" Finn offered. He needed some time with her to explain. "It's your birthday you both can't leave." he said laughing.
Puck looked down at Rachel who still had her face buried in her chest. "No it's okay, i will be back soon." he said tightening his arms round Rachel.
Once Puck and Rachel left Santana turned to face Finn.
"I'm sorry." Santana said. "Your lucky Puck can't see love because i can tell you love her just by your eyes."
Finn looked at her and sighed. "Were done before we even started." He said sadly.