SPENCER'S P.O.V
"Can we start over?"
When I hear her voice I turn around.
"Chels I'm sorry I was such a bitch"
She's smiling.
"I thought I'd be the one doing the apologising"
I shouldn't have stormed off like I did.
"Chels I'm so sorry I walked off..."
"Spencer it's honestly fine"
When she leans against the railing I smile.
"What's with you and these railings?"
"I'm not really sure..."
"Spencer just make sure you stay on this side..."
When she says that I start laughing.
"So do you want to try talking about it again?"
"Chelsea I wouldn't even know where to start"
I can't get my head around any of this.
"What are you going to do about Matt?"
That's what I've been trying to figure out.
"I don't know, I know I need to end it, but I don't know how"
"Just talk to him"
If only it was that simple.
"Chels I want to and I know this sounds ridiculous, but I'm still angry about what happened last night..."
"It's not ridiculous"
How can I be mad at him for what he did, when I've been cheating on him all week?
"Spencer he was out of line"
"I know but I've been out of line all week"
This whole situation sucks.
Why did I have to meet Ashley when I was in a relationship?
"Look Chelsea I wanted to sleep with her the first night I met her"
"I thought you said..."
"I said what I wanted you to think"
She's staring at me.
"But Chelsea if I'm being honest, I wanted it to happen the second she planted the idea in my head"
I still want it to happen.
"Is this all new Spence or have you thought about being with another girl before?"
"I've thought about it, but I've never wanted to do anything about it, until now"
When I say that she smiles.
"Why haven't you told me this before?"
"I don't know it's all just been thoughts until..."
"Until Ashley?"
"Yer"
She's changed everything.
"You really like her don't you?"
"Chelsea it's complicated"
"How?"
"I have a boyfriend and she's not looking for a relationship"
"What are you looking for?"
I've been going crazy all day thinking about everything.
Thinking about Ashley.
Thinking about Matt.
"I honestly don't know, I can't think past Matt"
"Spence you just need to tell him..."
"Chels if I come clean it's going to effect you and Jason as well"
I don't want what I've been doing to ruin Chelsea and Jason's trip.
"Spencer don't worry about us, you need to do what's right for you and if you're not happy, you need to end it"
She's right.
I need to tell him sooner rather than later.
"Spencer my loyalties are with you and I'm here if you need me, but he does deserve better than this"
I really hate this.
"You're right Chels he deserves to know, he deserves to know that I've been cheating..."
Today's going to be a horrible day.
"I'm going to go talk to him"
He's going to hate me.
"You should probably pre warn Ashley..."
"Or I could leave the whole Ashley bit out?"
She's shaking her head.
"Spencer..."
"Chels I don't want her to get dragged into all of my mess"
"Look Spencer I like Ashley, but she knew you had a boyfriend and she slept with you anyway"
"Alright..."
This really sucks.
"I'm going to go find him"
"Now?"
I want to get it over and done with.
"Chels if I don't do this now I'll chicken out"
"Okay well if you need me I'll be by the pool"
She's a good friend.
"Thanks"