ASHLEY'S P.O.V
I really need a drink.
"How did it go?"
"Hey can I grab a vodka cranberry..."
That's not going to cut it.
"Actually can you make that a double?"
"That good huh?"
When she says that I look over at her.
"Kyla I was honest and it got me nowhere"
"What happened?"
"I apologised for being an ass and then I told her how I felt"
"You told her?"
She has a really surprised look on her face.
"Kyla wasn't that what you were telling me to do?"
"Yer, I just didn't expect you to do it"
I didn't think I'd do it either.
It just came out.
"Well I did and she shut me down"
"What did she say?"
"Kyla I really don't want to talk about it"
"Here you go"
"Thanks"
When the waiter passes me my drink I hand her my cruise card.
"Where's Aiden?"
"He's being Aiden over there"
When she nods behind her I notice him straight away.
"Not bad"
She's cute.
"I need to pee"
"That's great Ky"
When I say that she starts laughing.
"Ashley don't disappear when I'm gone"
Where am I going to go?
I don't have anywhere better to be.
"I'll try not to Ky"
When she walks away my thoughts immediately drift back to Spencer.
I shouldn't have dropped that on her, it wasn't fair.
"L-Look who it is"
I can't see him but it's pretty obvious he's wasted.
"Matt just leave it..."
"Why would I do that J-Jason?"
When he knocks my drink out of my hand I quickly move before it spills all over me.
"Oops... Sorry"
I'm really not in the mood for round two.
"Aaaawwww what happened to your face?"
When he reaches out to touch my eye I step back.
"Ashley why so angry?"
It's getting really hard to bite my tongue when I'm around him.
"Are you one of those dykey dykes that are scared of men?"
"Matt?"
"Stay out of it J-Jason"
He's slurring all of his words.
"Matt I'm not going to do this with you"
"SHE SPEAKS"
I can smell the alcohol on him.
"Ashley if you were a guy I'd knock that smug look right off your face"
What smug look?
"What do girls see in you?"
He can barely stand up straight.
"You're a loser Ashley"
He keeps stumbling.
"You have absolutely nothing going for you"
I should have stayed in my room.
"You'd be nothing without daddy..."
"Watch it Matt"
"Aaaawwww did I hit a nerve Asshhh-ley?"
He really needs to stop talking.
"Does someone have daddy issues?"
"Matt?"
Great it's only going to get worse now Spencer's here.
"Fuck off Spencer"
He's standing incredibly close.
"Why so quiet Ashley?"
He's right in my face.
"It's like you're a fucking mute"
"Matt?"
He's ignoring her.
"Where did cocky and confident Ashley go?"
When he says that I attempt to walk away but he doesn't let me.
"Matt please?"
"Aawwww I'm sorry Spencer am I upsetting your gggiiirrrllll-friend?"
He's glaring at her.
"You know I didn't think you had it in you Spencer"
Why did she date this guy?
"You're usually so fucking frigid"
She's definitely not frigid.
"I had to wait months before you'd let me fuck you"
What an ass?
"BUT YOU FUCKING SPREAD YOUR LEGS FOR THAT BITCH STRAIGHT AWAY"
She looks really upset.
"You fell right into her trap"
I don't have a trap.
"And now you're just another desperate pathetic girl she had her way with"
"You don't know shit about me Matt"
When I say that he turns so he's facing me.
"There was no trap and she definitely wasn't desperate or pathetic"
I really need another drink.
"I pursued her, I was desperate and I was the one who wanted more"
If looks could kill I'd be dead.
"So if you want to blame someone, blame me and if you want to hate someone, hate me"
He looks really angry.
"Because I went after her, I wanted her..."
I stop talking when his hand strikes my face.
"Matt?"
"I CAN'T HEAR YOU ASHLEY?"
My cheek's burning.
"Are you alright?"
She's moved so she's standing next to me.
"Matt we're leaving now"
When Jason drags him away I turn and leave.
"Ashley?"
She's following me.
"Spencer just leave it"
When she doesn't stop following me I turn so I'm facing her.
"Are you alright?"
"I've never been better"
"I'm sorry he hit you"
"Spencer it's not your fault"
I can't read her.
I can't tell what she's thinking.
"I'm just going to go"
"Ashley don't fucking walk away again... We need to talk"
"Why?"
"You're upset"
"I'll get over it"
"Don't be a bitch Ashley"
This is a side of her I've never seen before.
"Spencer what do you want from me?"
When I say that she steps closer.
"I want you to stop playing games"
Did I hear that right?
"Ashley I don't need this extra drama, I don't need you acting like you don't give a shit..."
"If I'm so irritating why don't you just walk away?"
"Ashley if I could walk away from you I would have done it a long time ago"
When she says that I don't know what to say.
"I've fucked everything up Ashley and now you're making me think I've dealt with this all wrong"
That wasn't my intention.
"I keep coming to you and you keep blowing me off..."
"Spencer I told you how I felt and you shut me down"
"I didn't fucking shut you down..."
I should have worded that better.
"Ashley you walked off before I could say anything"
"I don't want to make this anymore complicated than it already is"
"How can it get any more complicated than this?"
She looks really annoyed.
"Ashley we're on this fucking ship with nowhere to go, Matt hates me, you're avoiding me and I really don't know how to handle any of this"
I'm such an idiot.
"Spencer I'm sorry"
"Are you really?"
"Yes"
She's biting her bottom lip.
"Ashley you made me think I was just your latest play thing"
"You're not"
"I know that now but you never did anything to make me think otherwise"
"I'm not good at this"
That's an understatement.
"No shit Ashley..."
"I'm sorry"
She's looking a lot less annoyed than she was before.
"Are you okay?"
"Are you?"
When I say that she smiles.
"Ash I'm sorry he said all those things to you"
"I deserved it"
"He shouldn't have hit you"
"It's okay"
I don't want her to worry about me.
She has a enough going on.
"Ashley I'm sorry"
What is she sorry for?
"But I can't do anything with you when he's like this"
I was waiting for that.
"I really like you Ashley and if circumstances were different I wouldn't hesitate"
I don't know what to say.
"But Ashley they aren't different and it wouldn't be fair if I just jumped into something with you, when everything with Matt is so messed up"
Her eyes are locked on mine.
"I'm sorry"
"Spencer it's okay"
When I pull her in for a hug she buries her face into the side of my neck.
"I should go"
"Are you going to be alright?"
"Yer"
"Spencer I'm sorry I was such a bitch"
She's smiling.
"Ashley I didn't expect you to be any other way"
When she walks away I can't help but laugh.
This girl's going to be the death of me.