ASHLEY'S P.O.V
"Spencer are you always this annoying to sleep with?"
It's three thirty in the morning and she hasn't stopped moving.
"Sorry, do you want me to sleep on the floor?"
"No..."
I move my hand so it's resting on her hip.
"Do you want to talk about what happened earlier?"
It's clearly bothering her and I doubt either of us will get any sleep if she doesn't talk about it.
"I think I overreacted"
It's dark but when she rolls over I can see her clearly.
"He wanted to have sex and I..."
"Didn't?"
She looks uncomfortable.
"What's wrong with me?"
"Spencer there's nothing wrong with you"
"Ashley he's my boyfriend, but I can't stand it when he touches me..."
I'd hate it to.
"And then when you're around I just spread my legs"
When she says that I start laughing.
"Ash this is why I can't have this conversation with you"
"Spencer do you really need me to say it out loud?"
"Yes"
She knows exactly what's going on.
She just doesn't want to admit.
"You're gay"
I don't think she was expecting me to be so blunt.
"Ashley I've been with Matt for nearly a year?"
Who's she trying to convince?
"Spencer most lesbians go through guys first..."
"Did you?"
I should have known that she'd have a follow up question.
"I lost my virginity to a girl when I was sixteen..."
"How old are you now?"
"Nineteen"
She seems to be moving closer and closer the more we talk.
"So you haven't been with a guy?"
"No I have I've been with two"
"I'm confused"
"Spencer would you like me to explain?"
"Yes"
She's laughing.
"Okay well I slept with a girl first because I knew I was gay"
I can't believe I'm telling her this.
"But then I convinced myself I needed confirmation so I slept with a random guy..."
"Did you like it?"
"No it was crap"
"But you still went and slept with another guy?"
When she says that I start laughing.
"Spencer I wasn't sure if it was the guy or sex with guys in general"
"So you did it again?"
"Yep"
At least I'm cheering her up.
"And you didn't like it the second time either?"
"No I hated it..."
Having sex with a girl is so much better.
"So now I only lick pussy"
"Ashley that's gross"
"You didn't think it was gross when I was doing it to you"
She hates when I say things like that.
"Spencer do you want to know what I think?"
She's smiling.
"I think I do"
She might regret saying that.
"Spencer I really don't think you're one of those girls that just sleeps with anybody"
"I slept with you straight away"
"Spencer I handed you my vagina on a silver platter and I could be wrong..."
I'm not.
"But I'm pretty sure you've wanted to have sex with another girl for a while now... right?"
"I'd thought about it, but I hadn't acted on it, 'til now"
"Compare the two?"
When I say that she buries her face into the pillow.
"No"
"Trust me Spencer it will help..."
"Will it help me or will it help your ego?"
"Both"
Now we're both laughing.
"Do you orgasm when you're with him?"
"Ashley I can't talk about this with you"
"You can't or you don't want to?"
"I don't want to..."
"Spencer I'm only asking because I think it will help"
I don't really want to hear about her sex life with Matt.
"Okay when I'm with him I don't really get off I just..."
I think it's finally clicking.
"I'm gay aren't I?"
"Spencer maybe you're just gay for me?"
I can't help myself.
"You're so full of yourself"
I have the stupidest grin on my face.
"Do you want me to try and turn you off girls?"
She's smiling.
"We can have some really horrible sex?"
"Ashley how would that be any different from what we've been doing?"
That's not funny.
"Good luck finding another girl who can make you cum as quickly as I do"
"Ashley you need a censor..."
"You need to be more thankful that I'm letting you have half my mattress"
When I say that she leans across and starts kissing me.
"Thank you"