Rachel was stood putting the final touches on her make up. At this minute she was so happy that make up had been invented just because she could cover the dark circles that lay underneath her eyes. She had spent most of the night crying over what Finn had said.
How could he say those things? How could he even think for a second that she would just sleep around! She looked at her arm and brought her hand to were it was bruised and sighed. Finn grabbed her so hard he left marks.
She never thought he would hurt her like that. He was so mean and hurtful. She looked at herself in the mirror and lowered her head. She was glad the lightening at the club was dark so people wouldn't see the bruises and ask questions.
"Rach?Rachel? Ready to go?" Quinn said walking towards her.
"Huh." Rachel asked Quinn looking at her through the mirror. "Yeah." She said locking eyes with her friend. She wished she could tell her everything but she knew she couldn't.
"Okay." Quinn said nodding.
"What's wrong?" Rachel asked turning around.
Quinn looked at Rachel with her head slightly bent. "There's something big that's happening in my life at the minute and i'm scared like hell because i don't know if it's good or not and i have nobody talk too that's all." Quinn said with sadness.
"What?" Rachel asked. She couldn't believe what she was hearing. "How can you say that?" She added walking towards Quinn."We've shared everything since we were little Quinn. I'll always be there for you." Rachel couldn't believe Quinn felt like this.
"You don't mean that. You have shut down ever since your birthday, you don't let me all the way in anymore and i don't know why. Is it because i have done something." Quinn asked with tears in her eyes. "It's like i'm loosing my best friend." Quinn added as a tear fell down her face.
"Quinn!" Rachel shouted hugging her best friend. "Nothing has changed between us and it never will!" Rachel said honestly. "It's just something i need to sort out alone." She shrugged wiping away Quinn's tears. "I need to do it alone so i come out of it stronger." "Rachel said smiling. "You will know everything soon i promise."
"Really?" Quinn asked.
"Of course. You're my best friend. My sister!" Rachel said smiling.
"You're my family." Quinn said. Quinn's parents had never really been around much in her life and Rachel made her feel welcome in her family. Rachel was her family. "Lucky we both wear waterproof make up." Quinn laughed wiping away a tear from Rachel's cheek.
Rachel burst into laughter and shook her head. "Your something else! But thanks for being in my life."
"I will always be there. Thanks for being in mine." Quinn said taking Rachel's hand walking her outside. "So your going to sing tonight right?"
"I'm not sure yet." Rachel said shrugging. "So whats going on with you? I see happiness in your eyes. It's good." She added.
"I'm falling in love." Quinn said blushing sitting behind the steering wheel.
"What?" Rachel asked surprised. "You? In love? With who?"
Quinn laughed and kept her eyes on the road. "I will tell you soon. I just need to know where we stand first. But i'm scared he will think i'm not good enough for him," Quinn said shaking her head. "Maybe i'm just not good enough."
"Quinn i never want to hear those words again! You are fantastic and listen to me! Any gut in the world would be lucky to have you! He is probably not enough." Rachel added.
"Your a good friend." Quinn said parking her car infront of the club.
"I know." Rachel laughed before sighing.
Once they walked into the club they went straight to the bar where Jessie was chatting to Rachel's mother. Rachel quickly hugged him and looked across the bar where her eyes met Finn's. She quickly looked away.
"I'll be back in a minute." Jessie smiled. "The open mic starts in 10 minutes and i want to see if everything is ok after." He said walking away winking.
Quinn looked at Rachel and laughed. "He's gay isn't he?"
"What?" Rachel asked confused.
"You're to comfortable with him! He's gay right?" She said again.
"Yep." Rachel said laughing.
Quinn gave a quick look towards Finn who was looking at them. "Oh." She said. "You never moved on huh?" She added now concerned.
Rachel shrugged. "I'm a lost cause. Is your lover around?" Rachel asked changing the subject.
"Maybe." Quinn said smirking.
"So why are you here?" Rachel asked. "Go to him and have fun. Tell him how you feel. Tell him before it's to late."Rachel said smiling. She saw the doubts in her friends eyes. "Go! Jessie will be back soon."
"Okay." Quinn said hugging her best friend. "I will be back soon." She added before vanishing into the crowd.
"Okay everyone, this is the last song before open mic starts." The DJ started. "This song is dedicated to a special couple. The message it to forget about yesterday."
Rachel sighed ans the song started. She was going to kill Jessie. She knew he did this for her and Finn.
I shouldn't love you
But i want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you
But i can't move
I can't look away
Finn took a deep breath and decided to go apologize. He felt bad all night and he thought this would be the best time to talk to her because she wouldn't run away. Plus Puck wasn't here he went off somewhere with Santana.
Just so you know
This feelings taking control of me
And i can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
He sat beside her, she looked down into her glass.
"Hey." he said shyly.
"Hi." She said coldly. "If you came here to insult me some more than sorry but i'm pretty sure you said it all last night."
"I'm sorry." he said honestly. "I didn't mean all the things i said. I didn't want to hurt you." He added trying to look at her.
It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much i can't say
Do you want me to hid the feelings
Or look the other way
"You need to be more specific." Rachel said finally looking up. "You didn't mean to hurt me emotionally or physically?" She said showing him her bruised arm. "You screwed up both of them."
"Oh my god." He said in shock. "I would rather die than hurt you." he said trying to touch her but she pulled away. "Please you need to believe me, i am so sorry." he said in a begging tone.
"Ok." She said with no emotion. "I believe you."
"So were good?" Finn asked smiling.
"No, were not." She replied. "And we never will be."
"But you just said, you just said you believed me." he asked confused.
"I believe you when you say your sorry." She said looking at him. "I am sick of you apologizing and this time i have had enough. I told you, were done."
"Done?" he asked shaking his head. "Look me in the eyes and tell me that you don't feel anything for me anymore." He said turning her chair so she was looking at him. "If you say that i will let you go." He knew he couldn't be without her. He loved her! There he admitted it.
"How could you believe my answer? I'm a whore remember?" She said coldly. She would rather sing than talk to him. "Mom." She shouted.
As soon as her mother came Finn looked away. "Yeah hunny?" She asked.
"I'm going to go sing now! i will be first." She said.
Rachel walked on the stage, the lights beaming at her. "Well i promised my friend i would sing, so here i am. This is a song i wrote."
My friends say I'm crazy
Who knows maybe?
For spending time with you
You're so Bad, I'm so sad
When I'm not with you
You're so Bad, I'm so glad
I wanna be with you
Seems to me lately
You're a bad habit baby
Can't get enough of you
There's no way around it
I'm not about to doubt it
I wanna be with you
"She clearly didn't write this for me." Jessie said sitting next to Finn. "I'm not the one she wants. i never was and never will be." he said looking at him.
"I don't understand." Finn said looking at Jessie. "How do you know?" He asked.
You're so bad, I'm so sad
When I'm not with you
You're so bad, I'm so glad
I wanna be with you
No turning back baby
Don't try and save me
I'm in love with you
"I'm gay. She never let go of you while she was away. But she should of, you're no good for her." Jessie said patting Finn's shoulder before standing up and going to wait for Rachel backstage.
"Wait." Finn said grabbing Jessie. "I need a favor." He begged.
You're so bad, I'm so sad
When I'm not with you
You're so bad, I'm so glad
I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you
There's no way around it
I'm not about to doubt it
As a matter of fact lately
You're a bad habit baby
Once Rachel was done she looked to see everyone cheering and clapping.
Once she got of the stage she ran into Jessie's arms.
"I did it." She shouted smiling.
"And you were amazing." He replied smiling. "The song was something but it fit you." He said hugging her.
"I can't wait to hear you. Are you singing the song i wrote for you?" She asked excited.
"Nope." He said shaking his head. "It's a surprise."
"Okay." Rachel said frowning. She walked over and sat with Quinn.
The other singers were terrible but Sam was really good.
"He's talented." Rachel said impressed.
"He really is." Quinn said smiling while blushing.
Rachel looked and smiled. "He's perfect for you."
Quinn blushed. "Is it that obvious?"
"Kinda." She said hugging her friend.
At this moment Jessie walked onto the stage. "Hey guys, for my first song tonight i am doing a song called "sorry" This song is for someone in the audience.
Rachel smiled.
Jessie looked at Rachel with a guilty look and cleared his throat.
She then knew what was happening. She got tears in her eyes. Quinn suddenly looked at her.
Finn dedicated a song to her and Jessie went along with it.
I'm sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect
I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my sons
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there
Because I'm in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl
Tears started to fall from Rachel's cheeks. She was about to forgive him and she didn't want to.
"I'm going home." She told Quinn trying to hold her tears back.
"Ok." Quinn said nodding. "I will drive you." She said noticing the pain in her friends face.
"No you stay and have fun. Anyway Puck's car is here." Rachel said showing her they keys. "My mom asked if i could drive it home."
Quinn smiled sadly. "I'll visit you in the morning." She said drying a tear.
Rachel nodded and ran off.
Both Jessie and Finn saw her go. Finn followed her.
Rachel cried all the way back home. She hated this.
"Love is not supposed to hurt this much!" She shouted at herself parking the car.
As soon as she got home she changed into a pair of shorts and a oversized shirt. Tears were still running down her face.
Her phone kept ringing. It was of course Finn calling, she turned it off and went to sleep.
Finn was so frustrated. He parked his car down the road and he was now standing infront of Rachel's house. he knocked 2-3 times but she didn't answer.
"Okay." He said looking around. He took the spare key from under the stone.
Finn opened the door to see the house in complete darkness.
" ?" He shouted walking in. "I'm not stalking you." He said clearing his throat. "I need to talk to you." He said starting to go up the stairs he went to Rachel's room. "Just give me 10 minutes and then i'm gone forever if you want." He opened the door to find her sleeping.
Rachel turned in her sleep hearing a noise.
"Rachel, wake up."
She frowned and opened her eyes to see Finn sitting there. She jumped with shock and sat up.
"What the hell!" She shouted. "Get out." She added pointing to the door. "You can't do this, are you insane?"
"I'm insane." He said not moving. "But i really need to talk to you." She added. "You don't have to talk just listen."
Rachel sighed with clear annoyance and lay back down turning away from Finn.
"Well." He said putting a CD into her music player.
I like your smile
I like your vibe
I like your style
But that's not why I love you
And I, I like the way
You're such a star
But that's not why I love you
Hey, do you feel, do you feel me?
Do you feel what I feel too?
Do you need, do you need me?
Do you need me?
Finn felt his heart pounding so much. His eyes were locked on Rachel's back and he was scared. For the first time ever he was opening up and he couldn't see her reaction.
You're so beautiful
But that's not why I love you
I'm not sure you know
That the reason I love you
Is you being you, just you
Yeah, the reason I love you
Is all that we've been through
And that's why I love you
I like the way you misbehave
When we get wasted
But that's not why I love you
Once the song was over Finn waited a few moments before he spoke.
Finn cleared his throat. "I know it seems unreal when you look at my behavior since you have been back, but being around you seems to make me better. I'm in love with you Rachel." He said looking down.
Rachel's eyes widened but she didn't turn around. "You love me?" She asked. "And you just noticed that?"
"No! I guess i just refused to notice it. I have always loved you."
All Rachel wanted to do was hug him. She closed her eyes.
"When your brother told me about your feelings towards me you just left to go. But a part of me always loved you Rachel. I just refused to accept it because of Puck and your too good for me. I can't be enough." His voice broke and a tear fell down his face.
Rachel quietly turned around and saw the tears.
"I refused to see what you felt because i didn't feel worthy of your love and i was sure you would notice it one day and you'd break my heart, but i'm the one who made you suffer. It scares me to love you as much as i do. When i'm with you i get scared." Finn said getting up walking towards the door.
"You don't know me." She said sadly. "You said so yourself." She added looking at the ceiling.
"I was so jealous and angry that i said anything to hurt you." He said his voice shaking. "But i know you!" He added. "And i love every part of you." he smiled.
Rachel looked at him standing in front of the car. He was looking away but she could still sense the pain in him.
"I love the way you smile when something is stupid, i love the way your eyes light up when you see your brother." Finn took a deep breath. "i really love how you make me feel worthy, you never treat me like i was stupid, i guess i just love you so much."
Finn heard a sob coming from Rachel's bed. He sighed with pain while tears fell down his face.
Finn put his hand on the handle. "You see i know you. I know your heart Rachel." He said with a sob. "I wish you still loved me and i am sorry for everything. Thanks for loving me."
Finn was about to open the door when Rachel jumped off the bed.
"Finn wait." She shouted still crying. She walked to him and put a hand on his shoulder. "Your enough. You always have been and always will be. I love you Finn Hudson and i forgive you." She said smiling through the tears.
Finn turned around and lifted Rachel in his arms. "You still love me?" He asked locking eyes with hers.
She rubbed his cheek softly. "Of course i do. I never stopped." She said stroking his cheek.
Finn walked to the bed and gently laid Rachel on it before laying beside her.
"I'll make you happy, i'll try to be the man you deserve." He said softly against her lips.
"You already are." Rachel said cupping his face in her hands, closing the distance between their mouths to kiss him.
Finn wrapped his arm around her waist and pressed his body against hers. He loved the feeling. He groaned when Rachel started to softly kiss his jaw lines. "You drive me crazy." he said breathless. ""I love you."
Rachel wrapped her arms around his neck and locked eyes with him. "That's good cause i love you too." She said with a smile.
Finn rested his forehead against hers. "I will never hurt you again." He said closing his eyes. "I hate myself for hurting you."
"I know you won't." She said closing her eyes too. "I trust you." She added.
"My heart beats for only one." Finn said starting to kiss her again.
They made out for another half an hour then Finn moaned. "It's going to kill me to go home! But you need sleep and your mom will be back soon." Finn said pouting.
Rachel sighed. "I would love if you stayed for me." She said blushing.
"I love it when you blush." he said laughing. "I would love to sleep if your arms." he said standing up looking for his shoes.
Rachel stood up and locked her bedroom door. "Stay with me tonight?" She asked nervous.
"Are you sure?" he asked.
"Positive." She said laying back on her bed.
Finn looked at her for a few seconds then stripped to his boxers joining her.
Rachel smiled and closed the distance between their bodies. She put her head on his chest while he held her.
He kissed the top of her head. "Night baby girl." he said smiling.
"Night boyfriend." She said closing her eyes listening to his heart beat.