SPENCER'S P.O.V
She makes me feel things I've never felt before and when I'm with her I feel incredible.
But when I'm with Matt I don't want anything from him.
I don't want him to touch me., I don't want him to kiss me and I really don't want him to fuck me.
"Matt stop"
"What's wrong?"
"I'm really tired and you're drunk"
"Spencer we haven't had sex in over a week"
"Matt stop"
He keeps grabbing me and touching me.
"Come on Spencer"
He clearly didn't care that I was sleeping.
Because the second he got back to the room, he jumped on me and now he won't take no for an answer.
"Matt.."
When he slips his hand under my shirt I push it away.
"Babe you can just lie there and I'll do all the work?"
Did I hear that right?
"Or you can fuck off"
It's then that he slips his hand into my pants.
"Matt stop"
When he doesn't stop I quickly hop up and out of the bed.
"Why are you being so frigid?"
I'm not staying in this room with him.
"Fuck you"
I quickly grab my phone and wallet off the bedside table and leave.
LATER THAT NIGHT
I didn't know where to go, so I kept walking until I found this all night cafe on the other side of the ship.
"Spencer?"
I was hoping I wouldn't bump into anyone down here.
"I thought you were going back to your room?"
"I did"
"Did something happen?"
When she sits down opposite me I look up.
"I just couldn't sleep there"
Her eyes are locked on mine.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
How can I talk about this with her?
"Spencer I can be a really good listener when I want to be"
When she says that I smile.
"Ashley I just don't think I can talk about this with you"
"Have I done something?"
"No..."
She hasn't done anything wrong.
"It would just be weird talking about this with you..."
"How long have you been down here?"
"A while"
She's smiling.
"What's the plan?"
When she says that I start laughing.
"Ashley I don't really have a plan..."
"You can't stay down here all night"
"I'm okay"
"Don't be ridiculous Spencer you can crash in my room..."
"I'm honestly okay"
"I'll be back"
I lean back in my seat as she walks over to the counter.
I should have grabbed a sweatshirt before I left.
It's freezing.
"Here"
When she passes me a bottle of water I smile.
"Thanks"
"Let's go"
"Ash..."
"Spencer it's two o'clock in the morning and you obviously don't feel comfortable going back to your own room..."
I didn't realise it was that late.
"So just crash in mine..."
I am pretty sick of staring at nothing.
"Spencer I promise I won't touch you inappropriately"
She has the stupidest grin on her face when I move so I'm standing.
"You're incredibly strange Ashley"
"You weren't saying that a couple of hours ago"
I really love having sex with her.
She makes me feel incredible.
"Ash I'm not going to insult you when you're going down on me"
She really wasn't expecting me to say that.
"Spencer you owe me three dollars for that water"